A Will Eternal Chapter 945

After the time entered the night, Zhao Wenrui obviously felt that the pain in the wound on his body had eased.

The unbearable sharp sting was replaced by a burning pain, which he knew was due to his special constitution.

Speaking of this, as far as he knows, after experiencing the catastrophe brought about by the super-dead virus, there are no purebred surviving humans left in this world.

As a time traveler, he usually pays attention to collecting information, but due to the long time and the deliberate concealment of the ruler of the refuge, the truth of the year can no longer be verified.

Today, the saying accepted by most survivors is that some human beings sold their souls in exchange for a chance to live, so there was a green star.

The position of the green star at the No. 3 Lagrangian point is also in the orbit of the earth, but it is always separated from the sun in the middle, so it is invisible to the survivors on the earth.

But that didn't stop the survivors from hating it, and the people who lived on it.

As far as Zhao Wenrui knew, the two major religions of the survivors labeled those people as heretics, and most of the other survivors also called them Green Star people, and did not treat them as compatriots in exile.

But among the market, there is still another theory circulating, saying that the traveler is not a betrayal, but was selected in response to the civilization fire plan, so as to leave the earth and avoid the harm of the super death virus.

What caught Zhao Wenrui's attention was that at least some people didn't believe in such a statement for the sake of gaining attention, or because they had no brains to kneel and lick.

Of course, they don't respect the truth that much, but the 'truth' is in their favor.

They said that their ancestors were selected by the "Spark of Civilization" project but insisted on staying in this world to face the deadly virus.

Zhao Wenrui said heartily: "Even if what you said is true, it can only show that your ancestors were strong, so what does it have to do with you?"

This is a digression. In short, Zhao Wenrui is more willing to believe this statement, because he is a time traveler, and this is the Marvel Universe.

Zhao Wenrui knew about the Marvel Zombie Universe, but the relevant history of this world obviously didn't match up with it. He is more inclined that this is a parallel world of the Marvel Cinematic Universe that has been spoiled by a bully.

In the first 18 months after crossing,

He has always been looking forward to encountering reincarnation. Because in his mind, the most likely thing that can collapse the Marvel Cinematic Universe to such an extent is the repeated intervention of the reincarnation.

For him, time travel has happened, the Marvel Cinematic Universe also exists, and the historical line has been changed in a mess, so even more bizarre things are completely possible.

For example, if this world has become the back garden of a reincarnation force, then he may have the opportunity to take this line and end this painful doomsday survival.

More precisely, it should be wasteland survival.

The doomsday refers to the complete and complete loss of social order. The vast majority of people no longer have hope, but muddle along. That is the doomsday.

But what he is facing now is not like this. Order exists, but under the pressure of the cruel living environment and the background of extremely low public moral bottom line, it is relatively dark and distorted.

Of course, it was relatively easy to say, but it was actually this dark distortion that made him unbearable.

Zhao Wenrui tossed and turned, wanting to sleep but lacking sleepiness.

Compared with the immediate predicament, he cares more about the inability to establish the core goal.

Yes, right now he is in a period of confusion.

Various encounters in reality and the pressure of survival constantly wear down his longing and enthusiasm.

And he, like most people, is not a stickler.

In other words, he is a person who is used to normal interaction and gives something back after giving.

If he doesn't get the corresponding feedback, he won't be motivated enough to believe in something and do something for a long time.

For example, the reincarnated people, for more than two years, there is nothing to prove the existence of the reincarnated people, not even the slightest sign.

Reason told him that the concept of reincarnation was mostly his wishful thinking.

This made me depressed for a long time.

Because he knew that he would be swallowed by this world, and subtly and unknowingly, be twisted into a wastelander.

He felt like a dry sponge that fell into the water. He was still floating on the water and hadn't really integrated into the world, but after absorbing enough water, he would sink and could never get out again.

Compared to becoming a wasteland mountain king, he prefers to live as an ordinary person in a social environment with similar universal values ​​to him, but the reality is always so cruel.

He felt lonely and confused, without a goal, so he couldn't talk about hope, living in a daze day after day, and the external environment was so harsh, which made him have the idea of ​​committing suicide more than once.

In fact, when he was injured this time, when he needed to make a decision at that moment, the thought of committing suicide flashed by, and it had a great impact on him.

When he was in another world, he once said something like this: "My life is full of disappointments, but I still have some self-esteem. Suicide is too cowardly for me to do, but if there is a decent way to die, such as giving up Save yourself..."

It must be said that in the previous life, it was not easy to sacrifice oneself to save others, and it was impossible to touch it even if you wanted to.

But in this world, there are many similar opportunities.

But now, this idea has basically been dispelled by him.

Only after I tried it myself did I know that his way of "suicide" is also very taken for granted. At the moment when the incident happened, the survival instinct was the most prominent consciousness.

The result is likely to lead to such a result that he failed to sacrifice, but was disabled.

This is more painful, self-inflicted, switching life to the difficulty of hell, how much do you have to hate yourself to do it?

