Chapter 17 Times Have Changed and Personality Has Collapsed

Although Bella has no education, whenever it is late at night or when she is particularly bored, she will also think about some questions that are difficult to answer.

For example:

Are my memories real? Is it me that I used to be? Am I who I am now?

Am I living in a false world? Does this world really exist?

Is what humans think of as reality the real “truth”?

Why do people live? Why live? What is the meaning of living?

Although life has happiness and beauty, there are also countless sorrows and pains. Survival is so tiring, depressing, and torturous. So, is death a kind of relief?

What is life? What is death?

The universe is so big, and human civilization is not even a drop in the ocean. It will one day perish, dust will return to dust, soil will return to soil, and all prosperity will be nothing more than a handful of fine sand. If this is the case, then why do humans persist? What about going on and adhering to the inheritance of civilization?

Why do humans as a whole "live"?

Any traces of human beings' past existence will one day cease to exist and disappear completely from this world. Then, when the traces completely disappear and no existence will remember the day when the human race will be remembered, human beings will continue to exist from beginning to end, generation after generation. Does your persistence and perseverance still have meaning?

Will the universe "die"? What is the meaning of the existence of the universe?

Does "meaning" make sense?

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Everyone may have thought about these doubts and questions more or less. Some people have found answers that satisfy them, but some people have never found the answers from beginning to end.

Bella was one of those people who didn't get the answer. Whether it was in books or on the Internet, she couldn't find an answer that satisfied her. Perhaps, there was no answer to this kind of question.

Bella did not seek answers from Brother Wutong or Dr. Wu Tong, because from ancient times to the present, the answers of countless philosophers could not satisfy her. Therefore, she did not think that Brother Wutong or Dr. Wutong could answer these questions.

Perhaps, even they are looking for answers and the value and meaning of life.

Sometimes, Bella would feel that time is "strange". It has been so long, but suddenly looking back, she can still clearly remember the day Blanca's sister left, and she can also clearly remember Blanca. It seems like yesterday that my sister looked stunningly beautiful when she put on her wedding dress.

A lot of things have happened over the years, but the worst thing is that, from unknown time on, an incurable disease called "Hengkai Disease" has appeared in this world.

Once ordinary people are infected with Honkai Disease, they can only wait to die. No one can cure it, including Dr. Mebius.

Because this disease will "mutate", people may have just found a treatment method, and Honkai disease will "evolve". The mutation of Honkai disease will always be one step faster than human treatment methods, which is desperate.

Even Dr. Mebius can only propose a method that can only theoretically cure Honkai Disease, which is "evolution" and "stigmation" of all mankind.

"Complete" human genes and improve the physical fitness and resistance to Honkai energy of all humans, so that no one will be infected with Honkai disease and no treatment will be needed.

Even if you are infected, with your high-quality physique, it will be much easier for doctors to treat you.

The reason why Honkai disease is difficult to cure is because ordinary people's bodies are too weak.

The method proposed by Mebius sounds good, but it is only a theoretical method and almost impossible to implement.

Human beings have no time and no resources, and dangerous practices may lead to the collapse of all human beings, which is too risky.

Therefore, humans are currently helpless against Honkai Disease and can only watch the infected people die one after another.

Apart from the Honkai Disease, what scares Bella the most is not the enemy of mankind, the Herrscher, but mankind itself, or more precisely, the changes in the people around her.

With the advent of the Herrscher, human civilization has been impacted again and again, and human tragedies have continued to occur. People who were once familiar made Bella feel extremely strange.

I don’t know when the taciturn Wutong started to become talkative. Bella initially thought this was a good thing, indicating that Brother Wutong might have walked out of the shadow of the past and the "scars" in his heart had healed.

But later she discovered that Brother Wutong's "wound" not only did not heal, but got bigger and bigger, because he didn't speak a human word, and his bad words became more and more poisonous. Sometimes even Bella couldn't bear it. She wanted to kill him, but she couldn't beat him, otherwise she would have done it long ago.

People are so weird. Bella used to hope that Wutong could be cheerful and talk more, and her "wishes" came true. However, now she misses Wutong very much when she didn't like to talk.

Bella didn't know what caused Wutong, who was once helpful and kind-hearted, to become what he is now.

Perhaps because he has been in a state of tension and depression for a long time, his emotions need to be vented;

It may also be because most of the friends and pets around him have left him, which has stimulated Wutong's spirit to an abnormal level;

It may also be because his body has undergone countless transformation experiments, and the changes in his body have affected his personality.

Wutong is one of the first few fusion warriors. Compared to the very obvious side effects of the others, Wutong's appearance has changed very little, so it is not ruled out that his side effects are reflected internally.

Of course, the most likely reason for Wutong's personality change is probably...the "add up" of all the above reasons.

If Bella could still accept Wutong's changes, then Dr. Mebius's changes were somewhat unacceptable to her.

