Chapter 837 Depression, Even Self-Mutilation

In fact, what Su Wan wanted to ask most was whether the CHK No. 3 virus would be fatal, but when the words came to her lips, she swallowed them in the end.

The word "death" was so hurtful that she couldn't say it.

Matters of life and death are ultimately uncertain.

When she and Jiang Xuecheng had just reconciled, Su Wan always felt that they were still young and would have a long, long time together.

They can still fulfill their previous ideals when they first fell in love and raise a pair of lovely children. When they are old and can no longer walk, they will put aside the trivial things around them and travel around the world together to see all the enjoyable things in the world.

But after learning that she was poisoned, Su Wan discovered that even if the two of them reconciled, such a wish still seemed so extravagant.

Why was God so cruel to her?

Is it because she is jealous that she and Jiang Xuecheng live too happily?

Doctor Li looked at Su Wan's hidden anxious face, and couldn't help but feel a trace of unbearability in his heart.

"Miss Su, the CHK virus is one of the series of viruses that the high priest has been studying, and the No. 3 virus is the latest project. In a short period of time, your body will gradually weaken, but it will not kill you."

He thought about it for a long time and finally gave a relatively objective answer.

Dr. Li considers himself not a good person. As one of the high priest's laboratory officers, he has also had the blood of others on his hands, although those were slaves or death row prisoners.

But every time he dreams about it at midnight, Dr. Li will feel guilty as he thinks of the frightened faces of those people.

In addition to his uneasy conscience, he also faced the risk of being silenced by the high priest, so Dr. Li resigned from his original position and applied to be the chief physician of the Shenting Internal Hospital.

Although he is still inevitably involved in some of the high priest's project processes, at least he will no longer touch human lives with his own hands.

Dr. Li knew that he was deceiving himself, but he had no choice but to do this. If he was diagnosed with the divine court, it would be death.

He also has something he wants to protect.

But when he saw Su Wan, Dr. Li truly realized how cruel the things he was studying were.

A young girl, in her prime, should have had the most beautiful things in the world. However, Su Wan's future was destined to be clouded by the CHK No. 3 virus.

Not fatal in the short term?

Is it just debilitating?

Su Wan bit her lip. She didn't know how much comfort Dr. Li's words contained. After all, "short-term" would not lead to death, so how long could it be called short-term?

A few months, or a year and a half?

Su Wan took a deep breath and managed to calm down her turbulent mood.

"Dr. Li, how short-term is it? Do you mean...that it will be...fatal in the long-term?"

When she said the last few words, Su Wan's face couldn't help but turn pale, and her voice trembled unconsciously.

Seeing Su Wan's panicked expression, Jiang Xuecheng quickly stretched out his hand and covered her palm with his palm.

——This silly girl, I told her not to ask questions a long time ago. She knows too much, and the only person who is worried is herself.

Su Wan glanced at Jiang Xuecheng blankly.

Jiang Xuecheng squeezed her hand without any argument. Jiang Xuecheng's strength was not strong, but the faint warmth from his palm made Su Wan feel inexplicably at ease.

Seeing that Su Wan's mood had stabilized a bit, Jiang Xuecheng couldn't help but feel relieved.

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Doctor Li looked at Jiang Xuecheng comforting Su Wan and sighed silently in his heart.

He had only been exposed to the development and testing of CHK No. 1 and No. 2 viruses, and No. 3 was completely unfamiliar to him.

Moreover, all the people who originally studied the No. 3 virus have disappeared. Dr. Li really doubts that those people were "processed" by the high priest.

Without original data, it would be extremely difficult to develop an antidote to the CHK No. 3 virus on your own!

Maybe it will become a mystery that only the high priest knows.

Doctor Li stood in front of Su Wan and Jiang Xuecheng, his voice extremely serious.

"Ms. Su, I can't guarantee how long it will take, but if the medicine used to relieve CHK No. 3 poison can be supplied in time, your body will not completely fail in at least three or four years."

He is one of the researchers on the CHK No. 1 and No. 2 projects. Even if he has never been exposed to CHK No. 3, he understands the power of this poison to some extent.

Therefore, Dr. Li did not dare to guarantee that Su Wan would still be healthy after taking the relief medicine.

Maybe... maybe it's just to ensure that Su Wan doesn't die...

He had explained these words to the emperor in detail, but in order to make Su Wan feel better, Dr. Li could not tell Su Wan so straightforwardly.

Su Wan was not a fool. Listening to Dr. Li's words, she keenly grasped the word "complete" failure of the body.

Su Wan was silent for a moment, and then realized the seriousness of the problem.

"Then, Dr. Li, if I don't get a radical antidote for a long time, what problems may occur in my body."

Dr. Li didn't expect that Su Wan wanted to ask so clearly.

He glanced at Jiang Xuecheng hesitantly again. Jiang Xuecheng's expression was indifferent, as if he was staying out of the matter.

Doctor Li understood what Jiang Xuecheng meant and finally did not deceive Su Wan.

"Ms. Su, you must feel that you get tired easily these days, often lose your energy, and even want to sleep during the day, right?"

When Su Wan heard this, her beautiful brows suddenly frowned.

She pursed her lips and nodded, her expression solemn.

"Yes, you are right."

When Dr. Li looked at Su Wan, his eyes unconsciously showed a little sympathy.

——It’s a pity that Su Wan is still so young...

"Actually, fatigue and lethargy are only your initial condition. Later, you may also feel that your body is weak, your hair is falling frequently, and your body's various functions will continue to deteriorate and stagnate."

Su Wan's heart throbbed when she heard it, and the scenes from the previous nightmare suddenly flashed through her mind.

She turned into a bald and ghostly woman, while Jiang Xuecheng married Tiya...

When Dr. Li saw Su Wan's expression turned ugly, he hesitated for a moment, not sure whether he should continue talking.

But after thinking about it, I still mentioned the situation of small animals that have been infected with CHK No. 3 virus in the past.

"According to our observations, most animals that have been infected with the third-generation CHK virus will engage in a series of self-injurious behaviors because they cannot bear the pain of the virus attack."

"So, if you don't have strong ability to withstand stress, you are very likely to suffer from mental depression and mental breakdown before your body completely degenerates."

depression? Self harm?

Is this why Jiang Xuecheng doesn't want him to know the inside story?

Su Wan's eyes were slightly red, and she clenched her fingers so tightly that she didn't notice a bloody mark in her palm.

At this moment, Jiang Xuecheng stood up suddenly. He pulled Su Wan's fingers away unhappily, with a sullen look on his face.

"Didn't you say that you are very strong? Why are you so afraid when you hear that you may suffer from depression? And why are you pinching yourself?"