$250, Zombie Queen 15

Father Tan and Mother Tan spent another two days to get information and got a general understanding of the situation of the Y City base. At the same time, someone noticed them. Everyone saw Su Yuanyuan showing off her skills at the market that day. Later, Wan Kun pestered the old man and Mother Tan beat him up twice. It was obvious that they were all experts. They had been here for a few days and had been getting information, so they naturally attracted attention.

Father Tan keenly noticed that the superiors had sent people to keep an eye on them. He went home and drank a few sips of tea and said, "It's almost done. Let's go."

Mother Tan nodded, "The strong are respected in this base. We have aroused the fear of the superiors in the past few days. They may think we want to seize power. And Wan Kun is becoming more and more shameless. Let's go quickly."

"I just went to the mission hall. There is a mission to clear the supermarket. We can take the mission and go out directly when the time comes." Father Tan looked at grandpa and grandma and said, "Just say that we are afraid that the elderly will be entangled by Wan Kun if they stay at home, so we have to take them with us on the mission. It should be no problem."

"Yes, the superiors are just afraid of us. It won't be a problem for us to go out. Let's do it."

Su Yuanyuan and grandpa and grandma both agreed. Thinking of Wan Kun's appearance, the two old people couldn't help sighing. He looked listless these days. They were not soft-hearted, but blamed themselves. They felt that they were busy with business when they were young and neglected to discipline their son. Otherwise, how could Wan Kun become such a person? Su Yuanyuan persuaded them several times but it was useless, and she also felt that they should leave quickly. Wan Kun was sorry for the two elders. Even a tiger will not eat its own cubs. No matter how much the two elders hated him, they would never want their son to die. So Su Yuanyuan ignored Wan Kun. She actually felt that it was more painful for Wan Kun to live like this.

After the family discussed the itinerary, they went back to their rooms to rest. The next morning, they received the mission and left the base with the prepared excuse. Su Yuanyuan heard someone muttering in a low voice, saying that they were stupid and brought two burdens with them on the mission. She suddenly had an indescribable feeling in her heart. These people are also human beings, why can't they see others doing well? The end of the world is terrifying, but why can they abandon the elderly and children with peace of mind? Is there still humanity? They are too indifferent to the people around them, not as good as her, a demon.

So what is a human? What is a demon? What is a zombie? What is an insect race? She has done so many things to help humans, but why do humans kill each other? They are full of malice towards their own kind, why should she, a demon, help them?

Mr. Tan drove very slowly on purpose, falling to the end of the team, and then turned quickly at an intersection and drove towards Yanjing. Su Yuanyuan saw the zombies on the road through the window. She used her mental power to disperse them and clear the way for the car. Suddenly, she saw a wounded level 4 zombie jump out of the woods next to her. It grabbed a level 2 zombie and took out the crystal core and stuffed it into its mouth, and then fought with a level 3 zombie.

The car drove past, and Su Yuanyuan moved to the back window to watch them. Not long after, the level 4 zombie won. It ate the crystal core of the level 3 zombie and repaired its body a lot. Su Yuanyuan's feelings became more complicated. Zombies do not have the complicated seven emotions and six desires of humans. They have only one obsession, which is to become stronger.

Eating human flesh and blood is to become stronger, and eating the crystal core of the same kind is also to become stronger. They do not distinguish between right and wrong, good and evil. They just keep getting stronger instinctively. They do whatever can make them stronger, and they don't care about anything else. Even the zombie siege is just the psychic zombies controlling other zombies to attack the enemy, in order to obtain more superpower crystal cores to upgrade themselves, and to eliminate superpower enemies to make themselves safer, not to protect their own race, zombies don't have such ideas.

What is the point of getting stronger like this? Maybe the zombies themselves don't know what the point is, they are just such a species, born like this. Like female mantises eating male mantises, hamsters eating their babies, elephants raping rhinos, moths flying into fire, whales stranded, cattle and horses jumping off cliffs, etc., no matter why they do these actions, they really do it, this is the nature given to them by their race.

