Chapter 750 At Least Feel Relieved

Sarah once said that she is a defective product.

Since she was born in this world, she has no emotion, and is a kind of incomplete thing that looks like life but is not life.

Yes, in fact, it can also be said that she is just an "item" that has a self-knowledge by chance, nothing more.

Maca didn't know how Sarah had viewed the world for so many years. But from the strangeness at the beginning to the familiarity later, it should not be much different from a child growing up.

At least, it should be so on a spiritual level.

But it's hard to imagine how she sees herself...

"wait!"

After Maca drew the energy of the Bewitching Monument back into the gem and cut off his supply of magic power to the rune array, he suddenly thought of a question and couldn't help asking.

"Speaking of which, why do you want to obtain emotions?" He was a little puzzled, "If you have emotions yourself and are just hidden for some reason, I can understand a little bit, but ..."

"Is there a reason?"

Sarah stood in the formation, and after thinking for a moment silently, she shook her head again.

"I don't know, I just feel... I want to have emotions," she said in a little confusion, "That's what I lack, and I want to get what I don't have, isn't it... normal?"

"Normal?" Maca looked at her and repeated the word.

"Isn't it?" Sarah caressed her cheek,

He said softly, "For example, when I think of Phillips, I should be sad... But, I don't even understand what sadness is. Even if I see all the crying of others, I still don't understand it at all. That's how it should feel."

As she spoke, it was as if she felt the slap on the side of her face that Phillips slapped again. The subtle touch made her unforgettable all her life.

"In this situation, I would really like to experience it—even if it's just for a moment."

However, at this moment, Maca's finger immediately pointed to Sarah.

"Yes, that's it!" He frowned and said, "I mentioned it just now, right? Emotion is the appearance of desire, and your desire for emotion itself, isn't this kind of thought a kind of desire?"

After pointing out this key point, Maca continued while recalling: "You know, I lost my emotions for a while. At that time, my thinking mode changed a lot... Seriously, if I had never had emotions, at that time, I might not even know what to do!"

Thinking about it now, that feeling is still terrible.

But Maca clearly remembered that at that time, she didn't even realize that she was afraid. There is only a sense of disobedience secretly driving him, and he finds out through self-analysis that such a state is very likely to be bad.

Therefore, after understanding the current situation, he began to imitate his past self as much as possible, and found a reason for himself to move on.

Otherwise, it would be hard for him to imagine what he would look like now.

Having said that, he looked at Sarah again.

"And you," he analyzed, "you didn't have any past as a reference from the beginning, so how did you find the motivation to move forward in this world?"

"Let alone want to gain emotion."—Maka didn't say this sentence, but the meaning he wanted to express has already been passed on to Sarah.

"Forward momentum……"

Sarah was thinking hard with a puzzled expression, and Maca could see that she was quite incomprehensible to these things that were very close to the root of the problem.

In fact, if it were a normal person, it would be difficult to find an answer to this dialectical discussion.

But for Sarah, this is a key point - if she can figure it out, then she may be a big step closer to the "emotion" she needs.

As far as Maca is concerned, she actually wants to help Sarah. Because up to now, Sarah's harvest is completely linked to his research on the soul and the monument of bewitching.

It's a pity that only this step, there are very few places where he can help.

"Oh, Sarah," Maca seemed to think of something suddenly while the other party was silently thinking, "I still have a question to ask you... Maybe this question will be easier to answer than the one just now."

"What?" Sarah raised her eyelids slightly.

"I want to know, how do you understand your own existence?" Maca asked, "It's like I know that I am a 'human being'... This answer may not be accurate, but it is my understanding of my own existence." cognition."

"Me?" Sarah thought for a while, "I've thought about this question many times before, and I think... I should be considered an 'item'... right?"

Obviously, she was still very uncertain about her answer, but it was no wonder.

"Really?" Maca nodded, "Then look at this—"

While talking, he took out a heavy book and threw it at his feet. Immediately afterwards, as he swung his staff, the book immediately swelled.

