Chapter 1790 Their Past

Lin Jingsheng has never bothered him with anything since then, really never. If he has anything to do, he will call Lu Bai and Mu Liang for help. He rarely asks him, and even if he does, he won't It was very reluctant, unlike Lu Bai and Mu Liang, who would do anything shameless to him, even if they were afraid of causing trouble to him, there was always a kind of indifferent alienation, not close enough, Lin Jingsheng was good at pretending, and he was good at it. It's like I was born so unfamiliar with him.

Chu Lin knew that Lin Jingsheng really didn't treat him like Lu Bai or Mu Liang, but Lin Jingsheng treated him as a brother and could help him, but he couldn't get close to him wantonly. He always thought it was caused by an impulse when he was young, and he always wanted to make up for it.

After realizing that he deeply loved Lin Jingsheng, he regretted it even more.

He loves someone so much, but he keeps hurting him.

He also forgot when he began to realize that his feelings for Lin Jingsheng were different. He knew that Lin Jingsheng liked him, but Lin Jingsheng was not born to like men, but he was. He was born to like men. Yes, there was no way to change this, but at that time he felt that he did not like Lin Jingsheng and deliberately alienated him. He told Lin Jingsheng countless times that he liked Lu Bai.

What a stupid person he is, always hurting the people he likes like this.

After that time, Lin Jingsheng's feelings for him gradually faded away. Chu Lin was still aggrieved for this for a while. If he likes someone and lets go so freely, it's not like he likes him. He feels that Lin Jingsheng treats him like... He only misunderstood Lu Bai because they grew up together, played together when they first fell in love, and were always together.

He breathed a sigh of relief and felt that he could be a brother with Lin Jingsheng. He naively thought that being a brother would last a lifetime. As lovers, they might break up and turn against each other. That would be fine, if Lin Jingsheng had always liked him. He didn't give up, he really didn't know what to do.

Later, Lin Jingsheng began to play with the world. He was just like a butterfly, making a splash at the banquet and walking freely among the women. Chu Lin felt even more unsatisfied, and felt that Lin Jingsheng's crush when he was young was simply... It's a joke. For two years, the two of them always quarreled for no reason. In fact, he couldn't stand his attitude of playing with the world, and accused him of being too indulgent in feelings and not responsible enough. So they started a big fight out of nowhere, until One day, Lin Jingsheng was drunk, smiling like a flower in his arms, touching his face and calling A-Lin, I love you. He suddenly heard his own thunderous heartbeat, and suddenly realized a belated sadness and sadness. ups and downs.

He fell in love with Lin Jingsheng.

I don’t even know when it started, or when the love became deeply rooted.

Love arises from ignorance, and love is deep.

Chu Lin thought, this is karma.

When he loved Lin Jingsheng, Lin Jingsheng's feelings for him had long been indifferent, and he couldn't find any love for him in his eyes. The drunken teasing was just an idle moment. It was just a farce, just to see how he would react. It was just a prank.

He knew it was his own fault.

That day, after Lin Jingsheng sobered up, Chu Lin sat by his bed and asked him what he remembered about what happened. Lin Jingsheng didn't answer. Chu Lin had never been a troubled person. When she realized her feelings for him, she would not Hidden and concealed.

He remembered Lin Jingsheng's expression at that time, which was very surprised. It was neither joy nor excitement, only surprise, followed by surprise followed by ridicule.

After so many years, who still clings to that past?

Lin Jingsheng could poke his chest more accurately than anyone else, and the pain was so painful that he couldn't breathe.

Since then, he has been chasing Lin Jingsheng. He knows that Lin Jingsheng needs time to test him and prove that he is not guilty for a moment, nor has he misunderstood his feelings, nor is he young and confused, but is truly true. When love comes, he really loves himself, so Chu Lin doesn't care how Lin Jingsheng treats him, as long as he treats Lin Jingsheng well.

During that period, it was regarded as the ambiguous period between the two. Lin Jingsheng did not reject him so strongly, and even had a desire to refuse him. Chu Lin was not a fool. This undoubtedly gave him a signal that he could pursue him. That period Over time, Lin Jingsheng no longer played with the world, and the relationship between the two developed by leaps and bounds. Although it did not break the layer of paper, it gave him the illusion that the two had loved each other.

Chu Lin knew that she had hurt him deeply. For several years, Lin Jingsheng kept a very distant distance from him. He finally shortened this period of rejection. He thought that he had obtained Lin Jingsheng's love. Sincerely, he was overjoyed and held it like a treasure. He swore that he would never hurt him again or make him sad in the slightest. He would love Lin Jingsheng for the rest of his life and protect him for the rest of his life. He would be Lin Jingsheng’s best. partner.

That period of time was so sweet that when Lin Jingsheng told him that he was just fulfilling a dream when he was young and wanted to know what it would be like to fall in love with him, and did not intend to have a real love with him, Chu Lin felt like The sky was thundering, and I couldn't believe why such a deep and strong feeling had changed overnight.

