Chapter 4620

She finally made up her mind, and she was afraid that when she faced Lin Xilu alone, she would not be able to hold on to this determination under his gentleness.

Lin Xilu's heart felt like it was being strangled by a knife, and it hurt severely.

How desperate was it to force the always gentle and sensible An Siqing to not even give him a chance to get in?

He raised his hand to take her hand, but An Siqing dodged it and hid behind the door.

Lin Xilu's hand hanging in the air froze for a moment, and he resisted the stinging pain in his heart, "Siqing, come home with me."

Seeing the sadness on his face and hearing the forbearance in his voice, An Siqing felt more pain in her heart than he did.

However, she knew better that Lin Xilu could not leave his mother alone.

There was nothing she could do to make him drive away Mother Lin and bear the charge of being unfilial.

The quarrel between her and Mother Lin has reached this point. If she goes back with Lin Xilu again, Mother Lin will only become even more harsh towards her.

It was one thing in front of Lin Xilu, and another thing when Lin Xilu was not around.

She couldn't let Lin Xilu abandon her parents, and she couldn't get along well with her.

Even more unbearable was her contempt and insult to her family.

There is also the most important reason, which she has never told anyone.

In fact, besides feeling that she was not worthy of Lin Xilu and unable to help the Lin family, Mother Lin had always hated her for another reason, and that was her children.

After being married to Lin Xilu for so long, her stomach still hasn't moved at all.

Lin Xilu was the only child in the Lin family. Mother Lin was eager to have her grandson, and even nudged her several times at first, intentionally or unintentionally.

After there was no movement, Mother Lin's attitude towards her became worse and worse.

Later, he also secretly carried Lin Xilu on his back and forcibly took her to the hospital for examination.

After the examination, the doctor told them that An Siqing had injured her body due to a miscarriage and had not recovered in the past few years. Therefore, the chance of her becoming pregnant in the future was very low.

Back then, the child belonged to Lin Xilu after all, and the two of them had a tacit understanding not to mention this matter to Lin Xilu.

However, from then on, as long as Lin Xilu was away, Lin's mother became more and more aggressive, sarcastic and even insulting her in her words.

She understood Mother Lin's intention of doing this. She was afraid that actively driving her away would offend Lin Xilu, so she used this method to force her to leave on her own initiative.

However, she was reluctant to leave Linxi Road.

Therefore, over the years, I have been silently enduring Mother Lin's cynicism and verbal insults.

My sister just happened to be there that day, and Mother Lin didn't mention the child.

On a normal day, Mother Lin would have said something even worse.

There was no way she could tell her sister and mother about this.

Moreover, her sister and mother have always felt guilty about her miscarriage. They felt guilty for not protecting her or taking good care of her.

She didn't want to tell them and make them feel more guilty and sad with her.

She also sought treatment from various famous doctors in private. After all these years, they still had no children.

Many times, when she saw Lin Xilu looking at other children on the street with such tender eyes, she was filled with guilt, but there was nothing she could do about it.

Whether her identity cannot bring financial benefits to the Lin family, or she cannot give her the grandson she wants.

These contradictions will always exist as long as she returns to the Lin family.