492. Chapter 492 Tracking (2)

The air suddenly fell silent, and the only sound that could be heard was the 'sizzling' coming from the barbecue wallpaper.

Xi Xiaye looked at Mu Lingshi quietly, seeing a rare sadness and depression on her cold face, and then reached out and gently patted the back of her hand that was resting on the table, "I'm sorry. Maybe I shouldn’t mention it.”

After hearing this, Mu Lingshi smiled immediately, shook her head, picked up the wine glass in front of her with one hand, raised her head, and drank it all in one gulp.

"It's okay, it's just a thing of the past. When I mention it, it can be regarded as an occasional nostalgia."

She said lightly, and as she drank a glass of wine, some blush began to appear on her face, which made the wound look a bit discordant and ferocious, and the dim light in her eyes also became inexplicably lonely and melancholy. Xia Ye felt a little distressed.

"I heard that not long after my mother gave birth to me, her depression worsened and she couldn't control it. In the end, she killed herself and left nothing for Ling Tian and me. I don't even know what she looked like. Yes. Later, when I grew up and became sensible, I found out what she looked like from photos or newspaper clippings."

When Mu Lingshi said this, she paused, stared at the pen in front of her, and was lost in thought.

Xi Xiaye sighed secretly and silently picked up the wine bottle beside her and poured it for her. She didn't know how to comfort her, "Your brother said that my aunt is a very good person. I have also seen her photos. I I think she must be a good and intellectual woman. It was not her original intention to die so young and beautiful. Maybe we don’t know what she was bearing and how much pressure she was carrying, so there is nothing wrong with her.”

After Xi Xiaye said these words, Mu Lingshi shook her head sadly, and a faint sparkle suddenly appeared in her beautiful eyes uncontrollably, "No, sister-in-law, she is not a good woman, otherwise she would She would not give birth to me and Ling Tian. Ling Tian and I are just two bastards who don’t even know who their father is! The Mu family’s family tradition was ruined by her, and grandma almost kicked her out of the house at one point. However, she still defended that man so much that she did not hesitate to break up with her grandparents. In my eyes, she is not worthy of being a mother at all. How can such a person be an intellectual and good woman? "

Mu Lingshi took a deep breath, sniffed, picked up the wine in front of her with one hand, and drank it all again in a few sips, so fast that Xi Xiaye had no time to stop it.

"When we grew up, Ling Tian and I never gave up on finding that man, but because of her deliberate defense before, we had no information at all. Dad told me that she fell in love with a man who would never marry her. so……"

"I really don't understand, since I can't marry her, why do I still want to be with her? I can't give her any hopes and wishes, but I still dominate her and give birth to us. What do you think this kind of man is? Isn’t it shameful? Even I feel that the blood in my body is dirty, but there is no way to change this fact..."

Mu Lingshi's words were full of helplessness and suppressed anger. It was obvious that she must be resentful towards Mu Zixi, her mother, and her unknown biological father. This resentment even continued. for many years, and may become more severe day by day.

Xi Xiaye sighed softly and was silent for a while, then took a brief sip of the wine, and then said in a low voice, "I have heard such a song before--"

"Or love can make people blind, passionate enough to risk their lives, love will capture anyone, love will surrender to anyone, and break into the loneliness surrounded by fire... Unforgettable feelings can easily trap a person, no matter how stupid things are, maybe they can Do it willingly, this is the power of love, it can’t help but make people sigh..."

Xi Xiaye seemed to feel the same way, and the smile on her beautiful face was a little difficult.

"But, none of this is worth it. Even if she is willing to abandon everything, what did that man do to her in the end? When she gave birth to Lingtian, gave birth to me, and finally died in depression, where was he? He didn't come forward to see her. At one glance, every time she needs it the most, how can there be such stupid women in this world? And I am still the evidence of their stupidity!"

Mu Lingshi frowned and poured another glass, her cold voice filled with disdain and sarcasm.

"Perhaps, there is no question of whether it is worth it or not, only whether you are willing or not. This feeling of struggle is not something that most people can understand. Therefore, we cannot blame you too much. Ashi, my aunt may have many things that I feel sorry for you about. , but I believe she must love you, otherwise, she would not have insisted on giving birth to you and Ling Tian."

Xi Xiaye's eyes were filled with a faint glimmer, and he looked at her momentarily.

"I heard from your brother that you have always wanted to find your biological father, especially these days?"

Mu Lingshi closed her eyes, took a deep breath, opened it after a while, nodded happily, drank a glass, raised her hand to wipe the moisture from the corner of her mouth, and then said indifferently, "Yes, I am I want to see who this shameless and irresponsible man is! Why did he do this to us? He must know that Ling Tian and I exist, but he can still abandon us like this. My mother killed herself out of control, leaving us alone. . Our grandparents and parents were so worried about this. In order to prevent us from feeling any different from other children, we were given the surname Mu and became our parents’ children.”

As Mu Lingshi said, her hands clenched into fists uncontrollably.

Xi Xiaye listened and nodded slightly to show that he understood Mu Lingshi's thoughts.

She calmly picked up the wine and said to Mu Lingshi, "Okay, don't be sad, we will try our best to help you find him, but I still hope you can cherish the moment first, and then think about other things. Such peace, come It’s not easy, we should cherish it.”

Mu Lingshi met her starry eyes that contained such vague warmth, sniffed, then nodded, put away the brocade box, picked up the wine, and said with a smile, "Sister-in-law, thank you, I feel like every time I follow you After you finish speaking, you will feel a lot more relaxed. You are a good listener...Love can make people blind, passionate and desperate...Who can explain these complicated feelings clearly?"

"I can't tell... because they are not the only ones trapped."

Xi Xiaye smiled faintly, saluted her, and then took a sip gracefully.

"Well, I'm afraid, even I am trapped, otherwise..."

"Have you ever heard anything about my aunt's life? Let's see if we can find any clues?"

Xi Xiaye picked up a piece of roast beef and put it on Mu Lingshi's plate, and asked.

Mu Lingshi nodded, glanced at her gratefully, and accepted the order.