Chapter 69 I Am Not Afraid of Guilt, I Am only Afraid of Yunfenghuang

"I can't go with you." Yun Fenghuang didn't hesitate at all, saying exactly the same words as three years ago, "My sister Hongxing's affair has already brought huge trouble to the family. If I also follow you If they elope and two young ladies from one family do not follow the rules of women, how can there be a place for my Xie daughter in this northern land from now on?"

"Not only Mrs. Xie, but also my sister and I were raised by the same mother, and even my maternal family, the Jiang family, will be disgraced and criticized... If my maternal family had not spoken for me this time, Mrs. Xie would never have given me the chance to leave the Imperial Capital. !”

"Because I am the legitimate daughter and I have been engaged to you since childhood, I have a superior status in the family and have always been favored and valued by my father and brothers. My cousins ​​who are not so progressive are not allowed to hear about family affairs, but I never hear about them. When I was seven or eight years old, I was taken by my father to watch... My family put all their efforts into raising me, but I haven't repaid them even half of it. How can I make my family members worse off because of my own selfishness?"

"Besides, as the eldest son, you were supported and taught by the clan, but you left for me, leaving your parents and blood relatives in the clan? The fate between you and me has been exhausted, so it's better not to force it. Let's say goodbye, never again. goodbye!"

Qi Jiulu listened motionless, and after a long while he said softly: "Actually, I guess this is the answer, but in the end I still hold on to a glimmer of hope, that is, you are willing to lie to me now."

Yun Fenghuang sighed and said: "You...I used to lie to you a lot, and you always believed it. Now I don't want to keep you in the dark anymore. If I tell the truth, you will I don’t want to believe it anymore. I told you not to come, why don’t you listen?”

"Maybe it's because you were by my side before, so I didn't want to think too much about what you said or did." Qi Jiulu said softly, "As long as you are happy, that's fine. But now it's difficult for you and me to meet each other. I just want to hear some nice words."

"Of course I can say sweet words, but if I say it to you now, it will only hurt you." Yun Fenghuang shook his head and said, "The reason why I refused to go with you back then was that the so-called consideration for the two families was nothing but high-sounding words... The bottom line is that I can't believe you. I came to the Imperial Capital as arranged by my mother. Although I am staying at my aunt's house, I have a large dowry to leave the palace. Even if the person I marry is not as good as you, I still marry the right match and have the security of the world."

But if he just dropped everything and left with Qi Jiulu, Qi Jiulu was only fifteen at the time. Even though the family carefully cultivated him, he never matured. He himself still needs the protection of his family, let alone protecting her?

She didn't believe in Qi Jiulu's ability, or she couldn't believe that Qi Jiulu had the ability to take her away and place her properly at that time. And I don’t believe that Qi Jiulu will never regret it after giving up so much for her.

Yun Fenghuang said calmly, "I don't mean well when I say that. Because I know that the more I blame the reason for not following you on my family, the more you will hate the Xie family and the Qi family, and even hate the Qi family more. After all, it was after Mrs. Qi proposed to break off the engagement that the family decided to send us sisters to the ancestral temple and to marry far away. After my parents fought for me, I got the promise to be sent to the imperial capital... and so on. After you become the master, you will definitely not let go of those people who caused me to leave my hometown!"

Not only that, "It will also be difficult for you to forget me. No matter who you marry in the future, you will not be able to help but compare yourself to me. Your childhood sweetheart and I were forced to separate from you when we were most emotionally harmonious and looking forward to our future together. You must only remember my goodness. In the future, no one can be as good as me in your mind! No matter how gentle, virtuous, and considerate your future wife is, she will always be unhappy in your opinion, so that one will take the place of your wife. The person who is in my position will not have a very happy life, so even if I never see you again, I will feel a lot more comfortable."

She turned her head slightly and looked at the silent man not far away, "Look, I'm actually not as good as you think. It's just that we were young and in love at the time. If you can't see clearly, I won't treat you as such." Let me tell you the truth."

"...So what?" Qi Jiulu said softly with a hoarse voice, "We grew up together. You have many little thoughts. Do you think I really don't know about it? You also said that as the eldest son, I am supported by the clan. I have grown up with education, and no matter how close I am to you, how can I know nothing about your temperament? You don’t like Chao Jingyou, so not only do you not allow me to talk to Chao Jingyou, you don’t even allow me to exchange polite greetings with the Chao family’s children. You want to lose your temper... At that time, some people in the clan were talking privately, saying that you have a domineering and jealous temperament, and you are not a person who can be a tomb wife. But I don't care, I am the one who married you, and Chao has nothing to do with you in my eyes. Fabi, if you don’t like them, then you don’t like them. I can’t bear to wrong you myself, so why do those people ask you to wrong yourself for me?!”

