Chapter 420 Deceiving Ghosts, Deceiving People?

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"Hoo...………………………………………"

The wind outside the window kept blowing the curtains, as if there were black shadows wandering outside.

Under the night, who is standing outside the window?

perhaps,

Most people had this kind of speculation when they were young, and they also had similar doubts.

Zhu Shengnan lay on the bed with his eyes open.

She has her own room,

own big bed,

own wardrobe,

own dresser,

she has,

A home in very good condition.

In the whole of China, the number of women named Shengnan would be astonishingly large.

Parents may not feel that way,

But this name itself carries a kind of depression, even the owner who wears this name will subconsciously hate his own name.

as one's own birth, as one's sex,

For my parents' family,

is a kind of helplessness,

It is a sigh of resignation,

want a son,

but gave birth to a daughter,

In desperation, he named him "Katsuo",

It can be regarded as a kind of "self-deception" of parents and parents.

Human beings, because of the construction of ethics and morality, can distinguish themselves from beasts and slowly break away from the sequence of all things;

But everything has two sides, and the distortion of ethics and morality often becomes a side effect and starts to harm human beings themselves.

It's five o'clock in the morning,

Zhu Shengnan woke up early,

But I don't know what to do.

She is six years old this year, and she was at the age of kindergarten, but her family did not let her go to kindergarten, but hired a private teacher to teach her at home.

She didn't resist, and she didn't know how to resist.

Can't sleep, and it's still dark,

She doesn't make noise, doesn't make noise,

she has a home,

But in this home, the light color is a bit dark.

She didn't know what she could do at this point,

watch TV?

read comics?

Go to your parents' room, get into their bed and act like a baby?

She just leaned against the head of the bed, sitting, always, sitting.

Sit until the sky begins to light up.

Downstairs, there were footsteps. It should be that my grandma got up and was preparing breakfast for the family.

She got up too,

wear clothes,

wash up,

After tidying myself up,

Walked down the stairs slowly.

"Katsuo, come, let's eat."

"Okay, grandma."

Katsuo did not sit at the table,

Instead, he stood at the door of the small room at the corner of the living room.

Grandma came up with a tray. On the tray, there were porridge and bowls and chopsticks.

The so-called meal,

Not asking her granddaughter to have breakfast with her,

It doesn't matter if people eat or not, and it doesn't matter if people are hungry or not.

A Bodhisattva must never be in debt.

Grandma carefully put the tribute food on and arranged it, then knelt down on the futon in front and kowtowed reverently.

In Zhu Shengnan's memory, grandma didn't believe in Buddhism. I don't know when she started to believe in it.

After kneeling,

Grandma stood up, stretched out her hand, and grabbed Zhu Shengnan's wrist.

The needle was taken out by the grandmother, and it was stuck in Zhu Shengnan's arm, and half of the blood was drawn.

Immediately afterwards, the grandma poured her granddaughter's blood into the wick.

Zhu Shengnan didn't know where grandma learned this method, but she liked it very much, because compared with drawing blood, other methods would make her feel more uncomfortable.

Grandma knelt down again, and she began to bow again, but this time, she bowed to the painting under the altar.

in the picture,

There are two ghost messengers, and in front is a male doll.

Grandma prayed with words in her mouth, extremely pious.

Zhu Shengnan looked at the painting. She had seen this painting countless times.

Many days and nights, grandma held a whip, or father held a cigarette butt, or simply let himself beat himself,

Right in front of this picture,

It means to let the two ghosts in this painting see.

explain,

As long as you are like this,

Dad can have a son.

Yes,

Dad wants a son,

Grandma also wants a grandson.

They want the kind of male doll in the story,

The following structure is different from itself.

Zhu Shengnan is clear that he is a completely redundant role in this family. Since he was born, he has been redundant until now.

She forgot whether she had ever cried,

I'm also confused about whether I've ever made a fuss or not.

If this is a besieged city,

then it doesn't

There is no door to let you in or out.

Those outside the city cannot see inside,

People in the city can't go outside either.

People, you can't decide which family you are born into, once you are born, you have no choice.

Bodhisattva finished eating,

That person should eat it.

Zhu Shengnan sat at the dinner table, and grandma served her porridge.

On the table, there are also small buns and pickles, as well as eggs and milk.

Except in that little room,

Grandma treats herself very well,

take care of yourself to eat,

Care yourself to wear,

I take good care of myself,

very considerate of myself,

It's like taking good care of your sweetheart,

Zhu Shengnan remembers,

Grandma used to be a professional pig farmer, so she paid for Dad to go to college and work.

Dad came down, he sat at the table, smiled at Zhu Shengnan, and asked:

"Has the Bodhisattva eaten?"

