Two Hundred and Twenty Eighth, Destroy that Self

"Clatter..."

Warm water sprayed from the shower head, making the sound of water echoing in my ears endlessly.

White mist-like water vapor permeated this not-so-confined space, making the smooth floor tiles and wall stones covered with tiny water droplets like sweat.

Here is the bathroom of one of the rooms on the fourth floor of the luxury cruise ship.

The fourth floor is the floor where the girls' dormitory rooms are located.

At this time, Karuizawa Megumi was in the bathroom of her room, washing her body.

Obviously it's not time to take a bath yet, and it's only around 2:30 in the afternoon, but Karuizawa Megumi couldn't help coming here to take a bath.

Otherwise, Karuizawa Megumi thought that her mind would not be able to calm down completely.

"It's...terrible..."

Recalling what happened in the rabbit group's room, Megumi Karuizawa couldn't help murmuring.

The voice is full of pain, memories and fear.

The heart is beating faster.

The smooth skin does not feel warm at all under the washing of hot water.

This made Karuizawa Megumi's whole body tremble slightly.

If it is now, seeing Karuizawa Megumi like this, I believe that anyone will know what Karuizawa Megumi is afraid of.

This should be surprising, right?

Because, in the eyes of others, Megumi Karuizawa is a powerful and unreasonable queen.

Domineering is her norm.

Impatience and disgust are fundamental to her personality.

Who would have thought that Megumi Karuizawa would hide in the bathroom of the room, trembling with fear?

Only Karuizawa Hui knows.

This kind of self is the real self.

Karuizawa Megumi knew herself very well.

Whether it is an advantage or a disadvantage,

I understand everything.

Therefore, Megumi Karuizawa knew that neither boys nor girls actually liked her.

Therefore, Megumi Karuizawa also knew how many people hated her for her arrogance and unreasonableness.

Even Hirata Yosuke doesn't like Karuizawa Megumi, he's just helping Karuizawa Megumi.

Megumi Karuizawa is self-aware of all these.

But what does it matter?

Karuizawa Megumi just wanted to be such a person.

As long as she becomes such a person, no one will dare to bully her anymore.

Therefore, no matter how annoying she was, Megumi Karuizawa didn't feel pain.

Compared with everything that has happened in the past, such a thing is not worth calling it pain at all.

In fact, after coming to Highly Nurturing High School, everything went as Megumi Karuizawa wished.

Her domineering made her status among girls.

Her unreasonableness makes it impossible to feel contempt for her.

Painful memories from the past have all been overcome.

Today, Megumi Karuizawa has been reborn.

At least, I think so.

"I... should have been reborn..."

Unfortunately, this is just a dream.

When the dream finally wakes up.

Everything today awakened Karuizawa Megumi's dream.

When I think of Shiho Manabe, Nana Yabuna, and Saki Yamashita approaching me, with the hostility in their eyes that Megumi Karuizawa is so familiar with, the painful memories of the past spring up like mushrooms after a spring rain. pop up.

"Well…"

Memories awaken fear.

Fear overturned the heart.

Karuizawa Megumi felt dizzy for a while, and couldn't help but sat on the ground, even his head drooped as if he had lost all strength.

However, this drop gave Megumi Karuizawa a fatal blow.

Because Megumi Karuizawa saw it.

There was a hideous scar on his flank.

"!"

The moment the scars came into Karuizawa Megumi's eyes, the dizziness in Karuizawa Megumi's head turned into a whirlpool, causing her subverted heart to completely collapse.

"vomit…!"

The sound of retching leaked from Karuizawa Meina's fingers covering her mouth.

That was not a reaction caused by the ugly scars on his body, but a disease caused by the cruel digging of the deep wounds in his heart.

mental illness.

Yes.

Karuizawa Megumi has a painful past that is not exaggerated even if it causes mental illness.

It was because of that past that Megumi Karuizawa changed herself and became the disgusting self she is now.

Karuizawa Huiben thought that the past would never happen to her again.

However, Karuizawa Megumi did not expect that the insignificant thing she had done by the disgusting self she had disguised to protect herself would actually become the fuse to reopen her inner pain.

The figures of Shiho Manabe, Nana Yabuna, and Saki Yamashita approaching her not only awakened Megumi Karuizawa who was dreaming sweet dreams, but also awakened the long-lost fear in her heart.

Karuizawa Megumi didn't even know what would happen to her in the days to come.

Megumi Karuizawa, who was in the same group as Manabe Shiho, Yabuna Nanami, and Yamashita Saki, couldn't avoid these three people at all.

Karuizawa Megumi must still have contact with those three people.

So, here comes the problem.

How will those three people treat themselves?

Will it destroy the present self and uncover the hateful and sad past self?

Will there be a second scar like this on my body?

These thoughts made Karuizawa Megumi even more frightened.

"no…"

Karuizawa Megumi moaned almost powerlessly.

"I don't want...to change back..."

Only this matter, Karuizawa Megumi will never allow it.

"I'm not who I used to be..."

Karuizawa Megumi gritted her teeth, trying her best to suppress the fear in her heart.

"I have been reborn..."

Even if it was just rebirth from a humble ant to a pathetic parasite, Megumi Karuizawa needed it all.

Everything is just to protect yourself.

As long as it is to protect herself, Karuizawa Megumi is willing to do anything.

The scar on the flank must not be allowed to increase.

Thinking of this, Karuizawa Megumi couldn't help but think of that person.

He thought of the man he could no longer ignore after the first day of the special exam on the uninhabited island.

Megumi Karuizawa still remembered that the man said this when he asked the students in the class to go out to retrieve the herbs and prepare the herbs for mixing.

"Based on the types of herbs I've collected now, I can formulate quite a few herbs with miraculous effects."

"There are herbs that can act as a stabilizer to help sleep to the greatest extent."

"There are herbs that can be applied topically to treat sprains, scrapes, contusions and even broken bones."

"There are also herbal remedies for colds and fevers."

"In addition to this, there are various herbal medicines with health-preserving effects, and even herbal medicines that can remove scars."

That's right.

"Scar removal..."

Maybe, that man doesn't know at all?

How important this sentence is to me.

From that time on, Karuizawa Megumi knew about it.

I need him.

Need that man, also need that herb.

Otherwise, he would not be able to be reborn after all.

As long as this scar is on my body for a day, then I will still be the same person I used to be.

It is necessary to destroy that self.

For this, Karuizawa Megumi is willing to do anything.

Even if it is to change the host and become that man's parasite, that's the same.