Chapter 1276: Tribulations, Turning Into a Monster
The greatest change that happened to this Christian was the disaster.
When the huge nuclear explosion resounded in front of his eyes, he swore that his whole world was in darkness. The gloom was not his fear of the dangers he faced, but his despair at the future of himself and his children.
As a missionary, a Christian can be said to be a rare high-level intellectual in this country. Although he was born in poverty, under the education of his mentor, he can be regarded as the elite of the country. This is why he can raise so many orphans with a broken church. His ability allows him to get high rewards in this society. Although doing so often means that he has to suffer discrimination and blame from those high castes, he doesn't care about these with his own ideals and beliefs in his heart.
There was only the weight of those children in his life, and everything else was irrelevant to him. As long as he can watch those children live happily, he can bear anything else. Whether it is the suppression of the same kind or the harshness of the society, he can bear it. He thought that he was already fearless, but when the whole world suddenly turned into what it is today, he discovered that this kind of fearlessness is so ridiculous and so worthless.
The nuclear bomb destroyed not only a city or a country, but also the inherent order of this land. Under this terrifying destruction, the power that maintained the existence of human society in the past suddenly collapsed. If human beings want to survive, they have to return to the most primitive law of the jungle. And this, for the Christians who protect this group of children, is simply the most fatal test.
He is not strong, nor does he use any tricks. All he can rely on is kindness and his own honesty. And that means nothing in this post-nuclear chaotic world. It can be said that if before the nuclear explosion, he could support himself and the dozen or so lovely children with his own efforts, then now, it would be a problem for him to keep himself alive.
It was a terrible test, for him and for his faith. He didn't know what to do to continue raising this child the way he had done before. But he knew very well that he had to do everything possible to continue raising them.
He never thought about giving up, never thought about it. Even if a terrible disaster has come, even if the world has gradually become chaotic, and the people around him have become more like beasts than like a person, he still has no such thoughts. That was the whole of his life, even if he abandoned everything, it was absolutely impossible for him to abandon them.
However, this is not something that can be done with a determined mind. The gap between the spiritual world and the real world is already doomed, and there is a huge gap between the two. Although he once felt that he was spiritually rich and almost owned the entire world, in this cruel real world, he still had no way to change everything he faced.
It's a very sad thing,
Sad to the point of despair. But a Christian is not in despair, he has already been in despair, so at this time, he does not intend to continue to despair at all.
He was trying, trying in vain. Gather food from the ruins and find water in the wilderness. Exhausting all his abilities, he was trying to protect those weak lives. It's just a pity that the effect he can show by doing this is very weak. The disputes of human beings in order to survive almost inevitably spread to him, and when he was in such disputes, his meager strength made him unable to protect his own gains at all.
How many times, he was beaten all over his body for a piece of food. How many times, for a bottle of clean water, he was bullied so much that he didn't even have the strength to stand up. He often only gets very meager rewards for his huge sacrifices, and such rewards, let alone feeding so many children, are difficult even for him to continue to struggle.
One month, just one month after the nuclear explosion, he had already lost a child. The great pain he had experienced before brought his whole heart to the verge of collapse. He's going mad, or rather he's gone mad. Because when he hugged the child's body and buried him in the soil little by little, he had already begun to swear in his heart that even if he exhausted everything he had, even if he gave everything he had, he would never let him die. This tragedy happened again.
This was his determination, something he would never want to see again even if he risked his soul and life. And just at this time, a special opportunity was sent to him.
A group of special people came to the town where he lived, and they claimed that they had a way to help everyone overcome the current difficulties and help them gain the ability to continue to survive on this land. They don't need to pay anything, they just need to make a choice. A difficult choice, and the only choice.
They just have to choose whether to accept their approach or not. If they don't accept it, they will still be what they are now, struggling in pain under the threat of death, struggling to survive on this land. And if they accept it, they can get rid of this pain and get rid of the fate that may die at any time. Of course, there is a price to be paid, a price of uncertain danger.
If successful, they transform into another form, but retain essentially human qualities. And if they fail, they can only turn into monsters completely, until even the essence of human beings is gradually lost. The odds are uncertain because everyone's physical fitness is different. Stronger people have a higher chance of success, and weaker people have a lower chance of success. This is common sense, but it is not absolute.
Faced with such a special choice, most people almost chose to accept it in order to survive. And naturally, Christians are no exception. He accepted the transformation like those people, but he didn't let his children accept it as well. For his wisdom told him that it might be an irreparable disaster. And as the father of those children, he couldn't let such a thing happen to them anyway. So he chose to sacrifice himself, he only let himself accept it all.
For the first time, the results were surprising. Although he was not physically strong, he persevered through that test and became one of the less than half of those who succeeded. It's just that this doesn't change what happened to him. Because the world is already getting worse.
Becoming a reformer does not mean that he has the ability to protect everything about himself, because he is surrounded by reformers, and he has no advantage at all in competing with these guys who are also reformers. And the failed wanderers everywhere in the wilderness made him full of danger when he went out to find food.
Not only did his situation not get better, but it got worse. And just in this situation, a more severe test also appeared in front of him.
Because of the effects of radiation and lack of nutrition for a long time. One of his children fell ill in bed. He had a high fever and diarrhea, and he was in urgent need of food and medicine. But it is simply impossible for Christians to find food and medicine now.
How precious food is now is beyond the imagination of most people. After the initial turmoil, almost all the food on the market was collected by those organized forces. It is extremely difficult for ordinary people to obtain a food that fills their stomachs. It is even said that many women have begun to sell their bodies in order to fill their stomachs. But the food is still like this, and the rarer medicines are naturally more and more precious.
Although Christians know that the hospitals in their towns have a certain stock of medicines. But the hospital has already been occupied by some big forces. They are numerous and powerful. Ordinary people want to get medicine from them, they have to bite off a bite of their flesh.
It is simply impossible for people with nothing like Christians to get life-saving medicine from them. His only fate is to be thrown out by them, and even if it is more serious, he may leave his life there.
Christian is not afraid of death, but he is afraid that those children will become helpless after his death and can only die with him. That was something he couldn't accept, and he had already made an oath that he would never let any child leave him. Yes, he couldn't let that happen, so at this point, he made a very special decision. Sacrifice himself!
This kind of sacrifice does not mean that he will sell himself to someone. In fact, even if a guy like him wanted to sell it, he couldn't sell it at a price. There are not many things in India, but there are many people. In this land where human lives are worse than dogs, his value is simply worthless.
His so-called sacrifice was a gamble. And this kind of gambling was repeatedly warned and strictly prohibited by the group of guys who claimed to be anthropomorphic.
That drug, that special transformative drug. It is a very special existence, and an ordinary dose is enough to make a huge change in a person. And if the dose is too large, the human body cannot bear the powerful drug effect at all. The Anthropology makes it very clear that it will almost 100% turn you into a monster. And it is precisely because of this clear statement that no one has made any decisions about this thing. And now, Christian puts his mind on these drugs, because he knows that if he doesn't become a monster, then it is impossible for him to protect his children.
For them, he was willing to make sacrifices. But also for them, he had the consciousness to become a monster. This is his choice, his fulfillment of his oath. And under this special reason, he turned into a monster as he wished, a special monster.