Chapter 1915 "I'm Not Human"

It is actually a very pleasant thing to be able to sit down and drink tea and chat for a while after a full meal. Especially in today's situation, it can be called a "luxury".

However, it has to be said that the more difficult it is in such a severe period when no one knows what tomorrow will be like, the easier it is for people to treat each other unconsciously and honestly in a rare and comfortable atmosphere.

Right now, after Luna persuaded Sarah, who was about to leave her seat after the meal, she only paused for a while, and then began to talk about some little things she had experienced when she was a student at Hogwarts in the past.

The past events she mentioned may not be so ups and downs, and they may even sound a bit bland to others.

It's just that among the people sitting around at this moment, either they have also experienced it, or they are like the Geoffine sisters, and they simply didn't go to a magic school seriously at all. In the face of too much heaviness and depression recently, these ordinary topics that Luna talked about have become more attractive.

"...Oh! Sarah, I remember that Professor Snape also got a Boggart in the first-year class, and once a week for almost a semester. In fact, when we were in the third year Had a similar class too... Guess what that boggart became when it saw me?"

"What?" Sarah asked absently.

"It's mistletoe!" Luna opened her arms, drew a large circle in front of her, and gestured, "That-such a big pile of mistletoe! It didn't tell me, but I know that there must be many, many The hook!"

"……what?"

When Sarah heard this, she couldn't help being taken aback for a moment, and then repeated with an inexplicable expression on her face.

"The hook!" Luna bent her finger, "A kind of black parasite, they have three eyes and thousands of teeth!"

Just saying that, she suddenly shrugged and said:

"Okay! Actually, I didn't really see it. My dad told me this... Oh, yes! Sarah, I actually want to ask, what happened to your Boggart at that time?"

Seeing that Luna turned around and asked about the Boggart, Sarah couldn't help but be slightly reminded.

I remember that when she entered Hogwarts, it was almost entirely to get close to Maca. So, at that time, although she did study hard in order not to reveal her true identity, but because most of the first grade content she only needed to study by herself,

So she didn't pay much attention to the time in class.

Even so, she still had vivid memories of Snape's first Boggart class.

After reminiscing a little bit, Sarah didn't want to fool the past, and said directly:

"It became me—another me."

"The other you?" Luna continued to ask enthusiastically, "Why is that? The thing you are most afraid of is yourself?"

"Yes, I'm afraid of myself," Sarah said frankly, "because you think, if a 'monster' that shouldn't appear in this world suddenly appeared in front of you, wouldn't you be afraid? "

Having said that, she shook her head slightly again.

"It's a pity that the Boggart didn't know at the time that what it saw wasn't actually my fear—it was just me telling myself that I should be 'frightened' of myself. Even, at that time I don't even know what fear is."

"What do you mean?" Hannah, who was sitting opposite, couldn't help asking a little confused.

"In other words, I proved that Boggarts can actually be deceived," Sarah smiled, "If I deceive myself into believing something, then Boggarts will also be fooled... But actually, it wasn't so long ago that I really understood what it felt like to laugh, to be sad, to be afraid, whatever it was."

Finally, she picked up the tea that Luna poured for her, took a sip and said:

"Actually, I'm not a 'human'."

...

Sarah can be a "person" who is very good at disguising.

Since she gradually integrated into human society, except for the head of the Hohenheim family and a few people, most of the others just regarded her as a little girl.

And in order to hide her true identity in front of others, even in a state of not understanding human emotions, she forced herself to remember the reasonable expressions and actions she should show under all circumstances.

However, Sarah can actually be a very honest "person".

Especially now, when she finally, with the help of Maca, has largely made up for the defects at the soul level and truly possessed emotions, she has rarely used those emotions that she had spent a lot of time learning. camouflage skills.

After all, for her, true emotions are hard-won "treasures". Now that she finally has them, why hide them again?

After saying the phrase "I'm not human", Sarah seemed to be interested in chatting immediately, and suddenly started talking about her long past with everyone present.

When she mentioned Phillips, she showed sadness; when she talked about the fun stories of the Hohenheim family from generation to generation, she couldn't help giggling; There was an expression of gratitude and joy undisguised.

It is actually a very pleasant thing to talk frankly with people—at least Sarah felt more and more relaxed when she was talking.

It's just that Sarah's story is obviously not so happy... It can even be said to be very sad and painful. Everyone listened, and couldn't help but be touched by the emotions she showed one after another, and each of them fell silent.

After a while, when Sarah's narration and emotions finally came to an end, Ursula on the side finally couldn't help saying:

"I used to think that my own life was scary enough, but...Miss Hohenheim, it's really hard for me to imagine what it would be like to live without emotion for hundreds of years."

"Well," Sarah shook her head, "actually, I don't have any special feelings—it's as if people who are born blind often envy normal people with sight, but they don't understand the state of their eyes really being able to see. So ... you know, they don't have a tangible goal to envy."

As she was speaking, she suddenly looked at Ursula again, and then said:

"Therefore, now I feel that, instead, the situation like yours, Miss Goffein, may make people feel more frightened and sad—"

"Because I once owned it, I understand the horror of 'losing'." Luna said softly thoughtfully.