Chapter 1717 I Am Not a Virgin

Zhang Nian looked at Qiao Jinnian and did not answer immediately.

After her mother left, she did not come back to Luocheng. She took the bus directly from Yuncheng and started traveling alone...

She has been to plateaus and deep mountains, walking through beautiful rapeseed fields. She has also been on a stilted building, leaning against the window, listening to the gurgling water, and enjoying the chirping of swallows in the mountains and forests under the mist in the early morning.

For a few months, she made money while traveling...

When a teacher resigned, she once said: The world is so big and she wants to see it!

Zhang Nian envied that kind of "willfulness". When he was finally able to do the same, he realized that such a life was so arbitrary and full of unknown expectations.

However, that teacher found his other half during the journey.

A journey of one person becomes a journey of two people.

And she...

Zhang Nian suddenly smiled. It was different from the shyness and the bitterness of being unable to let go when he fell in love with Chu Zixiao before.

It was also different from the helplessness and gratitude he felt when facing Qiao Jinnian's help before.

Changing the family is different from... facing the sudden change of the Zhang family, the sadness when my father and mother left each other a few months ago.

Now Zhang Nian has once again found his position during the journey, and he also knows better what he wants?

In life, you may have to lose everything before you can look back.

"Senior, you want to be with me..." Zhang Nian asked, "Can you tell me what I look like in your impression?"

Qiao Jinnian smiled, "Quiet yet agile, generous yet reserved, filial, tenacious... clean and self-sufficient."

Zhang Nian laughed when he heard Qiao Jinnian praising himself a lot.

No one likes to be praised, but when the praise is too much, it feels a bit unreal.

"Senior, in your eyes... I'm not bad at all?" Zhang Nian asked calmly.

Qiao Jinnian was stunned for a moment, and then said: "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder... I have tolerated all the bad things about you, haven't I?" His eyes were glaring, "Besides, a girl like you will What makes me feel bad?"

"Then what if I tell you that I'm not as clean and self-possessed as you see?" Zhang Nian ignored Qiao Jinnian's slight frown and just looked back, "Senior, I'm not a virgin...I don't have you either. Such a good idea.”

"Xiao Nian..." Qiao Jinnian frowned deeply when Zhang Nian said that he was not a virgin.

He didn't like her talking about him like that.

"I didn't lie to you." Zhang Nian tilted his head and looked at Qiao Jinnian, "I'm not as good as you think. Although I'm not a prodigal, you don't mind if I'm gone for the first time?"

"I don't mind!" Qiao Jinnian said hurriedly, breathing heavily.

Zhang Nian smiled lightly, "No, you care!"

"I don't care!" Qiao Jinnian's voice was urgent without any consideration, as if he was afraid that if he thought about it, he would have a different answer.

"But, I care!" Zhang Nian smiled indifferently, "Senior, my heart was given to Chu Zixiao, and my body was also given to him... But, because of the Zhang family's affairs, I can't be with him anymore. ”

Qiao Jinnian's breathing began to become rapid, and an indescribable feeling gradually spread in his heart.

"Senior, are you sure you want such a woman who doesn't belong to you physically or mentally?" Zhang Nian asked.

"I want it!" Qiao Jinnian said hurriedly.

However, as he said this, there were indescribable emotions flowing in his eyes. Even though he tried his best to hold it back and suppress it, it still leaked out.

"Senior, why should you deceive yourself?" Zhang Nian mercilessly exposed what was deep in Qiao Jinnian's heart, "You keep yourself clean, so you ask your significant other to do the same. There is no problem with this... The problem is that I knew Chu Zi before you did. Xiao, couldn't help but have sex with him... Although that night was an accident, I felt very happy because it was the best night in my life. "

Finally able to face what happened that night, Zhang Nian even became very calm now.

Whether she was talking about Chu Zixiao, or thinking about her parents' departure, the Zhang family's downfall...she could treat it calmly.

"Everyone has his own life. Parents naturally hope that their children can have a significant other so that they will not be alone, so...when I die, I want to entrust me to you." Zhang Nian said calmly, "You are a good person. But sometimes, it’s not easy to just be together.”

Qiao Jinnian's heart seemed to be torn open by Zhang Nian's calmness. He wanted to say something, but found that he was unable to say anything? !

"The life of two people is not bad, but the life of one person is not necessarily bad..." Zhang Nian smiled, very quietly, "Whether it is Chu Zixiao or you, I don't want it. Because, no matter Whether it’s him or you, there are things between us that cannot be resolved or ignored.”

Zhang Nian looked at Qiao Jinnian again, then looked away, "I'm fine now... I want to live a free life by myself for the time being. I don't need to consider other people's thoughts, as long as I am happy." Her eyes gradually became far-reaching, revealing With a trace of secrecy, "Maybe, I can meet my final him in the future, maybe, I will be this kind of person in my life... In fact, no matter what, how can I know the joy of fish if I am not a fish?!"

"Xiao Nian..."

"Senior!" Zhang Nian interrupted what Qiao Jinnian was about to say and smiled at him, "Today I promised you to go out for dinner, or even take a walk here... I know you will definitely mention being together again, so I came. I came because I want to tell you that we should just leave it at that... If friends can do it, then do it. If not, I will pretend not to know you in the future."

"No!" Qiao Jinnian was anxious now, "Xiao Nian, I really can not care about your first time, you can't deny my future with me because of the past..."

"Then just think of me as selfish!" Zhang Nian said obviously without any room for maneuver, "I just want to make it clear to you today, we... are impossible!"

After she finished speaking, she looked at Qiao Jinnian deeply and stood up.

Without saying anything else, she turned around and went up the steps on the side...

"Xiao Nian..."

Qiao Jinnian's voice came from behind, but Zhang Nian did not stop.

Qiao Jinnian may need to think about and digest what he said today.

However, she is not in this matter. For a person who keeps himself clean, even if he can forgive, it will become a wound in their future life.

She didn't want them to become sharp because of this incident, so she wasn't afraid of how Qiao Jinnian would look at her, and told her what happened that night tonight...

But, she didn't say that it was because of her father's design, but let him think that she climbed onto Chu Zixiao's bed!

Suddenly, Zhang Nian stopped...

Her eyes fell on the person who had just gotten out of the car parked on the roadside, and for a moment, she forgot to react.