It's not that he doesn't know that Yun Fenghuang is not a virtuous and virtuous woman recognized by the world. Those good reputations are probably spread and managed by the family.

But he just liked her.

"My tribe has been very worried for a while, thinking that I am naturally henpecked, and I am afraid that it will be difficult for me to become a qualified head of the family in the future." Qi Jiulu laughed at himself, "But this view is wrong, because I am not henpecked, I am just willing to follow the rules. you."

He is not afraid of guilt, he is only afraid of clouds and winds.

As long as he is Yun Fenghuang, he can be anything, whether he is willful or domineering, selfish or hypocritical... they are all cute in his opinion.

In addition, all the virtuous, virtuous, talented and beautiful people recognized by the world are boring to him.

The only vivid color in the world is in Yunfenghuang.

Qi Jiulu didn't want to hear any objections.

"You see, it's just because of this that I don't want to continue to lie to you." Yun Fenghuang sighed, "You don't owe me anything in the first place, so there is no need to do so much for me... The Imperial Capital today is a whirlpool, and I have If you are in it, why bother dragging you into the water? Just go back to the North. The descendants of the Qi family are few, and Qi Jiuzhang's qualifications are not as good as yours. What can you do if you rush into battle now? The future of your family will depend on you. Can you make it happen? I think they put a lot of thought into agreeing to let you come. But what possibilities do we have in the future?"

Seeing what Qi Jiulu was going to say, she shook her head slightly and signaled him to listen to what she said, "There is no precedent for releasing concubines in the country. Besides, since I entered the palace, I have intentionally or unintentionally blocked the way of many people and caused trouble for many people. These contradictions are not obvious now, but they will definitely backfire in the future. Even if the regent succeeds, you also know that the prince's biological mother died young, and the power of the maternal family is not as powerful as that of the Qingping Houfu. That position is still far away from him. Even in the future He was lucky enough to succeed to the throne... How many years will it take for that to happen? Things in the world are unpredictable. Maybe you and I will be old by then and no longer have the mentality of youth."

"You just go back to the north."

She persuaded again, "Since I entered the palace, I have never thought about how to spend tomorrow. You being here not only distracts me, but also makes me feel guilty. It is not a good thing for me or you."

"... Qi needs me, what about you? Are you not going to need me anymore?" Qi Jiulu looked at her and said calmly, "Or have you decided that you don't want anything?"

Yun Fenghuang frowned slightly, and just as he was about to speak, he flicked his sleeves and said in a deep voice, "Since I was a child, I have listened to you in everything. Even when I was on the peacock slope with thousands of arrows in my heart, I still did what you wanted. On the way to the Imperial Capital... You said I don't owe you anything, but what about you? Don't you think you owe me? Now I don't want to listen to you... I even often think, if I didn't obey you so much back then , if I had persisted a little longer, if I had taken you away by force... maybe you wouldn't have entered the palace at all! Maybe you were the one who carried the sedan into my Qi family's house on the eighth day of the Lunar New Year!"

"..." Yun Fenghuang was speechless.

Qi Jiulu continued: "And do you think you are doing me a favor by telling me these so-called truths and driving me back to the North? Why don't you think about our parents who were hysterical and did not allow us to be together? Why don't you think that we were not allowed to be together? Are we good? A is like honey, B is like arsenic or frost. It doesn’t mean that the choice they think is good is good, nor is it the choice that you think is good. It is good for me. Now I don’t want to listen to anyone’s advice. I just I want to do my own thing.”

Yun Fenghuang was silent for a long time and said: "Last time... I forgot to ask you, who is behind the Chao family? If it is the Yiguo Duke's Palace, why did you go to the Regent's Palace when you came to the Imperial Capital?"

"..." Qi Jiulu looked at her with some disappointment in his eyes. He didn't expect that she would change the topic so obviously, but he still answered slowly, "Chao refused to reveal it, only said that he was a big shot in the Imperial Capital. My family repeatedly inquired and found suspicion. It's Marquis Qingping. But you entered the palace so abruptly, but you took the route of Duke Yi's palace, and now I'm a little afraid to confirm."

