Chapter 1120 Long Time No See

Einstein proposed the theory of relativity and said that putting your hand on a hot stove for a minute feels like an hour has passed, and spending an hour in a room with a beautiful girl only feels like a minute has passed.

Lu Mingfei still remembered the gravel road with dandelions on the side of the river that he and Chen Wenwen walked. At that time, he always felt that the road was too short, and the ten minutes' journey passed by those trivial things in the blink of an eye. In the words, they always feel that no matter how long the road is, it is not enough for them to walk.

He also had a vain fantasy on that road. If he got lucky one day and really got together with Chen Wenwen, wouldn't the future days fly by like light because of the theory of relativity? In the blink of an eye, the room was full of people, and in the blink of an eye, he and she were sitting in a wheelchair watching the sunset. Perhaps Lu Mingfei never imagined at that time that the time he cherished with girls like gold would one day make him restless.

He personally used growth to burn to death the youth and love all over the mountains and plains. Maturity and reunion naturally grew in that wilderness. When he set foot on that hillside again, he was confused and frightened. He was disappointed because nothing seemed to have changed, and he was afraid that nothing had really changed, so he thought of the possibility of starting over.

Every minute on the train is like a year to him. There are sixty seconds in a minute. In sixty seconds, they can always say about ten sentences. Lu Mingfei needs to think about and consider every sentence. You can't say anything wrong, but you can't say nothing at all either.

"Is that your classmate?" Chen Wenwen asked.

"Yes, we are at the same level, but from different departments."

"Is your classmate Russian? I heard her speak Chinese very well just now." Chen Wenwen turned her head slightly and carefully looked at Ling's profile. The unique facial lines of Russian girls cannot be hidden. That kind of beauty is There was a softness and depth that was very distinctive, but in order not to offend, she still asked Lu Mingfei one more question.

"Chinese is counted as a credit in our school, and many people take Chinese as an elective. Those people are the best in internal examinations and take examinations in everything, so everyone can speak Chinese."

Lu Mingfei is not talking nonsense, because Chinese at Kassel College really counts as a credit, and it is not an elective, but a compulsory course. Fortunately, I don’t have to go back to the IELTS hell anymore, but the price is that when I go home, my aunt and the others always chase after Lu Mingfei to ask how his speaking skills in the United States went and whether he can communicate fluently with foreigners. Every time like this, he They were all sweating profusely and I didn’t know how to explain it.

Ling never participated in the "small talk" between Lu Mingfei and Chen Wenwen. It was not until the topic was brought to her that she politely turned her head and stared at Chen Wenwen.

"Hello? I'm Lu Mingfei's high school classmate, Chen Wenwen." Chen Wenwen found that the other party was staring at her, and she was a little unable to stand. She took a step forward, sandwiched Lu Mingfei in between, and reached out under Lu Mingfei's arm. , and Zero barely shook hands.

"Zero." The self-introduction is quite brief, and there is no difference between them.

"Zero?" Chen Wenwen didn't quite understand the meaning of this name. Is it the transliteration of a Russian name, or is her Chinese name "Zero".

"Her Chinese name is Ling. We all call her by this name. It's simple and easy to remember. Her original name is too long and it's exhausting to call her in one breath." Lu Mingfei explained.

Zero nodded cooperatively, and calmly turned away his eyes to look at the white light signs flowing like shadows in the dark tunnel outside the subway window.

She refused to communicate with Chen Wenwen.

"How long do you plan to stay in Bei'an this time?" Chen Wenwen saw that Ling didn't seem to want to talk, so she took a half step back and placed her hands in front of her body and asked in a low voice.

"I'm not sure. This time we are here to learn about folklore. We can't say for sure when we will go back. It depends on the school's arrangements, right? But we haven't run away for about ten days and a half." Lu Mingfei also felt a little melancholy. , he also wants to know how long this mission will last, but judging from the current situation, it is estimated that he will not be able to find the dragon's nest in one day, and he will not be able to return to school in one day.

"Do you have a place to live?" Chen Wenwen asked.

"If you have a place to stay, you have a place to stay. As a treat for the little goddess, we will stay in the hotel over Wangfujing. The location is great. You can still see a large part of the Forbidden City from the rooftop where you have afternoon tea upstairs." Lu Mingfei felt that this should be the case. It can be said that hotel check-in information and other information are basically semi-public, and anyone who is interested can find it out.

