Chapter 1114: The Road to Thanos (Part 2)

"Are you a coward?"? A beautiful girl stood behind me, she looked at me with mocking tone and eyes.

That was the first time I saw her, and I was shocked by her beauty. I don't know why there is such a beautiful girl in the world. The moment I saw him and heard what she said, I felt that I was insulted inexplicably. It wasn't until many years later that I realized that it was the feeling of not wanting to be underestimated by the woman I love.

When I was young, I stood up, puffed up my chest, and mustered up my courage: "No, I'm not a coward!" I shouted loudly, as if the louder the voice, the more courage it would give me.

The girl looked at me and smiled, she threw a knife at me: "Prove it to me."

I took the sharp knife at a loss: "What, what to prove? How to prove it?" I was a little bit confused.

"Aren't you very courageous? Don't you forget the giant lizards who slaughtered our companions? In front of you, they ate all our classmates. Prove it to me and ask our classmates to take revenge. Go Complete what they should accomplish." The girl turned her head and walked away gracefully, leaving me standing there holding the knife.

Inside the monitor lizard cave.

Layers upon layers of lizard carcasses. I came and I did it. I overwhelmed all the lizards with nerve anesthesia and killed them all.

Before that I hadn't even had the guts to dissect a small lizard on the planing table in a science lab. Every time I pick up a knife, or see the carcass of a dead animal, I feel a wave of nausea and panic.

But after I killed all these lizards today, I found that I didn't feel any discomfort. No, that's not accurate.

I actually found out after all the years I'd been on the planet, at school, what it felt like to be out of place with everyone else after I raised the butcher's knife and killed the first lizard.

That is I don't actually feel anything! I have no emotions, I don't feel any emotions. But I have the fear of losing my life, and when I raised the butcher knife to slaughter the first lizard, even this remaining fear disappeared from me. Maybe fear is the only thing that allows me to live normally and be like a normal person.

And now that I don't have any feelings anymore, I'm weird. But everyone thought I was normal, because I was able to dissect lizards in science class. And it can also write a high-scoring dissection report. I was twelve years old that year.

Others think I am normal, but I feel more and more abnormal. Because I don't have any emotional perception, I want to try to find something back, even if it is fear!

Because when I lose all emotion, my life becomes meaningless. I even felt that I should die immediately.

And at this time, that beautiful girl appeared again. I swear, I didn't see her in school. But she was wearing her school uniform.

I have been looking for her everywhere in school, but there is no news. Now she came up to me and said, "What is my little boy confused about?"

The moment I saw her, I suddenly regained a touch of emotion. I can feel the feeling of being alive.

"I don't feel anything anymore. I don't feel emotions. I want to feel something, but I can't feel anything."

"Maybe it's because you haven't grasped the true meaning of life yet?"

"Truth?"

"Yes, why not do some bigger scientific experiments? Dissect something more interesting?" The girl smiled charmingly.

At her urging, I dissected more and more animals, growing in size. I am looking for the true meaning of life. I desperately want to know the answer, because only in this way can I find the medicine for my liberation.

I began to realize slowly that I was a monster. I'm the only one in this world.

When I dissected the Mountain Ape Man, I still didn't get the answer. This is the closest thing to intelligent life that I know of. But where is the true meaning of life? Why can't I find it.

"Maybe we should change our target." The girl smiled, and she took me to a beautiful garden on the planet.

Two of my classmates are embracing behind a rock there.

"What are they doing? Are they behaving so intimately?" I wondered what the point was of a man and a woman hugging and exchanging saliva.

"That's love, my little boy." The pretty girl laughed at my ignorance.

"love?"

"Yes, this is the sweetest and most satisfying feeling in the world. With love, you can feel the whole world!" The girl's voice sounded in my ear.

I can't hold back my urge, I can't wait to get this feeling: "What do I do?"

The girl blinked her big sly eyes: "What do you think?"

So the first dissection class of intelligent creatures began. But unfortunately, I still haven't found that thing called love in the anatomy.

Where does this feeling come from? How is it formed? Why is it so pleasing to the eye?

The disappearance of my classmate caused some commotion at school. But no one thought that they were killed. Because there have been no murders on Titan for over a million years. Everyone has forgotten what murder is, and even the law doesn't say how it's dealt with.

And I am still living on this planet, no one knows what Thanos did. Everyone is looking for the missing classmate.

And at home, my mother, the mad mother, saw through me. She knows what I do.

She piqued my curiosity, and I am a monster, and I am now completely sure of it. But how on earth did she conceive a monster?

I also planed my mother on the planing table. But I still haven't found the answer I'm looking for.

I also know that I can't stay on Titan. I wanted to find that pretty girl to run away with me, but I couldn't find her.

So I could only seize a spaceship by myself and fly to the vast universe.

I started wandering in the universe, without a fixed place. Join a gang of space pirates and take it from here to there. Don't get me wrong, I'm not in charge of killing, I dissect a lot of creatures, but it's all for research purposes, I hate killing.

Then meet a woman, then fall in love (if that counts as love), then have children. Then I got bored very quickly, and then changed to another group of pirates, and then continued the previous cycle.

On and on, I'm looking for love, as if I ever had it. I'm looking for my feeling, but I can only keep getting lost.

Until one day, that beautiful girl appeared again.

PS: The growth path of Thanos is still very important. These stories are basically based on the official comic "The Rise of Thanos". But I believe that many book lovers will not read the original comics. So I'm still going to write this story.

Moreover, there are a lot of hidden things in the original comics. About Thanos losing all his feelings and not being able to feel emotions and other potential layers, the comics did not directly describe them. You need to read carefully to know, I can refine the key points in the comics.