Chapter 1042 Alone

When autumn comes every year, Cangchu will leave the palace for a few months.

Because the Crown Princess likes to go to Cangnan Mountain to taste wine and enjoy the snow, Cang Chu would accompany the Crown Princess at this time every year when he was a young eunuch.

Sometimes life is really more exciting than drama. The Crown Princess likes Mu Jin, and Cang Chu likes the Crown Princess.

The Crown Princess didn't say that she liked Mu Jin, and Cang Chu didn't say that he liked the Crown Princess either.

Both of them love the person they like in a silent and protective way.

If that coup had not happened, the Crown Princess's wish would have come true, and Mu Jin would have slowly accepted her by then.

She didn't know what Cangchu was thinking at that time. It was both painful and happy, right?

What makes her happy is that the person she likes is finally happy, but what makes her sad is that the person who excited her is not her.

But he didn't expect that the Crown Princess would not get the happiness she wanted until her death, and Cang Chu didn't have time to tell the Crown Princess that he had always liked her.

In the dream, Ning Zheyan is a very sad character, whom he likes but cannot get.

Now Cangchu has become that tragic figure.

At that time, Mu Jin first captured Cang Chu, and then killed Yaoyao and Youruo.

When Cangchu woke up and learned all this, he cut off his meridians and died.

At that time, she was always there, waiting for Cangchu to wake up.

"Do you want to die and go down there to find the Crown Princess?" Aileen's cold words came, and Cang Chu's raised hand stopped instantly.

Looking at Eileen with doubtful and confused eyes.

Cang Chu liked the Crown Princess. He buried this secret very deeply, and at that time, he never confided it to anyone.

"What did you say?" Cangchu asked.

"Everything you say and do is very similar to the Mu Jin from before!" This sentence was told to her by Cang Chu himself in the dream, but now it came out of her mouth.

Cangchu's expression was naturally very surprised.

After the death of the Crown Princess, he almost imitated Mu Jin, from his eyes, to the way he spoke, and even his temperament.

But he was always himself, and he couldn't imitate Mu Jin all the time. He just lived like Mu Jin.

"Have you seen Mu Jin before?" Cang Chu sat cross-legged and looked at Irene with clear eyes.

"The Mu Jin of the past will not come back, but the way you look now is the way Mu Jin used to be. You are as kind and approachable, as gentle as jade, and there is always a faint smile on your lips, either bright or clear... ..." Irene doesn't want Cangchu to die. Even though he doesn't have much time left, he is still young. He can still meet the person he likes, fall in love, get drunk, and see all the prosperity of the world.

Without the responsibility of the family, he can live a very free and easy life, and can be himself without any worries.

"How do you know this?" Cang Chu was stunned for a long time, and a thin mist of tears appeared in his passionate eyes.

He likes the Crown Princess and has been imitating Mu Jin, but no one knows about it.

Even when he stood in front of Mu Jin, Mu Jin never noticed that he was similar to his previous self.

Maybe Mu Jin has long forgotten what he was like before.

"I dreamed about the Crown Princess. The Crown Princess told me." Irene lowered her eyes and told this white lie.

When Cangchu heard this, he immediately stood up from the ground, walked up to Irene excitedly, and asked with some urgency: "Is everything you said true? Did you dream about Yun Shu?"

Eileen nodded: "Otherwise, how would I know that you are imitating the old Mu Jin and that you like the Crown Princess?"

Cang Chu Moran's eyes contracted violently, and a flash of joy flashed in his eyes: "You didn't lie to me? Yun Shu really entrusted you with a dream? Did Yun Shu really say all this?"

"Yes, Crown Princess Hui Zhilan Xin, you are always by her side, how could she not know your thoughts? It's just that she was Mu Jin's Crown Princess at that time, and you were a little eunuch. In those years, you She was very grateful to serve her and accompany her carefully. Seeing you thinking about her all the time, she felt very uncomfortable. She was about to be reincarnated, so she dragged a child before leaving. Meng, let me tell you, she hopes you forget her and live well." Irene said these heartfelt words.

She doesn't want Cangchu to die. Sometimes death is easy, but living does not mean pain. There is also a wonderful and unknown future.

"Did she really tell you that?" With the previous words, Cangchu was convinced of what she just said.

His eyes were hazy and the corners of his eyes were moist, and Cang Chu had been trying his best to endure it.

The thing he regretted most in his life was not that he didn't save Yun Shu in time, but that he didn't tell Yun Shu his true feelings to her before she died.

Even on countless quiet nights, he drank bottle after bottle of wine and cried: Yunshu, I like you, I like you very much.

But Yun Shu couldn't hear it anymore.