"Eat it." Grandma replied.

"Um."

Dad ate something casually, and then got up to go to work. Before leaving, he deliberately said: "I won't be coming back tonight."

"Well, don't come back."

Zhu Shengnan knew that his father was going to live with other women tonight.

this thing,

Grandma also knows.

He wants a son,

She wants grandchildren,

Mother and son, the goal is the same.

The mother gave birth to her first child,

Afterwards, the three consecutive births were all girls, and they all aborted.

In fact, a long time ago, the country stipulated that doctors were not allowed to disclose the sex of the baby during the B overtime.

But the regulations are always good, and the original intention of the above is always good,

However,

It is not machines that enforce the rules, but people.

Even if the regulations are like this, there are absolutely countless examples of people planning to have an abortion every year when they learn that their wives are pregnant with a daughter.

this maybe,

It is also a kind of luck.

Those baby girls, if they were born in the kind of families that would abort if they knew it was a girl baby, in fact, it is really better to leave early and wait for the next reincarnation.

Simply ending at the beginning, compared with the treatment and injustice they will suffer after they are born, it seems that it is not a bad thing.

But Zhu Shengnan knew,

Dad has many women outside,

Several women are pregnant,

But they were still all girls, and they were all aborted.

Dad is a dentist,

He let his own woman have an abortion, just as straightforward as pulling out a patient's tooth.

No son, no matter how many daughters are born, it means nothing to both mother and son.

This is an obsession,

An unbelievable obsession in the eyes of outsiders.

After Dad left, Mom came down.

Mom's hair is a bit messy,

Spirit is not very good.

Zhu Shengnan was a little afraid of his mother,

Especially when I'm sitting at a table with my mom.

"Snapped!"

"It's hot!"

Mom was scalded by the porridge,

He overturned the porridge bowl, and the hot porridge spilled on Zhu Shengnan's body.

Zhu Shengnan's body trembled slightly, he didn't cry out the pain, and even ignored it.

Mom did it on purpose,

she knows,

Mom doesn't like herself, hates herself.

She felt that Zhu Shengnan was the culprit who caused her family to be like this.

If she is a boy, mother still has a happy family.

"This broom boy, he gets angry when he sees it!"

Mom picked up the chopsticks and slapped them at Zhu Shengnan.

Zhu Shengnan just sat there, not moving, letting her smoke.

smoke it

Although chopsticks hurt my body,

But compared to scraping yourself with cigarette butts, scissors, and a knife,

Nothing more.

Grandma was sitting there, quietly chewing the steamed buns in her mouth,

Grandma at this time,

Like Jia Mu in the Dream of the Red Chamber,

Standing high above, watching the fights below.

breakfast is over,

Mom went upstairs again, and suffered three consecutive miscarriages, which made her unable to continue to conceive, and also suffered a huge blow to her spirit, so she shut herself at home all day.

And she knew it herself,

her husband,

Still for a boy,

outside,

on other women,

Working hard.

When people watch TV dramas, they often feel absurd, and always feel that such things cannot happen in reality.

But actually,

The stories that happen in reality are often more like TV dramas than TV dramas.

Many lower limits of human beings are more terrifying than the madness of artists.

The private tutor is here.

daytime,

Just go to class.

until evening,

The private tutor is gone,

Grandma called her:

"time for dinner."

Zhu Shengnan came down, and she stood obediently at the door of the small room.

Grandma opened the door and walked in with her.

A blade appeared in Grandma's hand,

She took off her clothes.

There was another wound on his body, and blood began to flow out.

Grandma knelt on the ground and began to cry, holding her and crying.

"My wretched granddaughter,

God, open your eyes,

My wretched granddaughter,

My dear baby..."

Grandma often cries,

She felt that by crying, she could move the Bodhisattva and the two people in the animation.

It's like crying at a funeral in a rural area. The sisters-in-law who were talking and laughing before entering the house will cry "earth-shattering" immediately. Grandma has also inherited this skill.

She said that Bodhisattva has many things to do, if you don't shout louder, she can't hear you clearly.

If she can't hear you well, she won't talk to you.

Zhu Shengnan looked at his grandmother who was kneeling on the ground hugging him,

Looked ahead again.

suddenly,

She saw the two people in the painting, they seemed to move, yes, they moved.

One of them seemed to be still smiling at himself.

She immediately shouted:

"Grandma, the people in the painting are moving."

she is happy

Even joyful.

perhaps,

When dad and grandma's business is done,

Can I get rid of this numb life myself?

The hardest to extinguish and the hardest to kill are often illusions.

"Snapped!"

Grandma smacked Zhu Shengnan's face,

scolded:

"You son of a bitch, who are you lying to, what nonsense!"

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