One Thousand Two Hundred and Nineteen, Come to Realize

The first update today, please recommend, please subscribe!

The winter in Los Angeles is at least fifty degrees Fahrenheit (ten degrees Celsius) above, making it impossible to feel the cold wind at all. But people's perception of temperature often depends on their own mood. In summer, it will feel like falling into an ice cellar, and in winter, it will feel as warm as spring. This is the power of mood. For Bly Rabbit Lively, this winter is extraordinarily cold.

Blake Lively was sitting in the dark movie theater, watching Jack say to Ennis on the big screen, "I wish I knew how to quit you..." and collapsed in an instant, like a three-year-old kidnapped. Like a lollipop, he cried helplessly and helplessly.

Her heart was like being picked up by a big hand, and the pain made her speechless, and even her breathing was pressed to pause. She also wanted to know how to quit Evan-Bell, but she couldn't, she couldn't help it. She could only be like Jack, angry, outburst, regret, complain, but in the end, she was firmly tied to Evan Bell's side, forever and ever.

Originally, she thought that three months had passed, everything would be fine, and time would heal everything. But she was wrong. When love really goes deep into the bone marrow, even time can't fade the color that belongs to love. Instead, it becomes deeper and clearer as time goes on.

In recent months, at night, she has always had some bizarre dreams. Wake up in the empty New York City, the empty city is not unusual, but it is terribly lonely, even the sound of running can echo, and the loneliness is like a vortex swallowing her in an instant: When she woke up on a land with frequent volcanic eruptions and frequent earthquakes, she didn't even have time to react, so she could only obey her instinct and start to run away, running like this, endlessly running, but she could never wake up from her dream. Come on, even though she is exhausted, frightened, but still continues to run with heavy steps...

When she woke up from these dreams, she was soaked in sweat, and then she lay stupidly on the bed, and then she couldn't stop crying. She hates herself like this, because such weakness will only make her miss Evan Bell even more.

Blake Lively has always thought of herself as a very dashing and brave girl. When she faced Evan Bell, she bravely pursued her own happiness and finally succeeded. Whenever she sees that kind of girl on TV and in movies who cry to the death for love, she will feel that it is stupid. She is the most irrational behavior, because mistakes are made by men, and women are the results. to undertake.

Therefore, she also believes that she is mentally prepared for everything about Evan and Bell. Even in the face of parting, she can turn around and leave with a smile, without any nostalgia.

She did the same when parting really came. Leaving gracefully, even after cursing hysterically on the phone, she quickly returned to her daily routine, going to classes, eating, and playing, and she wouldn't call Evan Bell like a lunatic. She didn't either. Will be deadly to beg Evan Bell to come back.

However, she was really in pain, not only in heartache, but every inch of her body was in constant pain because of the mad yearning. It was like dancing with blood on the tip of a knife, and every movement made her heartache. She hated Evan-Bell because it was Evan-Bell's scheming that destroyed their relationship; but she hated herself even more, hating the self who still loved Evan-Bell and still couldn't stop thinking about Evan-Bell.

It turns out that in the face of love, she is no different from Blake Lively, nor is there any difference, she is the most clichéd, bloody, and boring girl in soap operas on TV, crying to the death for a man,

Heartache is already dying. And that man is still alive and well.

Blake Lively has been in a trance since returning from a concert in New York. After months of tumultuous thoughts, Blake Lively wasn't sure what she was thinking, she didn't know whether she hated Evan Bell or it was useless to hate herself, and she didn't know where this relationship would go... ... Chuan, of course, she doesn't know if tomorrow will be the end of the world. She doesn't know all of this. It's like there are countless unknown things in this world that can't be explained. Even though she tried her best to explore, she still couldn't see things. the whole picture. The only thing Blake Lively knew was that the hole in her heart was always empty, and that place had always belonged to Evan Bell. is love? Is it pain? Missing? Complaining? Is it hatred? But in the end it all belongs to Evan Bell.

Blake Lively, confused and unable to find a direction, would unconsciously search for news about Evan Bell, but then force herself to forget it all; she would travel thousands of miles to New York to watch a concert, but then She hated her own weakness and incompetence; when she knew about the scandal between Anne-Hatherford and Evan-Bell, she would be jealous and even more envious, and she also hoped that she would have the courage to look away like Anne-Hatherford. Misty, but she didn't know why she envy Anne-Hathie... She was confused.

