Chapter 811

"Let me tell you, when I was in elementary school, I got A's in all my grades." Ayaka Pusheng tried her best to bring a hint of mischievousness and complacency into her tone, but the sound of her voice made her feel awkward, "But one day I will return to you." After I got home, I found out that they had lost my cat. They didn’t ask for my opinion at all. The reason was that I would definitely be able to go to the best junior high school in Kumamoto. The junior high school should work harder and stop wasting time on cats. .”

"I had a big fight with them, and I went out and searched along the street for a long time. It was the only friend who was willing to accompany me without being impatient when I felt tired, but I couldn't find it that day. I haven't seen it since that day..."

From the corner of Chi Feichi's eyes, he caught a glimpse of Pu Sheng Caixiang's face with a smile.

"They chased me out and scolded me for being disobedient, but they still cared about me, right?" Pusheng Caixiang had a smile on her face, but her eyes were very empty, "I decided not to forgive them so easily, Then go home and quarrel. I asked them to accompany me to find my cat. After two days of stalemate, they insisted that they did nothing wrong and would not accompany me to find the cat. That’s okay, I can find it myself.”

"I searched for a long time. One day when I came home from school, my stepfather's colleague came to visit and said that I was so smart that I would be excellent even if I went to the best junior high school in Kumamoto. I was suddenly scared because I Although my stepfather is modest, but I saw the light in his eyes, he would really ask me so."

"I thought a lot that night, I couldn't keep going, I wanted to make mistakes, just a little bit, let them know that it was hard for me to maintain the good child in their minds, I thought of the child who was inferior to me in everything, her father and Her mother would happily praise her and congratulate her after school activities, but I have nothing, and I am still terrified that sooner or later I will let them down because I can't do enough to meet their requirements. On that day, will I be thrown away by them like a cat... No," Pusheng Caixiang said in a relaxed tone, "How is it possible, they love me, thinking about it, I feel that I have to give it a try no matter what. , to prove that they love me, so I behaved badly on purpose."

Chi Feichi freed his right hand to light a cigarette, to be a patient listener.

"I didn't get into the middle school they expected me to go to, and they never gave me a good look," Pusheng Caixiang was still smiling. "In the first week of middle school, I had physical education class and changed clothes in the locker room." It was only then that I realized that girls should wear vests. I didn’t prepare them, and my mother seemed to have forgotten. Fortunately, a classmate’s mother prepared a spare for her. She was very kind and lent me.”

The one that really broke her down was when she had her first menstrual period, and she was in a hurry to rely on her classmates for help. Her mother didn't prepare anything for her. When she thought of herself that day, she felt like a big fool in a mess.

When she went home at night, she specifically mentioned it to her mother, and her mother told her what to do, but she didn't find the panic and fear in her heart, and there was no comfort.

Obviously, the mothers of many students will explain to them in a gentle voice, and comfort their uneasiness with a smile.

She didn't know whether the emotion in her heart was resentment or unwillingness. After that, her mother and stepfather said that she could not associate with children who were dragging their feet, so she got involved in the bad boy group.

She told his stepfather that he was not allowed to enter her room or peep at her things. The man disagreed, and kept saying that for her sake, she rented a small secret base outside with the money her biological father gave her.

The angrier those two people jumped, the happier she was, as if she was retaliating for the neglect she had received, and also as if to prove: Look, they care about me.

Pusheng Caixiang rubbed her face stiff with laughter, she didn't keep smiling, and she lowered her voice very softly, "How did it become like this..."

After she had a small life in her mother's womb, she felt a change. The two people suddenly became cold, no longer angry, and no longer asked more questions. The two said something to her with a sullen face.

But even if she had noticed it long ago, she never thought that her mother would completely ignore her.

By now, she was really lost.

"I don't know what kind of mood this is, and I can't tell..." Uramoto Ayaka turned her head to look at the silently smoking man beside her, and stretched her hand towards the cigarette case beside the man's hand.

"Snapped!"

Chi Feichi slapped Pusheng Caixiang's hand open.

"it hurts!"

Pusheng Caixiang withdrew her hand, looking at the red back of her hand, tears were about to burst out.

Chi Feichi put the cigarette case into his pocket with his right hand, bit the cigarette butt, and whispered calmly, "I don't know clearly, so I need to read more."

Does he understand what it feels like?

Probably understand.

When his parents died in the previous life, and when his parents suddenly left in the memory of the original conscious body in this life, and became indifferent and indifferent, he only remembered two times.

After he crossed over, he didn't have a dream, but sometimes looking back at the memory of the original consciousness, it seems that there is still a little boy's voice that has been echoing:

'look at me……'

'Look at me, please...'

'Please, look at me...'

He didn't know if Pusheng Caixiang had cried, he hadn't.

In his previous life, when he realized that he had lost his parents forever, he didn't cry, and when the original consciousness body was in complete despair, he didn't cry again.

That feeling, like a part of my heart evaporated, empty, and the ability to cry was also lost.

They're all trying to fill that void, to keep themselves busy so they don't have time to feel.

