One Thousand Ninety-One Restrained Outbreak

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When I woke up the next day, it was time to part.

Jack said he planned to go back to his hometown, Lenin Plain, to see his parents. Speaking at the moment of parting, Jack clearly meant something, but Ennis didn't catch it.

Ennis just said that they couldn't see each other in August and had to wait until November, because alimony and the stress of life were exhausting, and he couldn't take any more time off.

The two got into an argument, and when Ennis learned that Jack had been to Mexico, his anger erupted as well. "I'll just say it once, son of a bitch Jack Twist, I'm not kidding you. I Don't know--I don't know about those things--if I know, I'll kill you. I'll do what I say!" Ennis shoved Jack hard and turned angrily away.

Jack also broke out completely. He stood by the lake and shouted through gritted teeth, "Okay, then listen to me too, I'll only say this once!"

"Say it!" Ennis turned around angrily, stopped, and looked at Jack who was standing by the lake in a madness.

"Let me tell you, we could have been ~~.shushuw.-UPDATE STARTING~~ to be together very happily! Truly a happy life! We could have had a place just for the two of us. But you don't want to, Ennis! So now we just have to meet on Brokeback Mountain! That's all, that's what we got, fuck. He... fuck. So I hope you understand that even if you never cared more!"

Facing Jack angrily venting his dissatisfaction in his heart, Ennis turned around, he didn't dare to face it, and he couldn't face it.

Jack came over, pointed to Ennis's back, and vented all the richest, deepest, and most urgent emotions in his heart, "You fucking count how many times we've been together in the past 20 years, wait until you figure it out and you tie me up. How long before you ask me about Mexico. Tell me to kill me for something I want and almost never get! You have no idea how hard it all is for me! I'm not you… ...I can't stand living in this deep mountain forest once or twice a year! You're too much, Ennis, bitch! I wish I knew how to quit you (u)!"

All this is like the transparent water vapor from the hot spring. All the promises, oaths, shames, sins, fears that haven't been mentioned in so many years, all the unspeakable things are now lingering in my mind at this moment. Ennis just stood there, as if shot in the chest, pale and wrinkled. It was as if he was fighting a silent battle. The inner struggle, collision, and explosion destroyed his internal organs,

He could barely take the oncoming blow and collapsed in an instant.

"Then why didn't you?" Ennis closed his eyes, and the tears fell like a thousand pounds. "Why don't you leave me alone, it's all because of you, Jack, I am who I am today." Ennis's voice trembling. He could no longer bear the torment in his heart: "I am nothing, and I don't belong anywhere."

Look at Ennis like this. All the anger and persistence in Jack's heart turned into pieces. He reluctantly walked towards Ennis and tried to hug his lover. But Ennis burst out completely, pushing Jack away forcefully, "Get out of here!"

Jack approached Ennis again, as he had been doing for the past twenty years, hugging Ennis tightly. Ennis fell into Jack's arms like a child, moaning in pain, he wanted to cry. But there were no tears; he wanted to cry, but there was no sound. That kind of love that hurt to the extreme directly destroyed Ennis, a stubborn and dull man. He squatted down weakly and hugged Jack, as if he had caught a life-saving driftwood in the ocean.

"Okay. I won't say it anymore, you're such a fool, Ennis." Jack hugged Ennis tightly, tightly. He knew that he would never quit Ennis in his life.

In a trance, my memory returned to Brokeback Mountain twenty years ago. The two young men, who were only nineteen years old, were still grazing on the mountain. Jack fell asleep beside the bonfire, and Ennis came over and hugged Jack from behind. "You are like a horse, you can fall asleep standing up." Jack slowly raised his head and leaned on Ennis to continue sleeping. on. Ennis put his chin on Jack's shoulder and whispered, "My mother used to tell me that when I was a kid, and she sang to me." After speaking, Ennis began to hum a low tune.

This is also the loveliest moment between Ennis and Jack. In an instant, the beautiful picture brought tears to my eyes.

Ennis hugged Jack and whispered, "I'm leaving." Jack stood there and watched Ennis ride up the mountain to watch the sheep at night, and just watched Ennis leave without looking back.

Going back to the present twenty years later, Jack was also standing there, watching Ennis leave, and still did not look back.