"Marquis Qingping..." Yun Fenghuang pondered and said, "The young prince in the Regent's Palace is still young, and unless the Regent is crazy, he cannot tolerate the eldest son's dispute in the Palace at this time. They should not be doing this for the sake of Targeting Gong Xiangxiao, at least not for now. So, the regent is already aware?"

As the territory of the Dingbei Army, Beidi was closely related to the Regent.

The wealthy families in the area, such as the Xie family and the Qi family, do not want to get involved in temple matters.

The regent had never meant to force him. At this moment, the regent's current father-in-law suddenly intervened and said how could it be possible on a whim?

There must be something planned.

From Yun Fenghuang's point of view, the Xie and Qi families were indeed deeply intertwined and powerful in the local area. But for the temple, it has no influence at all, and it can even be said to be unknown.

The Marquis of Qingping did not hesitate to instigate the Chao family to destroy the marriage between the Xie and Qi families, but also wanted to drag people into the water. What was he trying to do?

It's just for their local power and the possessions they have accumulated over the years.

And the regent's lineage has become a climate. Even if it is temporarily tight, why does it look so ugly?

Eighty percent...there are big things to do.

As for what major event it is, combined with the fact that the temple controls the Dingbei Army to tighten the supply of supplies, it is difficult not to guess at places like military admonishment...

The Dingbei Army has been fighting against foreigners for many years. It is the most elite army in the country and has the best treatment.

However, the regent went there for training on Xiaozong's order, and after winning the hearts of the Dingbei army, Ji, Zheng Ju and others joined forces to control it.

As a result, although this army has the strength to march to the imperial capital, it has been short of supplies for many years, making it difficult to leave the station for a long time.

Qi Jiulu said in a cold tone: "Of course, this prince seems to be strong, but in fact he is not without hesitation. If it were me, I would have taken action before Chunjia arrived in the imperial capital! Now Chunjia has been in power for eight years, and there is no way There are no merits but no faults. There is no good excuse to rashly raise the army. Regardless of whether it is successful or not, the history books will inevitably be punished by the Spring and Autumn Period! It is better to do nothing than to do the rest. If the thing is successful, everything will be shied to the record. clan and his ilk."

He also said, "Although Emperor Xiaozong was not Ji's opponent, his light corvee and low taxes were quite popular among the people. The regent accepted the late emperor's legacy and did not use it at that time. Now that times have changed, the people are forgetful and do not rely on the advantage of the military. , how can it be so easy to usurp the throne with temple tricks?"

Yun Fenghuang knew what he said, but in the final analysis, he still felt sorry for himself because of the separation from Peacock Slope back then, so that now they were married, and they were still worried about each other. They seemed to be ridiculing the regent. She sighed in her heart and said on her face: "This is a serious matter. If you are unwilling to go back to the North, be very careful."

However, he felt that what he had said was as if he had not said it. He was silent for a while and then said, "Chao is insidious. If you keep away from Chao Jingyou, they will definitely not trust you and even become suspicious. Occasionally...occasionally you can Being slightly close to Chao Jingyou made her feel that you can't forget me for the time being, but as long as she treats you wholeheartedly, you will be moved by her one day."

That humble maid has always regarded Qi Jiulu as a knot in her heart. Even if she doesn't really admire Qi Jiulu, she may not be willing to make great efforts to win Qi Jiulu's sincerity.

Just when he suggested this, Yun Fenghuang was slightly in a daze, remembering that when he was young, he was held in Jiang's lap and told every word how to win Qi Jiulu's favor and how to use Qi Jiulu to deal with Chen... The most important thing is, Qian Qian Don't admire Qi Jiulu too much.

At that time, Mrs. Jiang looked at her daughter tenderly: "My son, please remember that at any moment, the most important thing for you is yourself, not your husband."

At that time, Yun Fenghuang innocently promised her mother that she would always put her own interests first. Who was Qi Jiulu? She must keep this person in check so that Mrs. Chen will never dare to be angry and dare not speak out for the rest of her life.

Later, she really made Qi Jiulu a submissive person, and now this man is completely devoted to her.

But unknowingly she also fell in love with this person...

So now that Qi Jiulu is allowed to marry Chao Jing Youxu and Weishe, after a long time, can he... really be indifferent to that bitch?