It can be seen that under Maca's control, the book changes shape rapidly. In just the blink of an eye, it transformed from a book into a mass of colorful irregular matter, constantly refining its outline.

Not long after, in the open space between the two, a girl who was almost indistinguishable from Sarah appeared.

"Looking at her," Maca said, "Do you think there is any difference between you and her other than self-awareness?"

This is actually like ordinary people analyzing themselves in front of a mirror, but the sense of reality created by the use of transfiguration like Maca is incomparable to looking in a mirror.

Previously, in the Defense Against the Dark Arts class, the Boggart training course that Snape had given Sarah had encountered a similar situation to this one. But now, in the case of purposeful self-examination, the effect is definitely much more pronounced.

When Sarah was attracted by the girl who was exactly like him, Maca was also carefully observing all her changes, and this might be a good time for him to find a breakthrough.

However, if he could know what happened to Sarah when she faced the Boggart, maybe there would be no need to make such trouble...

"Do not……"

For just a moment, Sarah subconsciously took half a step back as if she felt something incomprehensible.

"I...I don't understand," she took a deep breath, and then took another half step back, as if she wanted to stay away from the thing that was extremely similar to herself, "I feel... very uncomfortable, I don't want to see her , can you get her away?"

"Is that really the case?"

While Maka nodded secretly, he swung his stick again and turned the "doll" that was very similar to Sarah back into a book.

In fact, when he saw Sarah's performance, he understood that Sarah didn't seem to be really emotional. Because when she sees someone who seems to be the same as herself, she will feel strange because of the subtle differences between the other party and herself.

And that strange feeling is undoubtedly a touch of fear.

"Sarah," after pondering for a while, Maca couldn't help showing a smile, "I have to congratulate you first. It turns out that although the experiment failed, my guess seems to be wrong... um, or Say, that's at least not quite."

He paused, and then continued: "You may not lack emotion, but... your emotional changes are too weak compared to ordinary people."

"I have emotions?"

Sarah blinked her eyes, then lowered her eyes to look at her hands, as if she was looking for a real feeling. On Maca's side, seeing that she seemed puzzled and relieved at the same time, he felt a little more relieved.

After reaching this conclusion, Maca himself was actually a little disappointed.

Because he originally thought that if Sarah really had no emotions, he might take this opportunity to ask Sarah to confirm another conjecture for him.

And that guess involves the source of the power of the Bewitching Monument.

Yes, he had already decided to take Rowena Ravenclaw's next test.

It's just that, if his conjecture is confirmed, then it won't be him who really controls the Monument of Bewitching—it will be Sarah in front of him.

As for Maca himself, he will try to become the only person who can restrain Sarah, just like how he tried to control the alienated giant spider.

If Sarah can live peacefully without doing what he wants after gaining emotion, then he won't interfere in anything about Sarah, if not, he will take the responsibility he should.

However, even Maca didn't think in advance that Sarah actually has emotions normally.

It's just that her emotions are very weak.

"...In this way, the Ravenclaw test has to be put on hold?" Thinking of this, Maca, who was somewhat hesitant about this matter, couldn't help shaking his head, "That's fine..."

"Professor Maclean?"

Seeing that Maca seemed to be thinking about something, Sarah suddenly called him after waiting for a while.

"Oh," Maca immediately regained his mood, and continued, "In short, today's attempt ends here first... In fact, we have gained a lot, haven't we?"

Through a little understanding just now, Sarah has also felt some very subtle doubts. With Maka's reminder, she summed up those doubts and made herself realize that maybe it really was an emotional trace that belonged only to her.

"Yes," Sarah nodded, "Thank you, Professor McLean."

When Maca heard the words, she didn't say any polite words like "You're welcome". Although his gains were far from what he had expected, that didn't mean nothing at all.

But……

"The Monument of Bewitching... Do I really want to come by myself?"

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