Chapter 2091 The Way Out

"Joan, your beautification of human nature and human society is nothing but wishful thinking, essentially out of fear."

"You are afraid of your own bestiality, you are afraid that you will not be able to restrain your anti-social instincts, and you are afraid that you will become a destroyer of the human social order, although this order is far from perfect."

Professor Moriarty held a pipe and paced back and forth in the laboratory while talking.

His eyes had already moved away from Joan, and he was staring at the void, as if he was talking to his own soul. The person he was really trying to convince was not his students, but himself.

"Why don't you consider other ways out? We must know that destroyers can also become revolutionaries, destroying the unreasonable order in your eyes and rebuilding a more ideal social order. This is the source of human society's progress."

"If you really don't have the courage and determination to join the torrent of social change, at least you can choose to escape. If you don't see it, you don't worry about it. Be a hermit away from worldly disputes."

"When we speak of solitude, Joanne, you know that beasts are no less sublime than gods, at least they are no worse than herdsmen."

Finally, taking a deep breath of the cigarette, Professor Moriarty suddenly turned around, his deep and burning eyes once again fell on his student's face, looking extraordinarily solemn.

"Joan, we must not have prejudices and prejudices in learning, and we must examine every possibility equally. Have you seriously considered the possibility that you, Joan Vida, are no longer here as a human being? live in this world?"

Give up your human identity?

Professor Moriarty's words echoed in Joan's ears like the persuasion of the devil, and touched his heartstrings. At the same time, it also aroused his defensive instincts, as if being pricked by a red-hot steel needle, and he couldn't help trembling.

Taking a deep breath, Joan tried his best to keep calm, and sternly refuted the ridiculous suggestion that his mentor just made to him.

"Being human is not the result of my free choice. It is a priori fact and an unchangeable prerequisite. I cannot fundamentally deny 'I am human'. I can only work hard under the constraints of this premise. Live your life!"

Professor Moriarty smiled strangely when he heard the words, approached Joan, and asked in a low voice: "My student, think about it carefully and face yourself honestly. Is it true?"

Joan was stunned for a moment, then subconsciously raised his right hand, tightly covering the deformed eyeball behind his neck, biting his lips so that the color had already lost.

Professor Moriarty noticed that he looked strange, so he stopped continuing this overly sensitive topic, chatted a few words, and left the laboratory to go to the stock exchange.

Qiao An was in a state of confusion and didn't intend to stay for a long time, so she bid farewell to Duo'er.

"Dr. Vida, were you and the master arguing just now?" Duo'er asked worriedly when sending Joan out.

Joan stopped in front of the door, thought for a few seconds, then turned to her and said, "It's not a quarrel, it's just that I have disagreements with my instructor on some issues, and I'm trying to persuade the other party to accept my point of view."

"Then the result, which of you was persuaded?"

"At present, there is no real consensus." Joan hesitated for a moment, and then said: "However, I have to admit that the questions raised by the instructor are very sharp and have greatly touched my thoughts. The idea is indeed a little naive, not only because of lack of experience or insufficient knowledge accumulation, but also because of the weakness of character, always intentionally or unintentionally escaping from reality, afraid to face the real self."

Duo'er held his hand, with sympathy and fear intertwined in her eyes.

"Dr. Vader, your true self seems to be the focus of your argument with your master. This topic makes me very uneasy."

"What does this have to do with you?" Joan asked in surprise.

"Master once asked you whether it is an indisputable fact that you are born human. Of course, you can confidently answer in the affirmative, but I don't have such confidence, because I know very well that I am not a real human being, but just a human being." I have always pretended to be a human being and imitated the human way of life."

"Most of the time, I can lie to myself not to care about these things, and even forget the fact that I am not a human being, but the master's questioning of you just now made me feel the same, as if those questions were also directed at me..."

"Duo'er, I care about my identity because I have been working hard to integrate into human society and long to gain the recognition of the public, but your life is very simple, you hardly have contact with outsiders, and you don't need to deal with any complicated social relationships. Does it make sense to you whether you are human or not, living in a vacuum test tube?"

"Dr. Vader, your question can actually be asked in a more straightforward way—do we live in this world mainly to satisfy others, or to make ourselves feel at ease?"

Duo'er gave a wry smile, her wine red eyes revealing misery.

"If I live for others, it doesn't matter whether I am a human or a doll. Anyway, as long as I can satisfy the people I care about—that is, the master and you—then I have realized the value of existence."

"Conversely, if I live for myself, I should look for my existence value outside of you and my master. If I can find it, I will have an independent personality and free will. If I can't find it, then I am just a A doll covered in human skin."

"So did you find it?" Joan asked without thinking.

"You see, this is the key." Duo'er spread her hands and smiled bitterly, "As long as I still live in this laboratory, my thoughts will be completely tied to you and the master, and all my thoughts will revolve around you Son, it is impossible to escape your influence, impossible to develop independent thought."

Joan nodded thoughtfully.

"It makes sense, Duo'er, have you considered leaving here and living somewhere else alone?"

"When I heard you arguing with the master just now, I had the idea of ​​leaving for the first time in my life, but I quickly dismissed it by myself."

"Why?" Joan asked puzzled.

"Because I don't have the courage to get out of this small world. As you said, this is mainly a defect in character."

Duo'er sighed faintly.

"When I realized my weakness, I could still say that I was created by the master. The master did not design a strong character for me. My weakness is mainly due to my innate inadequacy. There is nothing wrong with it."

"As for you, Dr. Vader, you are not a doll designed and manufactured by others. We have similar predicaments, but you have no excuse to comfort yourself, so I know...your pain is above mine."