Perhaps it was because Wutong's departure stimulated the doctor;

Perhaps it’s because the Doctor has seen too many tragedies;

Or maybe... it's out of despair...

In short, Dr. Mebius has become more and more cold and less "human".

Today's Dr. Mebius makes Bella feel particularly scared, the kind of fear that makes her feel terrified whenever she sees the doctor.

It doesn't matter if she is afraid, Bella is mainly worried. She is afraid that one day, the doctor who cherishes life will no longer be able to hold on...

Looking at the various changes in the people around her, Bella occasionally asked herself, has she changed?

Maybe it has changed...

At the very least, her appearance has matured a lot, and her various "skills" have also matured a lot. Now, she can not only maintain and maintain the laboratory instruments, but she can also do her own makeup. She can even assist Dr. Did some experiments.

Although Bella's knowledge was not as good as that of the later sisters Cang Xuan and Danzhu, she rarely did anything wrong, unlike the two sisters who always made trouble.

Bella seldom "fishes" now. In addition to daily work and rest, she spends almost all her time reading and exercising.

Things have changed and people have changed. After so many years, the only thing that has remained unchanged may be Alicia. She is still as beautiful, dazzling, lively and lovely, making Bella envious.

The sky was dark, and the dark clouds that could not be dispersed pressed low into the sky, as if they were going to swallow the whole world.

The rain falls in patter, like tears in the sky. It rains because the sky cannot bear its weight, just like tears are shed because the human heart cannot bear its sadness.

It seems that all tragedies happen on rainy days.

In Rain's Lament, Bella stood in front of the graves of Sister Blanca and Brother Hen, her face expressionless, and she didn't know whether it was tears or rain on her face.

Maybe it was the rain. After all, Blanca had already cried when her sister passed away a few years ago.

Not long ago, Hen died in the battle against the Ninth Herrscher.

Looking at the tombstone of Blanca and his wife, recalling every moment with them, Bella suddenly remembered a sentence, the so-called tragedy is to break something beautiful and show it to others.

At some point, Wutong, who was holding a black umbrella, stood beside Bella. He took out a damaged Fire Chaser Moth badge from his pocket and threw it in front of Hen's grave.

This was the only thing that Hen left behind in that battle. Kevin didn't have time to mourn his comrades, so he handed it to Wutong.

Hen's tomb is empty.

Bella stared blankly at the badge in front of the tomb, suddenly feeling a little scared.

She also has a "badge" in her hand, which is more "advanced" than Hen's ordinary badge. It is the medal awarded to Wutong by the Fire Chaser Moth, which represents the "noble" and "supreme" honor.

Then it was melted into a gold nugget by the sycamore tree. A few days later, on Bella's birthday, the sycamore tree was given to her.

That day, Wutong forgot to prepare a birthday gift.

Bella was afraid. She was afraid that one day, the "badge" in her hand would become Brother Wutong's relic.

In fact, Bella hadn't seen Wutong for a long time. She didn't know if it was Bella's illusion. She felt that since Wutong left Mebius's laboratory, the mice there didn't eat well.

Although Bella "inherited" Wutong's "philanthropy", she would always improve the food for the mice, clean the mouse nests, and buy toys... However, she always felt that she was not as good as Wutong in taking care of the mice, and the mice might Prefer sycamore.

Although the current batch of mice have never seen Wutong.

The small animals that Wutong once raised have gradually grown old and died.

Bella wanted Sycamore back, but she couldn't say it because she knew her thoughts were too selfish.

A moment.

"Brother Wutong, what is a human being?" Bella randomly picked a topic, and her dry and hoarse voice made her feel uncomfortable.

"Human beings are the most beautiful creatures in the world, and they are also the ugliest and filthy creatures."

Bella nodded numbly, yes, no animal is worse than humans.

People can always do good or bad things beyond human imagination.

When you call a person inferior to a pig or a dog, think about it carefully. Isn’t that an insult to pigs and dogs? Where are the bad beasts?

The two were silent for a moment.

"Brother Wutong, can you help me pick up Brother Hen's badge? I want to take it back to the bedroom, and I don't want Brother Hen to get wet in the rain."

Wutong was about to refuse, but he seemed to sense something and was stunned for a moment. Then he nodded slightly, took two steps forward, and picked up the badge.

Behind her, a bright smile appeared on Bella's face. She took out the self-defense dagger from her waist and suddenly stabbed Wutong in the back.

Bella still didn't understand why people should live, but she figured out one thing: the suffering caused by bad people should not be borne by good people.

Therefore, as long as the good people are dead, there will be only pain in this world, and these pains will also be borne by the bad people.

One day, bad people will destroy themselves, and then there will be no pain in the world.

Man is the source of all evil.

Bella thought that she was very awake at this time and her thinking was not affected in any way.