Zhao Wenrui didn't hate himself, and in the first half of his life, he didn't do any bad things that he thought he needed to make a fool of himself so as to achieve the purpose of redemption and get a little comfort from the Mountain of Soul.

He just felt isolated, and scared, that he was going to be so different that he didn't know it.

This is directly related to his complete disdain for the survivors of this world.

Even Emma, ​​he just wanted her to be a bed partner, but if he wanted to establish an intimate relationship beyond friendship with her and take corresponding responsibilities, he would not do it.

However, it is somewhat funny and ironic that the reason why this survival team was able to be formed, and headed by him, has a direct relationship with the people who "have more kindness and sense of responsibility than others".

To put it more bluntly, it is precisely because he played an honest person with a good character that he got to where he is today.

In this regard, he himself has a certain awareness, and even achieved the current effect a little deliberately, otherwise, with his original appearance, the "Holy Mother Value" will definitely not reach the current level.

Turning over slowly to make himself sleep more comfortably, Zhao Wenrui retrieved his golden finger.

Like most time travelers, he has golden fingers, but he is not satisfied, and this is also the same as most time travelers in the sky.

What you haven't got is always thought of very well, and what you already have is often considered that. This can be regarded as the commonality of human beings, and Zhao Wenrui did not jump out of this barrier of thinking.

Let's just say this golden finger.

game system.

For him with mixed knowledge, such a golden finger can only be said to be a bad street idea, and it has nothing new.

He also knew that ditties are easy to sing and difficult to sing, so he still had a sense of expectation for a while.

I look forward to his system being different and having some eye-catching features.

But this sense of anticipation, just like his imagining the existence of reincarnated people, has gradually weakened over time, and now he basically no longer responds with fantasy.

It has to be said that one of Kane's concerns is here.

He is very clear about his desire, habit, and even dependence on the 'commander' system.

But he didn't know how far he could go to get it. There is no self-created subjective initiative.

At the beginning, when the deity was on this issue, it can be said that he skipped it.

Although the Vientiane Gate system tried its best to abuse reincarnations, it also provided unimaginable logistical support, especially technical support.

Only what you can't think of, nothing I don't have here. In the eyes of the vast majority of reincarnators, the Vientiane Gate system is so high that there is no need to worry about it at all. The road is there, and the dazzling pearl is shining on the mountain in the distance. ? Pay attention to your feet, take every step well, pay attention to left and right, prevent any malicious stumbling from anyone, and walk unswervingly, as long as you don't die, you can succeed.

In addition, as a reincarnated person, there is competition and mutual assistance, and there is also a taste of eating and eating together.

As for Zhao Wenrui, neither of these two, no clear path, no competitors, under such a background, can he still follow his heart's wishes, overcome obstacles, and embark on the path he wants to take?

This is what C Kane wants to know.

He wanted to see if he had a higher proportion of success because of people, or a higher proportion of success because of things.

As a result, Zhao Wenrui's gleaming system Goldfinger, which was originally a system, has now been cut down to the individual level, and it is so simple that it only has a one-page graphical interface display system.

strength 12

agility 13

Intelligence 13

Constitution 14

This is Zhao Wenrui's circumference, 9-11, which is a constant for adult survivors, less than 9, which is equivalent to the obvious mental retardation when the IQ was lower than 70 in the past, which is a relatively serious shortcoming.

These surroundings are from the previous Zhao Wenrui after he completed the comprehensive renovation of the first floor of the "Perfect Man Project".

c Kane took samples to create a new Zhao Wenrui, which was based on the physical and mental state of Kraven Zhao at that time.

The Obernin people have been sheltered by the blood of George, one of the ancestors of the dead, since a hundred years ago. They have not suffered any serious crimes, but the comprehensive index of spirit and flesh has not improved. It is still at the level of ordinary people. The average is 9, which is lower than that of survivors. Minimum 1 standard unit.

Taking it as a reference, the current Zhao Wenrui is almost at the level of a top athlete. For example, the champion of the world-class Ironman Decathlon is even stronger in terms of mental strength, physical fitness, and resilience.

Zhao Wenrui's system is an interface that combines graphics, text, and numbers.

Below the surrounding data, each has a thing that can be understood as an experience slot. The small green vertical bar inside it is the more specific experience value.

Zhao Wenrui remembers that more than two years ago, these small vertical bars were much thicker than they are now, and they were easier to obtain. Once they were saved enough, they would be cleared again and the value would increase by 1.

The current small vertical bars are dense and difficult to increase, which made Zhao Wenrui gradually lose his enthusiasm for hard work. You must know that the green bars increased significantly when the green bars increased significantly, and then the value increased, and there was still a sense of accomplishment. Even addicts.

In addition to the surrounding data, another important display, which also occupies the largest area of ​​the entire system, is a virtual human figure.

This picture, which can be rotated 360 degrees and outlined with a faint glowing outline, represents himself.

Through this map, he can check his status, especially his injuries.