"It's like something Su Xiaoqiang would do." Chen Wenwen smiled softly.

"Yeah." Lu Mingfei said.

They finished talking now.

The subway rumbled forward. Lu Mingfei looked at the indicator lights on the platform and found that there was silence between him and Chen Wenwen.

The two people's eyes met, and then separated for an instant, looking elsewhere.

Lu Mingfei suddenly realized that no one was starting a new topic, so silence came naturally, and the rumble of the subway filled his ears.

silence.

The near silence.

The silence after a long separation.

actually.

In fact, they could not say anything anymore, wait until the subway arrived at the destination, the compartment door opened, left after a brief goodbye, and ended this unexpected meeting in silence.

But for some reason, Lu Mingfei always felt that he should say something and find some topics.

He was a little restless in his heart, but he also had a sense of ridiculous self-deprecation, that kind of contradiction, that kind of complexity, when new ideas came up one after another, he quickly rejected them.

Maybe I should do this. No, I can't do this. But I want to do this, do I really want to? If I want to, does it mean more? But I don't want to do that anymore. But are you really willing not to do this? Those thoughts are obscure and messy, like the humming and wind in the tunnel, spiraling and echoing, jumping in the eyes of the expressionless boy.

In general, Lu Mingfei doesn't like the silence between him and Chen Wenwen now, because this silence is definitely not the tacit silence of the past. What is spreading between them now is the silence without words.

There are only two kinds of relationships between people, you can talk at any time, and you can not talk at any time. When talking, you get the joy of sharing with each other, and in the silence of not talking, you get the same pleasant time as when talking.

If people can talk to each other at any time, but they can't say it, and when they don't talk, they are eager to find a reason to talk, then this relationship is probably pathological.

This kind of morbidity will devour the words between people and give birth to the same morbid silence. This silence will quietly grind each other's emotions, put them on fire and roast them, and not allow them to make a sound. Every second is a painful torture.

Lu Mingfei never thought that this torture would appear on him and Chen Wenwen. This made him feel a little lost and difficult to accept, so he couldn't help but want to deny this reality.

"I" Lu Mingfei looked up.

Chen Wenwen also looked up, but Lu Mingfei stopped, tilted his head and scratched his ears. The girl smiled lightly and looked away.

The abnormal rhythm of the heart affected the throat. He wanted to say something, but the larynx swallowed all the syllables with the sound of the heartbeat.

Lu Mingfei said nothing, nothing he said.

In Lu Mingfei's opinion, it seemed that he didn't know what to say.

What should I talk about? Talk about school? No, there is nothing to talk about in Kassel College.

Talk about the past, their past? The story of Shilan High School is not worth talking about. Let the past be the past. Don't bother the people now.

Talk about the present, talk about the present life? Indeed, this is a good topic. Classmates who haven't seen each other for a long time basically talk about life. Lu Mingfei can't talk about his own life, so let's talk about Chen Wenwen's life.

For example, he actually thought about the opening remarks. Hi, Wenwen, how is school recently? Or have you adapted to the rhythm here during this time in Beijing? At worst, you can talk about the weather, saying that the weather in Beijing is so dry. My lips cracked as soon as I got off the plane. Do you have lipstick? Can you lend it to me?

But Lu Mingfei didn't ask. It was difficult to say caring words, but he couldn't help but care about the mood.

Weird.

—

Okay.

So now, let's withdraw from the awkward and terrifying silence on the subway and see the boy and girl in front of the car door from a third-person perspective. They are no more than 20 centimeters apart and can feel each other's breathing frequency.

Let's talk about Lu Mingfei first.

People like Lu Mingfei are generally called bitches, because bitches are hypocritical and their thoughts are always delicate in inexplicable places. He probably thinks that if he suddenly asks about the girl's life now, whether she is doing well recently, etc., it will be too abrupt.

Where is it abrupt.

It is abrupt because Lu Mingfei doesn't want Chen Wenwen to think that he is eager to know the other party's situation. Just like lovers who have broken up for a long time, no one will first enter the next sentence "How are you recently?" in the chat bar with "Let's just leave it!" in the history record, which will make people feel that they have lost. People who care about others first are always losers, even if they know that the other party will be happy to catch this branch.

