$229If There Is Really Such a Thing

"I often think that if I had begged him to take me away when I was pregnant, my children would not have died."

"If I had stayed by his side calmly on the first day he captured me, without making any noise or running away, maybe my friends wouldn't have died."

"If I hadn't been so determined to dig out a piece of my skin after he forcibly paired up with me, and I didn't even give him a chance to explain before contacting him and marrying him to turn him into a stray beast, maybe I would now I still live peacefully in the tribe, with a strong and loving partner, and lovely children.”

"If I could overcome my fear at the beginning and patiently listen to his confession, he might not be forced to use that method to marry me."

"If...there really was an if, all this could have never happened. It's all my fault, it's all my fault..."

Gu Mengmeng held Natalie's wrist and said, "Loving you cannot be an excuse to hurt you. None of this is your fault."

Natalie looked up, tears trapped in her eyes.

Isn't it... her fault?

How could it not be her fault?

Gu Mengmeng knew Natalie's inner struggle, which was a self-denial mentality after a person's powerlessness against reality reaches an extreme.

You can't change the world, and you have nowhere to complain about the injustice of heaven, so you can only look for the reasons within yourself and keep thinking: It's all my fault, it's all my fault... It must be because I'm not good enough, that's why this happens...

Gu Mengmeng held Natalie's shoulders, looked into her eyes, and said: "What happened in the past has happened, and we can't change it. There is no "if" in this world, and everyone has to pay for the decisions made at the moment. There is no point living in the past, you have to focus on the present and the future. "

Natalie looked confused and couldn't understand what Gu Mengmeng was talking about, but she just felt like something collapsed in her heart.

Gu Mengmeng continued: "He has the right to like you, but it was his unilateral decision, so he should bear the consequences. We cannot be responsible for everyone who likes us, we can only be responsible for ourselves."

Gu Mengmeng took Natalie's hand, placed it on her heart, and said, "Ask your heart, do you like him now?"

Of course Natalie knew who "he" Gu Mengmeng was talking about. She bit her lower lip and hesitated, but still shook her head.

"There are so many lives between us, how can we like it? Spending one more day together is just mutual torture."

Gu Mengmeng nodded and said, "If you don't like him, then this matter will be easier to handle."

Natalie raised her head and looked at Gu Mengmeng with a puzzled look on her face.

Gu Mengmeng continued: "I will take you away, and you follow me back to St. Naze."

Natalie was stunned for a moment, and subconsciously avoided Gu Mengmeng's eyes, saying: "But Chi Xuan's antidote..."

Gu Mengmeng shrugged her shoulders indifferently and said: "It doesn't matter, I will save my own son by myself. At most, I can gather all the five treasures and go get the antidote with Ke'e. I don't think Ke'e dares to touch me."

Natalie pursed her lips, said nothing, shook her head or nodded, seemingly lost in thought.

Gu Mengmeng did not rush her, but just said: "You also know that I am a beast king. If you are afraid that he will come to St. Naze to entangle you, in fact, if I go out and kill him now, it will just be a breather. Once and for all.”

Gu Mengmeng said and was about to stand up, but her wrist was held by Natalie.

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It’s time to promote correct values ​​again

Darlings, you must remember.

Forcing girls to have sex for any reason is unforgivable.

Don't believe what he says he loves you. If he really loves you, he won't be willing to hurt you like this.

This is the only thing that is absolutely unforgivable.

Promise me, no matter what, you must protect yourself, you know? !