What about monsters? Most monsters want to become stronger, only a small number of monsters are content with the status quo, but all monsters will turn themselves into human form when they transform, they are full of curiosity about the human world, and especially want to live with humans. Some monsters are cruel by nature, they will attack humans and treat humans as slaves, but they will still transform themselves into human form. Monsters seem to be the only race among so many races that have seven emotions and six desires like humans, but some are proud of their powerful magic power, and some are inferior because they are monsters, not humans. In the end, their endings are not very good. This blind pursuit of going to the human world is really inexplicable.

Su Yuanyuan thought of herself. Wasn't she full of curiosity about the human world at first and always wanted to experience all kinds of life? In the past thousands of years, she has experienced many kinds of life in the human world. She has seen good people, bad people, and people who are neither good nor bad. She has also come into contact with all kinds of dog-blooded things, and even helped humans accomplish many great things in various worlds. She has always been very happy, but what is she pursuing? Day after day, year after year, is she pursuing cultivation to become an immortal? What about after becoming an immortal?

Ancient people developed into people of the Republic of China and then into modern people, and even interstellar people. There are too many changes, but human nature is still the same human nature. Interstellar is much more advanced than everything in primitive society, but isn't the way people get along with each other still the same? Even if she works hard to become an immortal and goes to the fairyland, living among the immortal group, isn't it also the same as getting along with people? What's the difference? So what is she pursuing?

She doesn't believe in the nonsense that immortals have no desires and desires. A perfectly good person with all kinds of emotions and desires will have no desires and desires after becoming an immortal? If seeing through the mortal world and suddenly awakening is true, then what are these immortals doing in the fairy world? If you have no desires and no demands, don’t you want to do nothing? If they are put in charge of something, why should they be in charge? They have no desires and desires, so why do they do these things? Once people lose their pursuit and direction, they will lose motivation and vitality. She never believes that immortals do not have emotions and desires.

But it seems that she only has this option. If she doesn't leave, what will she do?

Mother Tan made tea for the two old people. She turned around and saw Su Yuanyuan frowning as if she couldn't figure something out, so she sat over and asked, "What are you thinking about? What's wrong?"

Su Yuanyuan glanced at her and typed for her on her mobile phone: Mom, the world has become so dangerous and terrifying, what is your pursuit? You say that everyone will die sooner or later. Why is it so difficult and desperate to live in the last days?

Mother Tan looked startled, then smiled softly and hugged Su Yuanyuan's shoulders, "So you are thinking about this. Mom has also thought about this problem. When I was fifteen years old, I thought about why I should live. I thought about it again when I was thirty, and I thought about it a while ago when I couldn’t find you.”

Su Yuanyuan raised her head in surprise. She had the impression that Mama Tan had always been a very gentle and kind-hearted woman, a good daughter, a good wife, a good mother, and a good daughter-in-law. She didn't expect that Mama Tan would think of this kind of thing three times, but why? Hasn't she always lived a good life?

Tan's mother smiled and said, "Actually, it's not just me who has thought about it. Your father, your grandparents and your grandparents may have thought about it."

Tan's father and grandpa and grandma, who heard them talking in front, all responded and admitted that they had thought about this problem. Su Yuanyuan was even more confused. Is this a question that everyone thinks about? So how did they figure it out? Have they all found the pursuit and meaning of life? But...life passes by in a hurry for decades, isn’t it time to die in the end? Like she lived for more than 400 years in the last world, didn't she die in the end? The achievements she has made have only benefited others. If fame, fortune and wealth are not brought with her in life or death, what is the use? Although they fed her a lot of faith power to help her practice, she had worked so hard to reach the Seven-Tails, but wasn't she almost killed by the Heavenly Dao? Tiandao threw her here as a zombie. She struggled hard to survive and practiced hard. What if she practiced to the point where the Eight-Tails was hacked to death by Tiandao? Even if you don't kill him, the cycle will still be like this next time. What's the point?

