251, Zombie Queen 16
Mother Tan smiled slightly, calmly and peacefully, "It's okay now. When I cried at that time, you all comforted me. I can see that you are worried, and because of my mood, everyone in the family was depressed, and the atmosphere was quite depressed. , even Xuanxuan didn’t dare to laugh and make trouble. I didn’t want to affect everyone in this way, so I pretended that nothing was wrong, went shopping and watched TV every day, laughed and cried with the TV, and tried my best to vent my emotions, so that I could When you get along, it's as if nothing happened. Occasionally, when I'm alone in the room, I'll think of her and remember every bit of our relationship, and I can't help but cry for a long time. But I just want to bear this pain alone and don't want to bring it to me. family."
"I thought I could laugh along with the TV and let go gradually, but I always couldn't help but think, if I forget about her and others forget about her and start a new life, who will remember her? Where is she? That was the first time I realized deeply that when one person dies, nothing will be left. I would think, what if something happens to me one day? I am immersed in grief, but ten or twenty years later, will you still grieve for me? You will also have a new life of your own. I will only be slowly forgotten and buried in the depths of your memories. Husband. There will be a new wife and daughter who will eventually grow up and leave her parents to live her own life. Then...what is the purpose of my life? Even if it is for myself, what is the point of not taking it with me in life? , in the end, when I died, there was no difference between anything and nothing.”
"I didn't want to work at that time. I felt that life was unpredictable. Maybe I would die in an accident tomorrow. I might as well spend my time enjoying life. There was no need for a busy job, and my family was not short of money. Why not be happy? How about playing around? But I feel uneasy because in everyone's opinion, this is a waste of life. I can't find the meaning of life and can't find the motivation to work hard. I feel very confused and unhappy every day. My body was weakened, I had no strength, and I was not interested in anything. I tried to persuade myself that life was about the process rather than the result, but I couldn't persuade myself. I couldn't get rid of that state. It was then that I realized that I might have it. depression."
Su Yuanyuan hugged her tightly and typed on her mobile phone: Mom, stop talking, stop talking about these unhappy things, I don't want to reveal your scars, I'm sorry.
Tan's mother smiled and gently touched her hair, "It doesn't matter, many years have passed and my mother has come out. Looking back now, in fact, it was just an experience in my life. During that time, I was very Sad, but it was also the sadness at that time that made me think about a lot of things and cherish life more.”
"Mom tells you these things in the hope that you can get some inspiration, which may make your mental journey less detours and barriers. Ever since my mother knew that she had depression, she began to actively search for relevant information. , find a psychiatrist, and work hard to treat myself. I don’t know what the meaning of life is, but I know that others will not commit suicide because their friends die. This is wrong, and I should treat it during the treatment. , I discovered a lot of beauty.”
"My husband will chat with me thoughtfully after get off work, and will take time to go shopping with me without complaining for as long as I go shopping. My parents-in-law will consider my mood and care about my appetite for food. Every day I can Feel their kindness. My daughter will act coquettishly towards me, call me mommy sweetly, look at me with trust, and regard me as her protector, even when I am not around. When I noticed, I was already old and needed to be filial and taken care of. Even the work that I haven’t touched for a long time makes me unable to let it go. I always want to do something. "
"There are so many things that I can't let go of, so I think I might as well not let them go. Although people will eventually die, since they are still alive, they must live happily until the day they die, otherwise they will really be wasting their time. From now on. After that, I realized that the meaning of life is to make myself happy and comfortable. If anything makes me uncomfortable, I should find a solution. After solving it, I would live a comfortable life again. Living in a world of two, I like to watch my daughter grow up little by little, I like to be filial to the elderly and see them happy and happy, and I like the sense of accomplishment after the work is completed. I like so many things and have so much happiness, so that should be what I pursue. hapiness."
Tan's father came over and hugged Tan's mother, and whispered: "I'm sorry, I didn't accompany you well at that time. Fortunately, you came out."
Tan's mother patted his back, "You have to figure this kind of thing out on your own. You drinking tea and chatting with me every day after work is the best companion. If you didn't make me feel the warmth around me, I would How could I come out of this so quickly? The psychiatrist said that I recovered quickly and was in good condition. Maybe it was because my illness was not too serious. After all, I have always had you by my side."
"Well, we will always be together from now on. Even if it's the end of the world, it won't be a big deal. As long as there are people around you who want to protect you, you can live well." Tan's father looked at Su Yuanyuan and said, "Your mother is here When I didn’t find you, I thought about the meaning of life. I felt the same way. I can understand her feelings. You are our only daughter and the continuation of our lives. When we can’t find you, our hearts are cut with knives every day. I couldn't sleep or eat. Sometimes when I saw those monsters, I even thought it would be better to die, so that I wouldn't have to suffer. But this feeling didn't last long. We always believed that we could find you, and we still had to take care of you. Elderly people, they are the parents who gave birth to us and are our closest relatives, so we must protect them.”
