Chapter 99: Looking Through the Mirror, Finding Yourself

The memories that have been stripped away and forgotten are like fragments of reality. When they are put together like a puzzle, people regain their former self and feeling of being alive.

The chaotic consciousness and perception gradually recovered, became sharp and lived truly, and once again tasted the bitterness and sweetness of being a human being.

"Hey~ lovely Kosmo, you finally woke up. Did you have a nightmare?"

A lively, sweet voice came to his ears, and Kosmo could hear a hint of worry in the voice of the speaker.

In front of him was an environment that was both unfamiliar and familiar. He often came here to be studied, but he never liked it here.

Here is Mebius's laboratory, a place full of coldness and pain.

The concentration of Honkai energy in the air is very high, and it is impossible for ordinary people to survive in this environment.

"Speak! Do you still remember who I am? Do you still remember who you are?" Alicia stretched out her hand and waved it in front of Kosmo's eyes.

Kosmo came to his senses, sat up from the operating table, rubbed his painful forehead, and said, "Well, I'm sorry, I had a particularly long nightmare."

His hair was a little long, and it seemed that he hadn't taken care of it for a long time. His bangs reached the tip of his nose, which somewhat affected his vision.

"It's so pitiful. I hate nightmares the most."

Alicia didn't mind it either. She took out a wooden comb from somewhere, combed Kosmo's hair, and touched the corner of his head.

It still feels familiar, which is really nice.

It would be better if not.

"What time is it now and how many days have I been sleeping?" Kosmo didn't like close contact with girls.

But it doesn't matter now.

"Five days! You slept for five whole days, that's really amazing!" Alicia said with a smile.

Kosmo didn't quite understand. What's so big about this?

Although he was comatose for 5 days, except for the headache, he felt no other physical discomfort, let alone weakness.

"Oh, why don't you just smile with a straight face? Mebius said the experiment was a success!"

Alicia thought for a while and continued: "However, I don't like that experiment very much, even though it was a choice you made. Although the "backup" installed in your mind by Mebius can keep you going for a long time, Maintain yourself through the years, and even find yourself when you are lost. However, the longer you live and the more things you experience, the more "backups" you will have, and the more pressure and pain your spirit will have to endure. Big... This is so cruel, it makes me sick just thinking about it. "

"There's nothing we can do about it." Kosmo didn't seem to like talking about himself. He rubbed his forehead, thought for a moment, and then changed the topic, "The Herrscher of the End...is it confirmed?"

"How can such a thing be confirmed?" Alicia blinked and said, "However, there is one candidate, Yan. She was selected by Wutong."

"Yan?"

Kosmo frowned. If his memory was correct, he should have never heard of this strange name.

Alicia saw Kosmo's confusion and explained: "How about the name I just gave her? Does it sound good? Only you know it now, are you happy? She is a very cute little girl, He has white hair and blue eyes, which looks a lot like Kevin."

"..."

After a moment of silence, Kosmo nodded slightly, his movements not very obvious. He probably knew who it was. It might be one of the "replicas" of Kevin's "replica".

"I thought you would become the Herrscher of the End." Kosma said calmly.

"I want to too!" Alicia put away the wooden comb, put her hands behind her back, and walked around in a circle, "And I also feel that I look like the Herrscher of the End, what do you think?"

"..."

Kosmo said nothing, thinking about something.

"Hey...it's a pity that the little cutie Wutong doesn't agree to let me be the one, so I have to obey~ After all, I am a considerate girl!"

Alicia didn't say a word. She and Aponya needed to do another more important thing respectively, so she couldn't become the Will of the Collapse or the Herrscher of the End.

"Wutong?" Kosmo raised his eyebrows slightly and asked, "Has he climbed to such a high position?"

He still remembered the first time he met Wutong. He was an ordinary person very similar to him. Apart from not being able to smile and having great talent, his usual performance was mediocre.

As a scientific researcher for Fire Chaser, Wutong is basically qualified, but not outstanding. With his methods, he should become a politician. Well... Wutong may be a politician now.

"Oh, it doesn't matter where you are. Well... it does have a little bit to do with it, but the main thing is... there aren't many humans left now, so everyone's opinions and emotions need to be taken into account, including yours. .”

"..."

After a moment, Kosmo asked: "Where is the end?"

"Don't call her Ji Yan, call her 'Yan'! She has not become the Herrscher of Ji Yan yet! She may not become the Herrscher of Ji Yan in the future." Alicia shook her index finger and said, "She naturally It’s in Wutong’s laboratory.”

"..."

Cosmo wanted to say that the girl might not like the name "Yan", but he didn't say it.

"Wutong...want to do something to her body?"