In the midst of the chaos, Blake Lively wandered to the cinema to watch "Brokeback Mountain" for the second time in the dark. When Jack said that line, all of Blake Lively's emotions collapsed, because this sentence was her heart, and she also hoped that she would stop thinking about Evan Bell, and she also hoped that time would heal everything , she also hopes that she can really hate Evan Bell, and she also hopes that she can get rid of the bondage and look forward to her knees... but she can't.

I wish I knew how to quit you.

This sentence is like a soft but tough thorn, stabbed in Blake Lively's heart, and the pain spreads little by little. In the past three months, she had not cried so much, but at this moment she broke out completely.

Ennis finally looked at the two shirts in the cupboard and said with tears in his eyes, "Jack, I swear..."

Blake Lively looked at the big screen with tears in his eyes, looking at Evan Bell's clear blue eyes, his whole heart sank slowly, sinking into the azure sea, watching The blue became darker and darker from the light sky blue, and finally turned into endless darkness.

Blake Lively just sat there, motionless. The cinema staff didn't come out to drive the crowd, because she bought an overnight combo ticket to watch three movies in a row. When the big screen lights up again, Blake Lively's attention is drawn to the blinding light. There are also a pair of bright blue eyes, but these blue eyes do not have the depth of Evan Bell, on the contrary, they are clear and pure.

It's "Sunny Little Beauty"! Unexpectedly, this evening seems to be a special show for Evan and Bell, and "Brokeback Mountain" and "Sunshine Little Beauty" are broadcast together

Blake Lively has yet to see "Beautiful Sunshine", this is the first time. She looked at Oliver with a small belly. Although the situation of the Hoover family was very bad, inexplicably, her mood improved. Oliver was like a beam of sunlight shining through the dark clouds.

Seeing that everyone in the Hoover family has their own predicament, it seems that everyone is a loser in life, but the family relentlessly drove towards Redondo Beach to realize Oliver's beauty pageant dream. After arriving at the destination, at the port, Dwayne, who had just passed the dream of being a pilot, said, "Life is one beauty pageant after another, you know, high school, college, work? flight academy.

do you know? If I want to fly, I will find a way to fly. Do what you want and let the rest go to hell. "

This sentence made the smile on Blake Lively's face freeze, especially the last sentence.

In Blake Lively's 20-year-old life, although he was not enthusiastic about doing things for three minutes, he was indeed like most young people, without a clear goal, and went with the flow in the ocean of life. Looking back on her past life, she can really decide that there are actually two things she wants to do: to capture Evan and Bell, that is her own happiness; to become an actor, that is her own future. And these two things, in fact, have an inescapable relationship with Bell.

"Do what you want, and let the rest go to hell." This sentence is completely Evan Bell's style, and it was this Evan Bell that made Blake Lively fall out of control. fell in love. Thinking of that night when the sea breeze was raging, Blake Lively pursued her own happiness so boldly, bravely and straightforwardly, and she firmly held the initiative in her palm. But why are you backing away now? Why are you hesitating now? Is it because of age? Or was it because she had lost that spirit?

Looking back on the decadent self in the past three months, even Blake Lively hates that self, because that is not himself, at least not normal. What kind of person should the real self be, and what kind of girl made Evan Bell fall in love, not the weak woman who washed her face in tears in the past three months, but standing on the avenue in the middle of the night, facing herself. happy girl running wild.

Knowing, not knowing; certain, uncertain, isn't that what it is? If there is still hesitation and hesitation, it is uncertain; and what is truly certain does not require these additional factors. So what if she was with Evan Bell, like Anne Heather? This is uncertain, but what she can be sure of is that no matter what the situation is, she is sure that Evan Bell is her own happiness. As long as Evan-Bell doesn't let go, she won't let go. That's 100% sure!

In an instant, all the thoughts in my mind cleared the clouds and became clear. Watching the last scene of "Little Sunshine Beauty", the evening sun in California shone on the bright yellow bus, Blake Lively suddenly laughed, and all the weight on his shoulders was thrown out of the sky. .

Outbreak asking for a monthly pass, asking for a subscription!

[To be continued "The reply to this article was provided by the breaking dawn update team x-on:小爱332335". If you like this work, you are welcome to ◣First Release◥ to vote for recommendation and monthly tickets. Your support is my biggest motivation. 】