Ennis broke up with waitress Kathy, and he didn't even know why, thinking it was because he wasn't funny enough. But Kathy told him tearfully that the girl didn't fall in love with "fun". Hearing this sentence, Ennis was thoughtful.

Coming out of the post office, Ennis found that the postcard he had sent Jack to make an appointment to meet in November had been returned with the words "deceased." Ennis called Lulin, who said Jack was pumping air on a car tire on a remote road, and the tire blew, breaking the bridge of his nose and jaw, and bleeding to death.

But Ennis thought of another image, Jack being found out as gay and then beaten to death by someone, just like the tragically dead farmer his father took him to see when he was a child. This made Ennis a little stunned, his thin lips were trembling slightly, and his eyes were dodged under the brim of his hat.

Lurin said plainly and indifferently, only the constant wandering eyes could see the fluctuations in her heart "According to Jack's wishes, we cremated him, leaving half of his ashes here, and half of his ashes to his parents. He once said he wanted to scatter his ashes on Brokeback Mountain, but I don't know where. He's been talking about Brokeback Mountain a lot over the years, and I think he imagined that place. Brokeback Mountain, happy bluebirds singing, whiskey flowing... …”

Hearing this moment, Javier Dolan's heart trembled. What a deep love that was. For more than 20 years, Jack still refers to the happy and beautiful Brokeback Mountain. There is no oath, no sweet words, but it hits the heart directly and cruelly. Tears in the eyes began to overflow involuntarily.

More than Javier Dolan, the audience was shocked. Styles-Lawrence thought of the words Jack said "I wish I knew how to quit you" when Jack and Ennis were arguing. Perhaps, Ennis was Jack's drug addiction, and he could never quit it for the rest of his life. This kind of direct shock, no need for sensationalism or exaggeration, directly enters the bottom of my heart without obstruction, and then creates a shock in my heart and mind.

Ennis came to Lenin Plains and found Jack's parents. Jack's father said that Jack often mentioned Ennis, saying that he would bring Ennis back, and the two of them could take care of the ranch. But Ennis didn't show up, and this summer, Jack brought another man back to build a house and manage the ranch. Jack plans to get a divorce and come back to settle here.

This man should be Randall. Ennis suddenly understood. Jack said he was going back to the Lenin Plain to prepare to settle here. He hoped that Ennis would come back with him, but Ennis refused. And the object of Jack's derailment before was not the neighbor's wife Nashaun, but the neighbor Randall. The reason why Jack died is because he and Randall were discovered by others, and they died unexpectedly. Just like the pair of ranchers Ennis saw as a child.

There was so much information here that Ennis was so upset that he went upstairs to Jack's room. On the side of the wall where Jack's convenience must come out, Ennis found the denim blue shirt that he had first met Jack. It looked very heavy, but Ennis realized that there was another one inside. It was Ennis. Own white checked shirt. The two shirts, the one they wore in the fight just before parting, still had blood stains on the shirts. Ennis thought he had left the shirt on Brokeback Mountain, but it was Jack smuggled back.

Jack put the two shirts tightly together, Jack's on the outside and Ennis on the inside, as if Jack had been guarding Ennis tightly. This secret made Ennis understand that Jack loved him all the time, always him, but he couldn't give Jack the promise he wanted. At this moment, Ennis realized how much Jack loved himself, and how deeply he loved Jack for something.

Ennis couldn't help closing his eyes, he knew that Jack had left him, forever and ever, and the person who loved him most in the world would never appear again. Ennis pressed his face to his clothes and breathed hard, hoping to smell the faint smell of tobacco, the fragrance of mountain sage, and the smell of Jack...

Ennis left with two shirts in a brown paper bag, just like when he first came to town with nothing, and now they were the only shirts left with him.

Ennis' eldest daughter is getting married, and Ennis just asks "Does he love you?"

Emma II said with certainty, "Yes, Dad, he loves me."

After sending his daughter away, Ennis put his daughter's coat, which he had forgotten here, in the closet, looking at the shirts hanging on the closet door, his and Jack's shirts, only now, his shirt was outside, wrapping Jack's shirt . Ennis knew that Jack had loved himself all his life, and now it was up to him to guard their love.

Tears blurred Ennis's beautiful blue eyes. This was the first time after Jack left, Ennis let the tears go, he said softly, "Jack, I swear... (k, I.Swear ...)"

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