"Then I don't know." Alicia smiled, "But don't worry, Wutong is a good child and will not bully her, and there is a lovely Lin here, Yan

Their life may be better than ours! Oh, by the way, do you know who Lin is? "

"..."

Kosmo didn't know, nor was he curious, and he wasn't worried at all whether that "Yan" would be bullied by Wutong. Instead of being worried, he was more nervous and...a little afraid.

Humanity has nothing to lose. If we lose more...

Thinking of this, Kosmo raised his head and looked at the pink-haired girl in front of him with complex eyes.

After a long time, while Alicia was chattering "to herself", Kosma finally plucked up the courage and said, "When will the Thirteenth Herrscher come?"

Alicia's voice paused, and then she smiled: "Oh? You guessed it? Who told you? Don't say it! Let me guess... um... it's Mebius, right?"

"..."

"It's the day after tomorrow. I've decided it will be the day after tomorrow. Will you come to a dinner party tomorrow?"

"...Is it necessary?" Kosmo asked puzzled, "Who are you performing a play for? There is no audience."

"If there's no audience, just show it to Wutong and Honkai Impact. Oh, and you guys, there will always be an audience." Alicia didn't seem to mind her future.

"Is this also his plan? Or is it Dr. Mei's?"

"This is my own plan. I changed my original plan. Beautiful girls should be able to be willful once in a while, right? Don't be angry, just this once."

Alicia closed one eye, stretched out an index finger and put it in front of her lips, making a playful expression.

"..."

"Don't be silent. I'm not dead. I just went to...another place to play. Although no one has given me any promises, I believe in each of you, because I know that even if you don't say anything, He is also caring about me in his heart."

"..."

"Oh~ don't be angry! I'm not the only one who is willful. Aren't you also very willful? Our cute little hero."

"..."

Kosmo actually did not blame Alicia, but understood her very well. If there was a choice, who would let the situation develop in that direction?

He never considered himself a hero, he thought he was just an ordinary person with good luck, nothing more.

Because like ordinary people, he is afraid of loneliness, darkness and inner uneasiness...

Moreover, between going to the moon and escaping to the stars, there is no good option.

Both of these are bad options. The difference is that one will make a heroic sacrifice and the other will live modestly; one will experience short-term pain and the other will experience long-term pain...

Sometimes, choosing to live is more difficult than choosing to sacrifice. The pressure of living is not so easy to bear. Kosmo just chose a more difficult path to make it easier for another person.

It also "walks" better.

He just chose...to believe in a promise that was unrealistic and difficult to trust.

Kosmo didn't know whether his choice was right or wrong, let alone whether he had the power to make the choice for Gratius, but he still chose this decision.

Where in life are there so many choices? Many things can only be done through gritted teeth.

Thinking of this, Kosmo turned his head and glanced at the starry sky outside the window, and then froze.

Starry sky?

How is it possible to see the stars now? Shouldn't it be cloudy?

There is a huge sense of separation between the memory in the brain and the "reality".

etc! memory! Now...memory? !

After a while,

Kosmo understood that it was not a starry sky, but a "treasure map."

He once explored the stars, but he didn't know if he found nothing.

I also searched for "treasure" but found nothing.

"Alicia, what is the "most precious treasure in the world"? Kosmo murmured.

"The most precious wealth? For you, of course it is yourself~"

"Myself?" Kosmo came back to his senses, hesitated for a moment, and asked, "Then why did you give up the most precious treasure for you."

"Because...only by giving up can I find my true self."

Everyone's path to pursuing "wealth" is different, because everyone is different.

Alicia is a girl who can choose to sacrifice for others, so she gave up her "wealth" so that she could not give up her "true self" and get the "wealth" that belonged to her.

The second in the Zhuhuo Yingjie, Alicia, is a flawless person as beautiful as a flower who is named "True Self".

"Thank you," Cosmo said.

"Have you found your own 'wealth'?" Alicia tilted her head and smiled.

"Not yet." Kosmo shook his head, "However, I have found the 'wealth' I once had."

"Then keep working hard~ Believe in yourself, you are the best."

"..."

"Hey, don't be so depressed!" Alicia comforted, "I know you can't let me go, but people have to face reality. Think of the good in everything! Maybe, the real me is 'out there' Waiting for you~ Although Wutong is not very popular, he is very reliable."

"Did you notice it?"

"Of course, I noticed it the moment you looked at the starry sky. How about it? I'm awesome, right?! After all, I'm Alicia! Goodbye ~ lovely Cosmo~" Alicia smiled He waved his hand,

"I'm happy to be able to help you."

"Goodbye," Kosma whispered softly.

Everything around him shattered and disappeared like a mirror, leaving only the figure of a young man.