Chapter 265 Regaining Consciousness

Countless broken shadows like eyeballs rolled together and condensed into the shape of a crow.

A hazy consciousness combined——

Who am I?

"Yao Yan?"

Why am I Yao Yan?

Because of memory?

What is memory? Is memory important?

Without this memory, can I be considered Yao Yan?

No, the most critical question is why it should be "Yao Yan"?

Is it important to be Yao Yan?

Well, no, the key should be "I am Yao Yan", "Yao Yan = me".

Is this based on the idea of ​​self-protection and self-positioning?

Because the organ used by humans for thinking is used to manage the body, because of such inertia, after having the so-called free will, or because of inertia, path dependence is formed?

From an external reason, those who do not take their own safety as the first priority will be eliminated.

So it is because of a sense of security?

In terms of reasons, physiologically, people will have a certain degree of vigilance against unknown things.

Because of a sense of security.

However, the core is actually that this person realizes that he "forgot something" and realizes that he "does not know".

For example, if people lose their memory, if they forget many things, including what they have forgotten, then the fear and anxiety that will arise in this matter will be less than the situation where they know.

Pursuing "who am I" is itself a human defect and a proof that humans are affected by the body.

However, when I think this way, is there a presupposition that "being affected by external objects is unsafe" and "may be harmful"?

What am I?

Why do I think I should continue to think?

Why should I think?

I feel afraid of stopping thinking because of a sense of security.

Is it a projection of "death"?

Is stopping thinking equivalent to stopping life?

The underlying logic comes from the body.

So, what should I do?

Continue thinking? Find the reason?

No, why should I look for the reason? Is the reason important?

No, why does the judgment of "important" exist?

Oh, I remember.

"I" should anchor a meaning of existence for "myself".

Without this meaning, "I" may give up everything, or lose the standard of choice and the ability to judge.

However, what is the meaning of the ability to judge?

Why would I think about this question?

Why ask why? Because of curiosity?

But "I" should not have such a thing as curiosity

The chaotic thoughts are intertwined with each other, as if the shadows of countless eyeballs are rolling to form a "crow", with the outlines scattered and reorganized, spreading and gathering.

Perhaps it was more than ten minutes, or more than ten days, or more than ten years, Yao Yan gradually "recovered" consciousness.

What caught his eyes was the calm water surface connected to the sky, with countless stars reflecting.

The gradually clear consciousness made Yao Yan silent for a moment.

So that's it.

He finally figured out a problem.

Why am I "so special".

Why do other "spiritual creatures" have their own desires or obsessions.

It's because the "spiritual creatures" without their own desires and obsessions may have disappeared.

Without "self" and the will to combine "self", the spirit cannot even condense.

Even if there is the ability to revive, it may not be carried out because of lack of motivation.

"It doesn't matter whether you live or die"

After losing motivation, you will be in such a mental state.

This is something that humans can easily understand, but it is also difficult to understand.

The former refers to understanding the reason, and the latter tends to mean "identification".

Humans can be deceived, which means that they can also mislead themselves and deceive themselves.

Looking at the water, he couldn't help but start to think about what he had encountered before.

Defects mean that it is easy to operate.

If you follow the 100% judgment basis completely, you need to be "exactly the same" to reach a judgment, then it will be very rigorous.

But this will also lose space and become rigid.

The advantage is accuracy, and the disadvantage is rigidity.

But. The word "rigid" itself carries a value judgment, a word with praise and criticism.

The praise and criticism are the simplest, easiest to judge and discover, but also the easiest to infect people.

This kind of description can make the target have judgments such as "being attacked" and "surrender".

As for why I think of these?

Because

"World Will".

Although he was almost killed, he also realized one thing -

Having thinking, but without a strict judgment mechanism, even if he weaves a strict defense for himself through knowledge and experience, he cannot avoid the risk of being fooled.

No, even if there is a strict judgment mechanism, he can be fooled, awakened, and used.

He has no so-called fear.

The memories inherited from his previous self and the three views and logic embedded in this set of memories tell him that "for safety", he needs to be "cautious" and need to be in awe or vigilance of the world.

But he doesn't need it.

Because "safety" is not important to him.

Death is not terrible.

Fear of death?

Yao Yan, in the crow posture, shook his head.

The driving force he gave himself was the "value sequence" he created for himself based on his memory.

In this value sequence, "safety" is placed first.

But in fact, this value sequence has an implicit premise-

He needs to determine that this value sequence is credible.

He must trust this value sequence before he can take safety as the core of his thinking according to the sequence.

However, his concept of the word "credible" is in a state of "distrust".

No, the description of "distrust" comes with a derogatory presupposition.

It's just that he is not sure how to describe this feeling.

"It doesn't matter"?

Maybe it can be described like this.

His thinking, his judgment, and all his actions require him to take the initiative.

Once he stops, he will be silent.

Unless there is an external force pushing him.

It is similar to the "world will".

That's not right, the world will is "awakened" by stimulation.

But, to be more precise, that world will wake up due to stimulation and perform "self-protection" behavior. This behavior close to "living things" is a "natural phenomenon".

In that world, this reaction close to living things has become a "natural law".

Using mechanical materials to replicate the structure of a living thing, it will act like a living thing, so is it a "living thing"?

Looking at the water surface and the starry sky, Yao Yan's thoughts floated quickly, thinking about the various gaps that can be operated behind this simple question.

In that world, there is a link of "judgment".

There are standards and judgments, so

can be fooled and used.

Moreover, there is another place.

"Have all the spiritual creatures that have no self-awareness and no motivation and have fallen into "silence" been "dead"? "

If not all died

ps: I played games until noon, slept until midnight, got up and ate, watched videos, and typed for three hours.

It would be great if I could accurately control my attention.

If humans can accurately control their bodies or something, this kind of thinking is also a commonplace fantasy setting.