Before he was injured and passed out, he checked once. According to the system prompt, his biggest problem at that time was not a bloody shoulder blade injury, but a broken blood vessel in his leg, which was bleeding profusely.

In the end, he chose to burn the experience points of his physique, and consumed more than half of the nearly full mantra bars in the experience gauge of his physique, in exchange for the self-healing of this fatal injury.

Because he knew that Owen couldn't deal with this level of injury, especially in poor conditions, forcible treatment would double the risk of local necrosis and infection.

He has seen the barbaric method of scalding the head of the wound to death with a red torch burning at the front end. Even if the life is saved by chance, permanent damage will be left, or even disabled. There is no shortage of disabled people in the shelter. As a scavenger, Zhao Wenrui knew very well that he didn't have that kind of strength and couldn't live a life like that. If he really fell like that, he probably wouldn't even be able to get the final dignity of a self-respecting death, and that would be too miserable.

According to Xuren's display, his injury is basically not serious now, but the injury mark on the shoulder blade is still yellow, and there is a countdown display, which means that the injury there is not out of the category of moderate injury. If he If you don't pay enough attention to it and force it to move, the countdown will be infinitely delayed or even worsened.

There is no doubt that with such a system, even if it is simple, it is much better than ordinary survivors. It greatly improves the understanding and control of self-information, and it has the possibility of improvement. , to eliminate potentially fatal threats, in this dangerous world, it is equivalent to a few more lives.

For Zhao Wenrui, this only barely made up for the gap in mental toughness between him and the natives.

Compared with the natives, he is sensitive, fragile, and often accompanied by melancholy due to his overthinking. He wanted to be thrown into the wilderness of the greenhouse flowers, out of tune with the world and the society of survivors.

He didn't know how those similar people who traveled to a similar wasteland world quickly adapted to all this, he couldn't adapt, and didn't want to adapt.

For example, a detail, Owen and Emma went to the next room to have sex in order to celebrate his awakening. And when he thought that the two of them hadn't showered for at least 120 hours, they had a lot of exercise every day, and the Europa race itself had developed sweat glands and heavy body odor, he immediately had the urge to vomit the overnight meal.

It's really not that grapes are sour, he even suspects that if things go on like this, he will be habitually associated, which will lead to psychological and physical incompetence...

There are many similar situations, and it is really impossible to get used to it with a single bite of the heart and teeth. It's not a one-off, it's a repeated torment over and over again. This time the state is relatively strong, passionate, or high-spirited, but it may not be in such a state next time. Next time, it is likely to be frustrated and irritable, and miss the hometown, and then encounter such bad things, and the state of mind is likely to be different exploded.

If you don't explode or vent, the result is that you endure internal injuries, and even offset your enthusiasm to a certain extent.

Zhao Wenrui felt that he was like this, and sometimes he asked himself: "What do you want? With such a condition, I also know what will happen if I don't actively face it. Who is this depressed? Is it useful to be so hypocritical? Really Is it dead?"

But although the reason is clear, it is too difficult to do it in practice. The decadent feeling that even the ideal has lost its due color and cannot be lifted up appears more and more frequently, and each time it appears, the effect time is longer and longer.

Therefore, those who know him say that he is not bad in nature, but a little moody.

who am I?

where am I?

What should I do?

These three questions, most of the time, people can laugh it off and don't bother to talk about it.

But when Zhao Wenrui's life came to the point where he doubted his life, he couldn't put these three questions aside freely. He even suspected that everything he experienced was false.

Recently he often had the same dream.

In the dream, his name is Zhao Congming, a young general who lives in a country with a very steampunk style. As a pioneer general, his main job is to fight zombies, like playing a real-time strategy game. Soldiers fight zombies.

The dream he had was vivid in detail and extremely reasonable, even in the nature of a serial drama. The only problem was that it had no beginning or end.

He had heard people say a long time ago that an important way to distinguish between dreams and reality is to think about the beginning and the end. Generally, dreams don't start, and they are replaced abruptly, and some big turning points will be relatively blunt.

To put it this way, he is indeed dreaming, becoming Zhao Congming is very sudden, and the battle is going well, he has no intention of betraying the kingdom, and suddenly took the risk of overthrowing the kingdom, which is very blunt and very absurd, too lucky, Simple, like a child's play...

Zhao Wenrui didn't know that it was helpless for C Kane to arrange his memory in this way. Because there is no way to clean certain deep memories without leaving any traces. The best way to deal with it is to mislead. Most people always believe in the conclusions they draw from their own cognitive thinking and analysis, so...

Zhao Wenrui is an adult, and he is more rational and self-satisfied. He naturally understands that thinking wildly will not solve the problem after all. Unless he really does not plan to live this day, and is ready to let go and die, otherwise he will eventually have to return to present.

But at the moment, the most important thing for him is to complete the scavenging task at the bottom level, and then see if there is any chance to get some extra benefits, whether it is material or strength improvement, even if it is more valuable information. . Otherwise, it would be equivalent to wasting a week's life, and once there are too many similar wastes, I am afraid that even a better end of the native level will not be able to fall...