Grandma nodded, "Yes, I saw some old people committing suicide out of fear of dragging down their children. I don't think so. I think this end of the world is already very desperate. If we commit suicide out of fear of dragging down our children, we will have nothing. I know, but what about the living children? People like Wan Kun probably wish that we died as soon as possible, but people like your parents will only blame themselves for not being strong enough and suffer from the loss of their parents. The world is more desperate. So sometimes, life and death are not viewed in this way. It is not about whether it is meaningful or useful. We humans have feelings. When our family is reunited, we will feel very happy and full of hope for survival. This is it. OK."
Grandpa is already seventy years old. He said: "In this life, when you are hungry, you want to fill your stomach. When you are full, you want to make more money. After you have earned money, you want to have a good family. A good family hopes that their children and grandchildren will prosper, and when their children and grandchildren prosper, they also hope that the four generations will live together. In short, people will always have new goals, and there is no need to worry about losing direction, and there is no need to think too much about the future. There is a saying that 'the plan does not change. Come on, think about it, do many planned things always go wrong in the end?”
"So what are we thinking about in the long run? Now when we encounter zombies, we just think about how to defeat them. Don't think about how people with superpowers will get along with ordinary people after the zombies are extinct. When that time comes, we will solve the gap between people with superpowers and ordinary people. Don't think about whether there will be a national war when the gap is resolved. The road must be walked step by step. Don't think about the meaning of running a 100-meter race until you learn to walk. When you reach that stage, people will naturally have new ideas about life. The meaning is to focus on the present and do the things you like right now. Before you know it, you will find that you have been focused and happy for a lifetime. "
Grandma patted his arm and said with a smile: "I didn't expect you to say such philosophical words."
"That is, how many ups and downs have I experienced in my life? I have already looked away from what you are talking about. You said that when I was hungry when I was a child, could I have imagined that I would be chased and bitten by zombies now? I am in the mall At that time, could you imagine that all the money in this world has turned into waste paper? There are too many changes in life, and it is useless to think too much. Just adapt to the new environment and do whatever you want. If you don’t hurt innocent people, don’t think about whether you should do it or not. Live happily and you won’t lose anything as long as you live.”
Grandpa spoke very boldly, and Su Yuanyuan seemed to be able to relate his life from his words. Yes, grandpa is one of the best in the business world. Now let alone doing business, the industry has turned into a bubble, and he has to flee for life and death. For grandpa, doesn't it mean that his whole life's foundation has been destroyed in one fell swoop? What's the difference between this and her transformation from a seven-tailed demon into a little zombie? They are all lost things that have been worked hard for for a long time. But my grandpa has a good mentality. He has been working hard to practice marksmanship and sword skills. He occasionally kills a few zombies to practice his skills at his age, and learns the skills to protect himself. This is grandpa adapting to the new environment!
Su Yuanyuan seemed to see herself and understand the process of her struggle from Tan's mother's insights. In her grandfather's words, she seemed to see a guiding light and find the path she should take. In fact, when my grandpa was a child, there was a three-year famine and the college entrance examination was stopped. Everything was owned by the public and private ownership was not allowed. Can we see the future at that time? At that time, many people were in despair, living in despair and numbness. But after they survived, they welcomed the spring breeze of national reform. Hope always comes unconsciously, and only when you are alive can you have hope and have new and interesting experiences. No matter when you die, it will really be over and gone.
Su Yuanyuan's mind suddenly became clear and enlightened. She sat cross-legged, closed her eyes, and took out all the crystal nuclei in the space and piled them in front of her. Suddenly, her mental power suddenly broke through the barrier and reached the peak level seven, and her spatial abilities also directly rose to the mid-level six. More than half of the crystal core pile was consumed, and all of it was replenished with the spiritual energy needed for upgrading. She felt that the boulder that had been weighing on her heart during this period was lifted, and her whole body felt relaxed.
Su Yuanyuan slowly opened her eyes and saw the four elders with worried faces. She smiled with relief and said, "Grandpa, grandma, mom and dad, thank you for your patience in teaching me. It's great to have you." Su, who was promoted to level seven Yuanyuan was finally able to speak, and everyone fell into ecstasy.
The author has something to say: Introduction to my new article "You Miss Me in Your Life [Quick Travel]":
By chance, Xu Zifan became a plane messenger, and his duty was to go to various worlds to save miserable people.
"Are you unhappy? That's because - you are missing me in your life."