Chapter 1021: City in Turmoil (13)

Since Cheng Lang decided to let Di Lilan'er's illness take its course last time, speaking is naturally no longer as taboo as before. Maybe with a different personality, she would live a much easier life than now, and she would not be so self-restrained morally.

Sometimes he even wonders whether he should directly stimulate her to change into another personality. As Xu Yicheng said, she will always have his blood, and she will always be his daughter, so that everyone can live easier.

"Daddy, it's one thing if I want it, but it's another thing to get it through immoral means. Even if I get it, I won't be happy."

Cheng Lang looked at her deeply, as if her daughter had a pair of eyes as clear as water, which were filled with too many beautiful and ideal things, and could not bear to see the filthiness of this world.

"Lan'er, sometimes a man likes a woman no matter what she looks like. Similarly, if he doesn't like a woman, he won't like her no matter what. You want his person and his heart. , have you ever thought that maybe he doesn’t have you in his heart at all? If you don’t use any means, you may not get it in your life. Then how long are you going to waste your youth with a man who may never have you in his heart? Spend it?”

When Di Lilan'er heard the words, all the blood drained from her face. She couldn't believe that these were the words spoken by her father. She bit her lower lip, and after a long time she raised her head and looked at Cheng Lang steadily, "Daddy, After Mommy, how many women have you been with? Which one do you like? Or which one do you love? You keep saying that you love Mommy, but I know you don’t care when Mommy is still here. Or after she left, the woman around you never stopped. "

"I long for love. He is loyal and single-minded. He will not treat your wife like you treat mommy. This is one of the reasons why I must have him. Even if his loyalty is used to another woman, I Even looking at it from a distance, I think it’s beautiful.”

"I really must have him. I really hope that the person he loves is not Jing Wushuang, but loves me, but I hope it is based on his willingness. As you said, it may never be possible, even if one day I I will still collapse when I see their happiness with my own eyes. Even if I am the bridesmaid at their wedding, I cannot destroy it because I know that if I destroy it, it will not belong to me. He will not want me willingly. I can only I want him to be willing.”

Dililan'er's thoughts were actually very confused. There were always two people fighting in her mind. One reminded her that she had to be the best girl to be worthy of the love of the best man, while the other one did not. He kept laughing, in this world women are not bad and men are not loving. If you want to get what you want, you must rely on means, otherwise you will probably never get it. You can take the initiative to die alone for the rest of your life.

The two voices kept arguing in her mind, and sometimes she couldn't sleep all night long. Even when she said the above words, another voice would still jump out and veto it.

Because of this, she loves filming. When filming, she will quickly enter the role and then forget her true self. At that moment, she is just the person in the role and does not have to endure such pain.