Chapter 3710 Don't Pity Me 【Fan】

Chapter 3675 Don't pity me

After being together for a long time, the secrets on the body cannot be hidden.

Ranbai didn't want to say it, but she didn't intend to hide it from Chu Xu either.

When taking off the watch, it is easy to see the scar left on the wrist.

I have been hiding it for so many years, I don't want to see it, and I don't want to accept other people's strange and sympathetic eyes.

It was a scar left by suicide by cutting his wrists. It was so ugly, it symbolized all the darkness in the past.

So he wears a watch on his left hand all the year round, not to tell the time, but to cover his wounds.

In fact, Chu Xu had guessed a long time ago that it would not be a good thing, but when he saw such a scene, his mind exploded and he couldn't think at all.

He never thought that such an outstanding and arrogant person would commit suicide.

Just how desperate is it that he chooses to cut his wrists.

"You..." Chu Xu's voice was trembling, but he couldn't say a word.

"Brother Xu, don't cry." Seeing the boy's red eyes, Ranbai gently held his chin, and withdrew his hands uncomfortably, instinctively not wanting to expose the scar to the air, when the sleeves were hanging down It was a few years ago to cover up the wound on his wrist, and his reaction had long been flat, "I'm afraid you're like this, so I won't show it to you."

"Jing Bai." The shallow scar seemed to be cut on Chu Xu's heart, and the blunt knife was disturbing his life. Looking at it, he felt pain for Jing Bai, and he couldn't imagine how this person had been for so many years. The man survived, he said every word, "I will treat you well."

He wants to make up for what Jing Bai has lost over the years.

something other people have,

Jing Bai also needs it.

He is no worse than anyone.

"Brother Xu, don't pity me." The boy lowered his eyes and covered them with eyelashes.

He doesn't need this kind of pity.

"It's not pity, it's heartache."

you say.

Obviously such a clean and proud person.

Why should I go through such a dirty and unbearable past.

He is hardworking, talented and motivated.

The exchange is not the tenderness of this world, but a more cruel reality.

He deserves to be in the sun, bearing everyone's envious and admiring eyes, bearing all the tenderness, he deserves it.

not like this.

no.

"It's nothing that happened in the past." Ranbai said lightly, "I'm lucky enough to have you."

But those injuries that fell on the young man, those seventeen years, the stomach problems that fell, those antidepressants and painkillers that couldn't be stopped were nothing.

Jing Bai struggled with suffocation for seventeen years and fought half his life to get out.

now,

But comforting him.

Chu Xu stretched out his hand to gently hold the boy's shaved wrist, and then carefully touched the scar on it. The hot boy almost subconsciously retracted.

"Does it hurt?" Chu Xu asked in a low voice, holding tightly.

"It's been too long." Ranbai was silent for a moment, "I can't remember."

Chu Xu stared at the scar.

It must hurt.

How could cutting the wrist not hurt.

"Can you tell me something about your childhood?" Chu Xu's throat was dry and his voice was a little hoarse: "It's okay if you don't want to tell me, I just want to know more about you..."

"Okay." He agreed, and then thought about it for a long time, and was very quiet, and then said slowly, with a low and gentle voice: "Mu Mu is my cousin, you know that. Before She gave me a lot of candy, very sweet."

Chu Xu was stunned for a moment, then smiled and said, "Is it very sweet?"

Dyebai hummed.

When he thinks about it now, he will be in a trance, but it is also unforgettable. Maybe it was too bitter in the past, so the candy tightly held in his hand will be reluctant to eat, it will be so sweet, but now all these seem to be far away from him.

That's probably how the sweet habit was left, and I didn't even change the habit of collecting candy wrappers.

now.

Finally, he was no longer completely empty, and his eyes were no longer dead.

He finally has someone who will hold him firmly forever.

The atmosphere fell into quiet silence again.

Chu Xu wanted to know about his past,

In fact, he has nothing in the past, let alone anything to talk about, and he seems to be unable to think of anything other than being beaten.

He wanted to pick out some good things to tell Chu Xu about the chaotic and unbearable past, but found that in his memory, he couldn't find anything except those candies that were crumbled in his mouth one by one.

Chu Xu quietly waited for him for a long time.

Ranbai's throat rolled, but he couldn't say a word, and he was a little dazed.

"Enough." Chu Xu clenched his hands, veins bulging, "I know, don't say it."

A few candies made him remember to the present.

But for so many years, there are only these few candies.

The boy fell silent.

He knew that he had nothing about his past, so he never wanted to mention it to others, but Chu Xu was an accident, and he had nothing to say when he mentioned it.

"You still have me." Chu Xu grasped his hand tightly, and said seriously: "You have mine."

"I know." The boy's tone was low, the same as usual: "I'm sleepy, go to sleep."

Chu Xu pursed his lips lightly and hummed.

After being with Chu Xu, Ranbai has not had the previous dream for a long time.

Perhaps today's scar was suddenly exposed in the dark, and that's why he dreamed about the past.

dreaming.

It's a long night, and I can't break free.

The man smelled of alcohol and had a hideous face.

Hit his head against the wall, beat him hard with a belt, and finally dragged him outside the door and made him kneel. It was winter, very cold, and his consciousness was dizzy, as if there was some viscous blood-red liquid It dripped down from his forehead, blurring his eyes, he wanted to open them, but he couldn't, his eyes were dark, he seemed to hear the neighbor's angry voice, and the man's high-pitched retort, and there seemed to be a woman in his memory Always hide in the corner and refuse to make a sound, fear and hatred.

From the very beginning, he hid in the corner in horror and watched Mu Ping go crazy, and then he was so numb that he got used to being dragged out by Mu Ping to beat him. Because he lost ten yuan, he would not be able to eat for a whole week and dare not tell Mu Ping. It's Mu Ping's venting, Jing Wei's anger, they are hysterically cursing you as a waste, why don't you die.

What was he thinking at the time.

Oh.

he was thinking,

Why is he not dead yet.

"Jing Bai? Jing Bai!"

He finally broke free from the nightmare.

The blurred vision gradually focused, and it was fixed between Chu Xu's eyebrows.

It's ridiculous to think about it.

But just one Mu Ping can become his nightmare until now.

"I had a dream." The young man frowned imperceptibly, and quickly returned to silence. He raised his hand to wipe the sweat from his forehead, and suddenly felt that it was somewhat similar to blood. : "I'm going to take a shower."

Chu Xu kept looking at him, and hummed lightly.

Ranbai went to the bathroom, and after taking a cold shower, his black hair was wet, and water droplets slid down Ling Ling's shoulder blades. He looked at the person in the mirror with bottomless eyes.

Jing Wei cut off contact.

Mu Ping can't control him.

everything is over.

he wants.

Born to Chu Xu.