During that time, he did not dare to get entangled with Lin Jingsheng, because Lin Jingsheng had undergone tremendous changes, and the two princes passed away one after another. Lin Jingsheng was not in a good mood. Chu Lin was not really suffering from the second disease, and he knew the severity clearly. He didn't pester him, but he kept paying attention to his activities and mood, and even took Lin Jingsheng to relax so that he wouldn't be too hurt. He thought that Lin Jingsheng was just experiencing a sudden change in his family and his mood changed, and it was not a relationship with him. His true separation.

But later, he realized that Lin Jingsheng really... never planned to be with him. Chu Lin was like a lightning strike, and she still can't accept it until today.

The relationship between Lin Jingsheng and him had gone through several changes. Every time he felt that he was one step closer to him, he was another step further away. His feelings were withdrawn too quickly, leaving him alone on a desert island. The eyes are full of desolation.

But he wasn't heartbroken.

The sincerity he held up was trampled upon, which was a great shame and humiliation for Chu Lin. Therefore, he and Lin Jingsheng had a showdown, tearing up the blurry paper and tearing apart the ambiguous but unbroken paper between them. It was torn, and he knew that once it was torn, there would be no going back.

He wanted Lin Jingsheng for the rest of his life.

Not as brothers. ,

Lin Jingsheng asked him with a smile, back then I also had a sincere heart, but it was trampled on. Did you cherish it or did I make trouble? Surprisingly, I’ve never made trouble before. Chu Lin, be more mature and don’t be too childish.

childish?

Is he childish?

He never knew that in Lin Jingsheng's heart, this was a sign of childishness. He also wanted to become mature, but if you don't love me, how can I bear it? If you can't bear it, how can you mature?

Chu Lin fell into memories. He still does not regret tearing up this layer of window paper with Lin Jingsheng.

He still doesn't want to believe that Lin Jingsheng would play with his feelings.

Because of the empathy, he understood that if Lin Jingsheng liked him, he would definitely make it clear if he didn't like Lin Jingsheng, without being ambiguous or ambiguous, because apart from liking him, they were the most loyal brothers in this life.

"What are you thinking about?" Lin Jingsheng asked. ,

Chu Lin looked at Lin Jingsheng, what was he thinking? Yes, what is he thinking?

He was recalling the relationship between the two over the years.

It was his fault, he admitted.

But if you make a mistake, you still have a chance to make amends.

People will always make mistakes one day, and they should always be given a chance to make up for it.

"Ah Sheng, I made a mistake once, am I really unable to make up for it?" Chu Lin asked in a deep voice. He looked straight at Lin Jingsheng, feeling an indescribable sadness in his heart.

That kind of feeling is indescribable, like a thorn in my heart that has always been there and cannot be pulled out.

"I'm telling you about Lu Pang."

"I don't care about Lu Pang's affairs at all. You know what I care about."

"I don't care about anything you care about."

"A Sheng, you are so cruel."

"Don't be so naive, I don't have time to talk to you about such unimportant things."

For Lin Jingsheng, what is imminent is not emotional entanglement, but his survival crisis. Asking Chu Lin for help is already the last resort.

It must be discussed clearly. If there is no misunderstanding between them, it will really outweigh the gain.

Chu Lin said, "A Sheng, to you, my feelings are irrelevant?"

"yes."

Chu Lin sneered and took a deep breath. The more he thought about those past events, the more uncomfortable he felt. He always didn’t understand why he missed it. He missed the most important thing and also missed an opportunity to love and be loved. Once missed, it would really Missed forever? Why do people always hurt the people they love deeply when they are young?

"What do you want me to do for you?"

Lin Jingsheng knew very well that Chu Lin was becoming less and less patient with him, and his feelings for him had also changed. He had been hurting Chu Lin so much. One day, Chu Lin would no longer have any patience with him, but what did he have? What's the solution? What can he do? This is a dead end. There is no way for him and Chu Lin to have a happy ending. In this case, why do they hurt each other so much? ,

If he doesn't hurt Chu Lin, is it possible that he wants to be with Chu Lin?

Will his responsibilities, his obligations, and everything about him be abolished?

"You will do whatever I want you to do?"

"Has your trust in me reached the point where you need to confirm it repeatedly?"

Chu Lin was extremely sad in her heart, Ah Sheng, what are you going to do to confirm my sincerity? I will give you a knife back, I will give you a shot, and I will return the hurt in the past to you ten times. Can you just If you can believe me, can you understand what I mean?

"Lu Pang wants to use Lu Yao to drive a wedge between us. I plan to use his plan, so I need your cooperation." Lin Jingsheng said calmly, without any emotion, and stood entirely from the standpoint of the royal family.

"This was your plan from the beginning?" Chu Lin sneered.

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I will write a small theater tonight, okay?