Chapter 529 Liu Yanmin’s Decision

(Yixiao will still try to update 3 times this month. At the last hour last month, the monthly ticket was exceeded by someone behind me. To be honest, I feel very unhappy. I have written books for four years and I have been busy writing them all. I have nothing to say. But if I want to compete for this monthly voting list for the supernatural genre, I will compete for this month. I want monthly votes this month, and I beg everyone to vote for the country. Please support me, friends.)

As the saying goes, if there is a first time, the second time is inevitable. If there is a second time, then it will be natural.

Xia Qi had always had a taut string and an unwavering principle standing there, but as he ate the fat man and the monkey one after another, it could be said that his principle had been completely destroyed by himself.

Although he does not regret doing this, his desire for blood and human flesh and blood has become his "drug addiction" and has been bothering him these days.

In the past, when he was hungry, he would eat two apples and two bites of tomatoes. Even though they were not as good as big fish or meat, they at least tasted somewhat delicious, so that they would not be the same as now. Not only was his mouth dry, but his heart was also very of resistance.

Resistance, to put it bluntly, means that he is no longer willing to accept the status quo of vegetarianism in his heart, or in other words, he can no longer resist the desire to eat human flesh and blood through willpower alone.

If this was just a mental need, then he could still suppress it with his own perseverance, but in fact this was no longer a mental problem, but a problem related to his body.

Since swallowing the monkey and the fat man, he has obviously felt that his strength has increased a lot, and the ghost energy reserves in his body have also increased to a certain extent.

This undoubtedly shows that devouring flesh and blood has greatly promoted his strength. If this continues, he will not even need honor points to complete his own strengthening.

There are huge benefits here, but the disadvantages are equally obvious.

Because he continued to suppress that desire, he still insisted on eating tomatoes and apples every day. However, he felt that his physical strength had dropped significantly in the past few days, and he was out of breath even after walking a few steps.

I feel listless day by day, so sleepy that I can't even open my eyes. It's really like quitting drugs. Not only am I tortured mentally, but I'm also severely conflicted physically.

If they were monkeys and they encountered his situation, then all the problems would not be a problem. After all, three-legged toads are hard to find, but the world is full of two-legged humans, so if you want to solve this problem, catch a few Just eat it personally.

But Xia Qi is not like monkeys. They are not the kind who will kill innocent people by any means necessary to make themselves stronger or to satisfy their own desires.

His body has become less like a human being. If even his behavior and thoughts have become less like a human being, then what is the difference between him and ghosts, and between him and those sinister scum like monkeys?

This can be said to be his moral bottom line. He cannot cross this line, but this line is closing in on him step by step.

This is no longer a question of whether he can control it, because he found that every time he encountered danger, this desire to kill would become stronger, even reaching the point of controlling his body.

So he is now very afraid of facing this reality, and cannot accept it at all, so he has been in a strong struggle recently and is unable to extricate himself.

Putting the remaining cigarette butt into the ashtray, Xia Qi sighed with a headache, looked at the gray sky outside the window, and explained to himself:

"Just take it one step at a time, otherwise... so what?"

Xia Qi has Xia Qi's worries, and Liu Yanmin also has worries that he can't get around.

Except for today in the mall, when he coyly said something from his heart to Leng Yue and Xia Qi, at other times, he didn't mention anything about what happened last time.

It's not that he felt that the last incident had no impact on him, and that it would be fine if he was simply rescued, but that he felt that he had no face to talk to Xia Qi and the others about what happened last time.

Because in retrospect, his role in it was really embarrassing.

Everyone was fine, but he was taken away. If they hadn't been lucky enough, then Leng Yue and the others would have died because of his incompetence.

Zhao Jingshu used magic potion to restore his injuries, but the monkey attacked him. He almost didn't have a chance to resist, and was seriously injured by the monkey. If Xia Qi hadn't come to the rescue in time, Zhao Jingshu would have died tragically in front of him. maybe.

It can be said that he and Xia Qi are the first to know each other among these people except Leng Yue. I think Xia Qi was protected by him back then, and he was still one of the indispensable combat forces among everyone.

But what now? As a ghost, he can't be a vanguard or an auxiliary, and his mind is very average. He can be said to be incompetent at everything. Apart from complaining and complaining about Xia Qi to gain some sense of existence, he is no longer among the crowd. There is room for existence.

In other words, he could no longer find his value among others.

In a team, if even the minimum value is lost, then what's the point of continuing to stay?

Although Xia Qi and the others don't think he is a burden, they treat him and Liu Yanmin as friends, and everyone will help him whenever he is in trouble, but is this meaningful to him?

Ah, it turns out that Liu Yanmin and his only value in this small team is to cause trouble for others? The only value is to be responsible for holding others back?

Maybe someone else would think it doesn't matter and wouldn't think as much as he does, but he is not someone else, he is Liu Yanmin, a dignified and principled person.

He is now like a bear, and although he is very close to being able to completely transform into a demon, he is still very weak compared to others.

Of course, maybe he is a little stronger than Zhao Jingshu, but what is Zhao Jingshu? She is an auxiliary profession, she is an enchanter. Her own strength may be weaker than him, but the role she can play in the team is absolutely Much stronger than him.

He is incomparable to Zhao Jingshu, let alone others.

What if the same thing happens again? Is he still hopeless and waiting for everyone to try their best to save him? Or do you think of a way to directly end your own life?

Liu Yanmin's family is gone, and his lover is gone too. After finally making a group of friends, is he going to trick them to death?

Do they still have to pay for their own weakness?

Maybe his thoughts may seem pretentious to others, and there is absolutely no need to think so, but again, he has his dignity and his bottom line, which has nothing to do with how other people see him, think about him, or It doesn't matter whether you care or not.

It was he who felt that he had lost the value of continuing to exist in this team.

Therefore, instead of relying on him for stability like a dog, it is better to choose to leave alone, leave the protection of everyone, leave this gentle land, and do everything he can to train himself and improve himself until he finds the value of his existence again.