So the time in the past was beautiful enough. Lu Mingfei and the dandelion-colored girl were together, and there was always that kind of tacit understanding. I have a crush on you, but I also know that you understand my feelings. When you and I understand each other's thoughts, the quietness that emerges is full of tacit understanding.

He missed that time and the tacit understanding they had during that time, but now they were in an awkward silence, which made him try hard to break it and find those seemingly true topics to prove that some things had not changed.

But things that have changed have changed. This kind of silence and estrangement between each other are all caused by those ubiquitous changes.

Perhaps a smart enough friend, if he were next to Lu Mingfei, would not be able to help but ask a sharp question, "Lu Mingfei, didn't you and Chen Wenwen end it a long time ago? In front of Sophie Lade Pizza, you shook hands and made peace, putting an end to the sour and bitter youth in the past. Why are you inexplicably hypocritical now? You don't want to... revive, do you?"

But unfortunately, no one would ask Lu Mingfei this question, and no one needed to ask it.

Because Lu Mingfei himself might have asked this question in his heart in the roar of the subway and the tunnel, and got the answer.

No one knows what the answer is, or in other words, people who have really had similar emotional experiences also know the answer.

——That is not a clear answer, and the answer itself cannot provide any subjective initiative. Its existence is like an unlocked door. You slam the door and hide in the room, but deliberately do not lock the door. It is not difficult to imagine what you are waiting for when you sit at the foot of the bed wrapped in a quilt and look at the door.

I know, I am timid, I shrink, and I am full of expectations.

That’s why Lu Mingfei received fair comments from the bitch. Perhaps in terms of right and wrong, he has successfully developed a decisive character because of Lin Nian, but in terms of personal emotions, those lingering spider webs called emotions on his cheeks, he has always been that Lu Mingfei.

These things are not what Lin Nian can teach him, nor will Lin Nian teach him. The entanglement of right and wrong, and the hesitation when it is necessary to make a decision, may be the test of Lu Mingfei’s life, just like his own name.

Lin Nian cannot judge the right or wrong of Lu Mingfei’s hypocrisy. Can we really judge the right or wrong of this kind of indecision and the chaos itself?

No one knows how the story ends. If the entanglement and pain continue, will it be more painful for a long time, or will it be sweet after suffering and reunited after the dark clouds and flowers. This is also the fundamental reason why Lu Mingfei can't escape from it - a deep-rooted love (I would like to call any love that runs through a boy or girl's youth, and makes them think about it day and night as deep-rooted), once it starts, it will only end when the yellow soil is sprinkled on the coffin lid.

But in the end, after saying so much, back to Lu Mingfei, his real fear may still be that he is worried that the next sentence he opens will completely push the door open and give both parties a [reason].

After talking about Lu Mingfei's indecision and indecision, let's talk about Chen Wenwen.

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"Mingfei."

Lu Mingfei, who was still thinking about what to say about an irrelevant topic, looked up when he heard the voice.

"How have you been recently?" Chen Wenwen asked softly.

His heart skipped a beat, his head was a little empty, and he looked at Chen Wenwen in a daze.

He saw the girl looking at him with her face that was a little bit not very energetic, but still trying to be energetic.

She asked very courageously, without any pretense of naturalness, very sincere, that sincerity made Lu Mingfei feel panic and unable to stabilize his forced natural expression.

"I want to hear about the interesting things that happened to you during this period. Can you tell me?" Chen Wenwen looked into his eyes and whispered.

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Maybe there is nothing to say about Chen Wenwen from now on, as you can see.

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Someone sighed slightly in the subway, very low and clear.

Ling lowered her eyes and looked at the reflection of the boy and girl in front of the door outside the window. Her beautiful figure was hidden in the crowd of the carriage, trying not to disturb the confused mood of the wind blowing dandelions.

Now she didn't want to look anymore and was ready to retract her gaze.

But what was ridiculous, but actually couldn't laugh out loud, was that when she was about to withdraw her sight, she unexpectedly saw Lu Mingfei, who was not far behind her, secretly using the reflection of the window to look at herself.

What's more coincidental is that Ling and Lu Mingfei's sight met on the glass at that moment.

Chen Wenwen looked at Lu Mingfei and waited for his answer. When Lu Mingfei's mind was blank, he looked at Ling in the subway window. He was surprised to find that Ling in the window was also looking at him quietly, as if he was paying attention to him from beginning to end.

ps: I can't say