Mother Tan saw her confusion and doubts, and her heart softened. She held Su Yuanyuan in her arms and said softly: "Don't be afraid, life is sacred and wonderful, and everyone can't help but explore its existence." Meaning, mom doesn’t know what others think, but I can share my secret with you. Mom has never told anyone else about these things.”

Tan's mother smiled and said: "When I was fifteen years old, my mother once again ranked first in the exam. My parents, relatives, teachers and friends praised me when they saw me. But I have heard this kind of praise for many years and I don't feel anything at all. I I saw some students in the class who did not do well in the exam ran out to play wildly after class and did not care about the teacher's criticism or their own grades. I was curious, why didn't they study hard? "

"Later, I began to observe all my classmates, and I found that everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses, and what they are good at. No matter whether their studies are good or bad, they all have happiness and troubles. Then I began to observe teachers, Bodyguards, drivers, and all the workers I could come into contact with, I saw them working day after day. No matter how much they earned, the work was not decent, and they all had their moments of happiness and trouble. I suddenly felt a little confused and tried hard. What’s the difference between not working hard? Every family has its own problems, and everyone will be unhappy sometimes, so why do I work so hard?”

"At that time, I deliberately wrote a few wrong questions during the exam, and I got fifth in the grade. I thought I would be scolded when I got home, but it turned out that your grandparents didn't care about it at all, and even cooked a table of delicious food. Comfort me. My teachers and classmates also comforted me by saying that it was just a one-time misperformance, and it didn’t matter. I was even more confused. No one cared about whether I did well or not. Why should I do well in the exam? I was just a student at that time. I was confused and felt that there was no point in anything I did. For the first time, I felt that there was no point in living. What was the point of studying hard, working hard, running a family, traveling around after retirement, and then dying? "

This was the first time that grandma knew that her daughter had so many thoughts when she was fifteen years old. She couldn't help but look back and asked: "No wonder you didn't like to talk during that time. I thought you were unhappy because you didn't do well in the exam. What did you think about it later?" Passed?”

Mother Tan smiled and shook her head, "It's not like I figured it out. I just woke up one morning and saw the trees in the yard blooming. They were very beautiful. Suddenly I thought why am I so boring when I am living so happily? , What are you thinking about? It’s like I thought of this problem inexplicably, got into trouble, and suddenly felt relieved, and didn’t care about it at all. I just returned to normal, studied hard, and got first place in the exam. I already liked it. Studying is also very easy, and I go to and from school happily without being affected at all.”

Tan's father couldn't help but ask: "Then why did you think about this when you were thirty? We were doing well at that time. Our work was smooth, our parents were open-minded, and our daughter was cute and well-behaved. Why do you want this?"

Su Yuanyuan heard some nervousness in Mr. Tan's voice and laughed. Generally, thinking about these things is because life is not going well. Is Dad worried that he did not do something well in the past? She knew that her mother felt that life was meaningless when she was a child. She felt much more relaxed and felt that it was not difficult to accept that she was thinking about these things. Maybe everyone would think about it. She looked at Mother Tan. She also wanted to know why her mother thought about this when she was 30 years old.

Mother Tan narrowed her eyes, leaned on the car seat, and sighed: "That year, a good friend of mine died in a car accident."

Su Yuanyuan was stunned. She didn't expect it was because of this. Mother Tan looked at the roof of the car and said, "I was chatting with her on WeChat the day before, and we agreed to go shopping together when she came back from her trip, and to try the newly opened French restaurant to see if it was delicious. But I received the news of her death so suddenly. I was immersed in that repressed and sad mood for a long time, almost a year and a half."

Father Tan was surprised and said, "How could it be? I remember you cried many times, but you returned to normal after a month or two. You... I'm sorry, I didn't notice..."

Father Tan stopped the car and looked back at Mother Tan with self-blame in his eyes. Grandpa and grandma also looked at him worriedly. It took a year and a half to get out of it, that's already depression.

Author has something to say:　　My new article "You Miss Me in Your Life [Quick Transmigration]" Introduction:

Xu Zifan became a plane messenger by chance, and his duty is to go to various worlds to save miserable people.

"Are you unhappy? That's because - you miss me in your life."