"Yes, she can hear every word you say to her in your heart. She really hopes that you can live well. You are not destined to be together in this life, but if you are destined to meet in the next life, I hope you can have a little more courage. , be more proactive, so that different stories will happen between you. But in this life, the Crown Princess hopes you will forget her. There are still many good girls in the world waiting for you to love." Irene said emotionally. , almost made myself cry.

She really understood Cangchu's feeling.

Cangchu lowered his head, his body trembling slightly because of Yinren, and his sadness and pain were vividly displayed on Cangchu.

But at the same time, Cang Chu's depression and obsession buried deep in his heart were relieved. After the pain, he had never felt so relaxed.

"Okay, Yun Shu, if you want me to live well, then I will live well. If I meet you in the next life, I will never let you go." Cangchu's words were full of tears, and he was extremely determined. .

Thinking of this, Irene sighed softly, and after instructing the palace maid to take care of Yi'er and Yu'er, she left Weiyang Palace.

With the help of the palace maid, Irene walked into the palace where Cangchu lived. This was the place where he lived when he was a young eunuch. The place was not big, but it was kept spotless by Cangchu. The objects on the table were also very simple. , but it is an extra small bronze mirror for women.

It was the only relic left by the Crown Princess in Cang Chu under the fire, and it had been carried by the Crown Princess before.

Even though the bronze mirror of the golden hoop is a bit old, it has been well maintained by Cang Chu. Whenever he has time, he will follow the lines of the bronze mirror with his hands and caress it carefully.

Seeing Irene walking in, Cangchu quickly stopped what he was doing and said with a smile: "Mother, my room is too small, and it's not even big enough for you to turn around. You'd better get out quickly. If anything happens to you, Your Majesty, why don't you take off my skin?"

Irene gently squeezed the silk handkerchief and smiled: "How can I be so fragile?"

"If your Majesty comes to say goodbye to me, I will definitely welcome her, but if she comes to say goodbye to me, then I will drive her out." Over the years, Irene would hold a banquet in the palace from time to time, specifically for Invite those rich men from scholarly families.

Just to marry Cangchu, but unfortunately, no one likes her until now.

"Will you come back during the Chinese New Year?" Eileen smiled. Some things are not forced. When fate comes, everything will naturally fall into place.

Cang Chu's warm eyes fell on Irene's bulging belly: "In two months, the child will be born, right?"

"Yes, you will be the master of the child in my belly when the time comes." Irene lowered her head, a gentle light flashed through her eyes, and gently lifted a strand of hair beside her ear with her hand.

"If it were a girl, the emperor would be reluctant to give it to me. He would hold it in his hand for fear of dropping it, and hold it in his mouth for fear of it melting." Cang Chu pursed his lips and smiled, a warm and gentle smile.

"Just say you won't come back for the New Year." In previous years, Cangchu would stay in Cangnan Mountain, saying that he was accompanying the princess.

In fact, he is afraid that he will appear even more lonely in that atmosphere of family reunion, right? Everyone else was a lively family, talking and laughing. Even Xuan Li had a child and Feng Yin had a wife. He was the only one sitting at the lively table, and he seemed more and more alone.

"Don't come back. It's a good time in Cangnan Mountain with the monks in the temple. If the child is born, write me a letter." Cangchu hesitated for a while, and finally chose not to come back.

When Cangchu hesitated, Aileen also guessed Cangchu's answer and said with a smile: "Okay, if I give birth to a girl, how about you become my daughter's godfather?"

Be a girl's godfather? This sentence touched Cang Chu's heart.

"Will the Emperor agree? I'd better continue to be the master, and leave the job of godfather to Shang Li!" Cang Chu looked at Irene with passionate peach blossom eyes.

He likes girls as much as Mu Jin, but of course he hopes the girl will look more like Yun Shu.

But this is impossible.

When talking about Shang Li, Irene sighed softly. Shang Li was as infatuated as Cang Chu, thinking about his dead wife, but he was different from Cang Chu. Cang Chu was prepared not to marry any woman again in this life. idea.

But Shang Li can't, he just hasn't met the person who can replace his deceased wife, and he has been pestered by Li Jiujiu.

So Mu Jin made Shang Li the godfather of their two children.

"If a child has more godfathers, doesn't it mean he loves you more? If you are willing to do it, it's not too late for Mu Jin to be happy, so how can you disagree?"

Cang Chu looked at Irene and said with a clear and sincere tone: "The Crown Princess is the emperor's married wife after all. After Mu Jin became the emperor, the deceased Crown Princess was posthumously named Queen Renxian. All of this will be recorded. Based on the royal history books for future generations to read, if you ask a man who has liked the princess to be the godfather of his child, isn't this equivalent to admitting that his married wife has an affair with another man? Even some The evildoer tampered with historical facts and believed that the child was born to me and the crown princess."