Chapter 170 This Kind of Dependence Is Human Nature

A month later, Li Xiaoxiao resigned and stayed at home all day. Li Xiaoxiao's mother began to worry. When all the relatives came to visit, she could only ask Li Xiaoxiao to stay in her room.

Although she was in the room, Li Xiaoxiao could hear clearly the conversation between her mother and relatives in the living room.

In the end, Shenming was promising, and Xiaoxiao's job was also found by Shenming's family.

It's better to get married later, so that your daughter can spend more time with you, which is really a blessing.

When Li Xiaoxiao broke up with Chu Shenming, she didn't feel that she couldn't live with him. On the contrary, in the second week, she went on a short trip with her new boyfriend and posted a dynamic that only Chu Shenming could see. As a result, Chu Shenming seemed to have not seen it at all and disappeared from her world completely.

Although the new boyfriend also liked Li Xiaoxiao, he felt that Li Xiaoxiao treated him as her ex-boyfriend after less than half a month of getting along. He bought clothes and bags. The boyfriend probably couldn't stand it, so he found an excuse to break up.

Since then, Li Xiaoxiao went to bed at midnight every day, and woke up at noon the next day, eating something and going back to sleep.

She came to Huayuanqiao Hospital because her mother said, "You can either go find Chu Shenming, or if you don't want to go, your mother will help you to beg him?"

How can such a thing be begged?

When two people are together, they naturally like each other. If they are not together, how can they ask their mother to beg? Not to mention her mother, Li Xiaoxiao herself has never thought of begging Chu Shenming.

But for some reason, she was immersed in the habits of her past life. When she saw something delicious, she thought of eating with Chu Shenming. When she saw a colleague's new beautiful bag, she thought of sending a message to Chu Shenming. When there was a new movie released, she thought of asking Chu Shenming when to go to the movie.

She wanted to check out a new restaurant, so she couldn't help but pick up her phone and send a message to Chu Shenming.

Nearly ten years later, it became a habit and dependence. On weekdays, it was just like taking the subway to and from work, and I wouldn't pay too much attention to it. But suddenly one day the subway disappeared, and I felt all kinds of discomfort. Gradually, after remembering and forcing myself to forget, Li Xiaoxiao became the Li Xiaoxiao sitting in front of Mu Chun now.

"Xiaoxiao, can you look at me when you talk?"

Mu Chun stretched out his hand and waved it in front of Li Xiaoxiao. Xiaoxiao's hair looked like it hadn't been washed for many days, drooping greasy on her scalp, her eye circles were a little swollen, her skin was very dry, and there was some peeling at the corners of her mouth, which looked like vitamin deficiency.

"Xiaoxiao?"

Mu Chun called again.

"Ah, Dr. Mu, I was distracted just now."

"Do you want to eat something today?"

Mu Chun handed over a piece of soda cracker.

Li Xiaoxiao started eating.

"How is your diet recently? Are you a little overeating or not eating at all?"

Xiaoxiao shook her head, "Sometimes I don't feel hungry at all, but if I eat, I can keep eating, keep eating."

"Is there anything special you want to do?"

Li Xiaoxiao shook her head.

"How did you take the medicine last time? I want to prescribe you some more nutrients, nerve nourishing drugs."

"Okay, the last medicine." Li Xiaoxiao paused for a while.

"You didn't take it, right?"

Li Xiaoxiao nodded.

After returning, Li Xiaoxiao forgot about taking medicine, or she didn't even remember taking medicine.

"Do you want to find Chu Shenming to argue?"

Li Xiaoxiao's eyes suddenly flashed with a trace of sadness, and then dimmed.

"No, I guess I'm just used to it, and it's a bit hard to get out of it."

"I'm very happy to hear you say that."

"Eh? Why are you happy?"

Li Xiaoxiao looked at Mu Chun blankly.

"I'll ask you a few questions next, Xiaoxiao, you know very well that you and Chu Shenming are over, right?"

Xiaoxiao nodded, yes, she knew very well, and she didn't think about starting over, after all, they broke up, and she also had a new relationship, which started suddenly and ended suddenly.

"Do you feel unmotivated or uninterested in doing anything?"

"Yes, basically."

"If [0], [1], [2], [3] represent [never], [a few days occasionally], [many days], [almost every day], do you understand what I mean?"

Xiaoxiao thought about it and nodded.

"Have you ever felt low, depressed, or hopeless?"

Xiaoxiao pointed to 1 with her finger.

"Difficulty falling asleep, restless sleep, or excessive sleep?"

Xiaoxiao pointed to 3.

"Fatigue or lack of energy."

3.

"Loss of appetite or eating too much."

3.

"Feeling bad or a failure, or disappointing yourself or your family."

3.

"Having trouble concentrating on things, such as when reading or watching TV."

2.

"Move or speak so slowly that others notice, or just the opposite - fidgeting or fidgeting, moving around more than usual."

1.

"Having thoughts of dying or hurting yourself in some way."

0.

Mu Chun breathed a sigh of relief, "Very good, Xiaoxiao, you did a great job."

"Really? I find these questions very interesting and frustrating."

"Can you tell me more about them? Xiaoxiao, I hope you understand that I am very happy and grateful that you can come here to find me."

"Why did the doctor say that? Don't you think I'm here to cause trouble? Because of Chu Shenming's matter."

"I care more about your feelings, Xiaoxiao. If you have a knot in your heart about love, I will accompany you to slowly untie it, okay?"

Xiaoxiao burst into tears, and her tears blurred her vision. She turned her head and saw her tears dripping on the dark green dress, turning into a deep mark.

"I am dependent on my past life."

"People will rely on a certain kind of life, even on the life with someone."

Mu Chun spoke very slowly, trying to make his voice neither too loud nor too soft.

He spoke slowly at a volume that Li Xiaoxiao could hear clearly, without too deep emotions and without being too calm and indifferent.

Voice is sometimes a weapon, like a knife, which will cut through a person's protective layer, and everyone has his own protective layer.

That is the skin outside the skin, transparent, colorless, invisible, and tasteless. But everyone is different. If this layer of protection is violated, the person inside will feel uneasy, panic, resist, escape, and retreat.

No matter which one it is, Mu Chun does not want to happen.

What he often does is to merge into this layer of protection, to lift it up gently, to put it down gently, to moisten things silently.