Then get used to it completely.

Even if the misunderstanding with Ike Shinosuke and Ike Kana were resolved, he would feel close to those two people and care about them, but he just wasn't used to contacting those two people to talk about something.

"Can't you comfort me?" Urao Ayaka lowered her head and rubbed the back of her hand, her mood suddenly improved a lot, "By the way, Lark, you said in the email you sent me before that Takayama Otome has resentment and is easy to be bullied. Arouses ambition... But I think she is a very nice person, she didn't tattoo me for money, she has been explaining the pros and cons to me, and she seems to hate her background, she doesn't want to be associated with violent groups at all, the plan can Do you want to proceed?"

"Don't just look at people on the surface," Chi Feichi stared at the road ahead, his hoarse voice showed no emotion, "What do you think women are in those violent groups?"

"What is it?" Pusheng Caixiang was puzzled.

Chi Feichi said without hesitation, "Tools, playthings."

The status of Japanese women is very low. Those jihadists still adhere to the ideology of the Edo period, and the right wing is extreme. The women in it have no status and can only be used as vassals of men.

In film and television dramas, there will be a woman who is the leader of the extreme. It looks very majestic, but in fact, women in violent groups are just tools at the mercy of others. There are very few women who are really in power. Will not take it seriously.

For example, Eguchi Noriko, who was assassinated by him before, has her own property, leads a group of women to commit crimes, and helps save a large amount of money, even the organization is tempted, but Eguchi Noriko is only attached to a big boss, not only To help make money, it is common to serve tea and water to a group of people. The money saved by the help is taken back if they want to, without any autonomy.

After Eguchi Noriko died, the purpose of the other party's investigation was to trace the whereabouts of the money and determine whether there were other gangs who wanted to attack them. No one cared about Eguchi Noriko's life or death.

It would be even worse if she became the wife of a boss.

After many women marry extremists, they must become housewives. The house must be cleaned up, and their men must take care of them. When a group of extremists gather at home, they must prepare food and drink, prepare the bed, and clean up. Sometimes She also has to help the man's younger brother with laundry, and take care of the daily life of more than a dozen people. In order not to cause trouble for her husband, she stays at home except to go shopping for groceries, and she doesn't even have the space for Noriko Eguchi to move around.

Dealing with the police is also the business of these women. When the husband's younger brother has an accident, they are the ones who ask the police to inquire about the situation. They are also the ones who are responsible for receiving the police when they come to investigate at home.

Those women are not paid, but they are willing to work hard just to make their husbands face. In those violent groups, the idea of ​​"wife honors husband" is very serious.

If the husband is arrested and imprisoned or dies, the woman will still work for her husband, but when there is a new candidate, she will lose everything, including the protection given by her previous husband.

Not to mention some of them nasty.

Among the female members of those violent groups, in addition to the wives and daughters of the members, there are also some women in the custom industry who are attached to the violent groups, which are basically tools for men to vent.

Pusheng Caixiang's doubts just now don't seem to be fake, that is to say, this girl has never thought about her future at all, she just thinks it's cool, and in order to anger her mother and stepfather, she wants to plunge headlong into the evil forces. In the big pit, from unscrupulous gangsters to gangsters, it is estimated that they are not far from getting into violent groups.

As the illegitimate daughter of the third generation of the Far East Society, Otome Takayama's status is not much higher than that of the lower class. She has followed her mother to wash clothes, cook and serve people since she was a child. Until the third generation who is nearly fifty years old admits her identity, she has not been able to become a princess. , instead became a tool for the third generation to win people's hearts. That year, the third generation had people leave her with tattoos all over her back and arms. In addition to her higher status among women, it only made her more likely to be regarded as a target for hostile forces. , did not bring her any benefit at all.

Otome Takayama is very smart. She learned the craft of tattooing for ten years. After the death of the third generation, Otome Takayama endured for more than ten years and became a woman in her forties. East meeting.

Of course, the necessary price is indispensable, and there is still half of the little finger left.

The intelligence of the investigation cannot be exhaustive, but there are many details that can reveal the problem.

Otome Takayama used years of accumulation to break away from the Far East Society, why didn't she completely cut off her connection with the violent group?

Do you keep chopping? No, Otome Takayama did not suffer much when she withdrew, and other groups did not take her seriously, and would not trouble her at all, and would probably greet her politely when they saw her.

I didn't leave because I was addicted to the relationship and status brought about by the accumulation of human feelings, because I lived in that environment since I was a child, and my thoughts have been assimilated.

Even if her status is still not that high, at least everyone she meets is polite to her, isn't it?

Even if Takayama Otome understands that those violent groups have always maintained politeness and politeness to those who do not belong to their group, and the politeness to her comes from this, but she still feels satisfied.

Takayama Otome shows her distaste for violent group life on the outside, but she actually hates her experience of low status and the past that was looked at by ordinary people with strange eyes.

Power and status are the lifeblood of Takayama Otome. Due to the influence she received since she was a child, this kind of power and status is only limited to violent groups.

People who have grasped the fate are very suitable for use.