Written at the Time when the Average Order Exceeded 3,000 and the Collection Exceeded 100,000

Brothers are very concerned, there are many posts in the book review area asking, let's talk about it here. Last night, the collection of the book exceeded 100,000, and this morning, it was more than 3,000. It is estimated that there will be a boutique badge next Monday.

This kind of thing should be happy no matter what, but I can't be happy anyway, and my heart is a little bitter.

At the beginning of the month, the new version held a monthly ticket red envelope activity. I originally planned to invest thousands of dollars in it to try it out, but after it started, it was like a gambler who entered a casino to gamble. There was no way to stop. Start with one thousand or two thousand Recharge, then hundreds of hundreds of recharges, and then two hundred, one hundred recharges.

As soon as you see the red envelope has been received, you will immediately continue to recharge and send out the red envelope numbly, not daring to think about how much money you have recharged, nor what the result will be. After the money in Alipay’s Huabei was used up, they withdrew the money in Yu’ebao. After seven days, it was only discovered at the settlement that the two accounts had a total of 17,455 yuan recharged, and all of them were paid out. .

The sixth place in the monthly ticket list finally got the result of today's average booking of 3,000.

This month's manuscript fee must be unpaid. Such a large investment means that Lao Mo has worked hard for a whole month to code the characters without a penny of income. He is just betting on an uncertain future.

What will happen in the future, I don't know.

I don't know if it will be like the original "Sarcasm", the manuscript fee won can't even make up for the money invested. It's really ironic to pay thousands of dollars for writing for nothing for a few months.

These days, I always wake up inexplicably when I sleep, regretting my impulsiveness at the beginning of the month, worrying that the bamboo basket will be empty, and when I am awake during the day, I scold myself that I should not regret what I have done, and force myself to calm down and type.

Lao Mo has been writing books for nearly nine years and has achieved nothing. Now that he is old and his health is not good, he is afraid that his kidney failure will continue to worsen. One day he will not be able to continue to write. This book is also the last gamble, and I want to gamble even if I gamble my entire fortune.

Lao Mo is a very eccentric person with a very high IQ, reaching over 140, but his EQ is extremely low, and he has no friends in real life (don’t believe it, he really doesn’t have any friends). When I was angry, I couldn't control my emotions, and my temper was extremely violent. I didn't have a good relationship with my colleagues when I was working, and I was kicked out of several places.

My wife often tells me that no one can stand my bad temper and no one wants to live with me except her.

She was right.

I don’t even have a single friend now. In the eyes of other writers, I’m a clown, an oddball, and a very annoying person. Every time I’m mentioned, I’m all kinds of bad words and insults. .

But I don't care about that.

Because my whole life is a failure, there are many people who hate me, and I don't care about those few.

I just continued my struggle, I wanted to write to make money, I wanted to make a lot of money, I wanted to go home and tell my seventy-year-old parents that your son is not the mess and nothing you imagined, I I want to drive a luxury car to my mother-in-law's house in a splendid manner, and throw a red envelope worth tens of thousands of dollars to each of those tongue-tabbing relatives, so that the father-in-law and mother-in-law no longer feel the same when they talk about the man their daughter married. shame.

It was a dream, a dream that would never come true.

But I am still struggling for this dream, maybe these struggles are in vain, maybe until the day I die, I will not be able to get ahead and have the scenery I want.

But I'm still struggling.

As long as I don't die, I will continue to struggle.

These years, thanks to your company, I can persevere. Even if the whole world abandons me, you are still like my wife, never leave me, and tolerate my irritability, my nagging, Tolerating my irresponsibility, my fragility, and all my shortcomings has always given me encouragement and support, so that I can continue to struggle and continue to dream until today.

thank you!

... (to be continued ~^~)